This one feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel of missing out on living him when he doesn’t come and then there’s these moments ever since waking up that he is all around you……dilkush on table some neighbour gets it some mention bout chetana opposite neighbour mom making chikudkayi for lunch like it’s all there and more of everything him……and from getting ready for work to sudden switch to getting in the short workout just cause there was that strong urge and need to feeeeeeel him away!!!!!!!
There’s this beauuuuuuuty every single time when you feeeeeeeel him this way like there’s SOOOOO Much touch and sound of him that you feeeel it that strongly as you move dance or stretch how you still donno but that much him the waaaaaaay you feel him over is beyond magic……to this one song from playlist plays and the very visual of him in Dd house in his room watching lord of rings on his laptop laying beside him……and when him on movie mode you really can’t disturb or divert him but your mind all him and this one time you look at him moving a lil away and that beauuuuuuuuuty of him him watching it that seriously without even a side eye at you……ayyyaaaaaaaaaaa the waaaaaaaay your heart feeeels away in that moment like that strong need to eat him awaaaay hold him squish him away and you can’t and that very second he looks at you and raises his eyebrow asking what’s up and you nod away saying nothing still watching him and he does it again and in ishaara you point your face towards him and the waaaaaaaaaaay he smiles away saying chal picture dekh and you nod saying a nod and the waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay he leans over a lil chummis you and then again says it ab picture dekh and you nod again and that chuckle of his just bout to chummi you again and you stay on his lip and start talking complaining rather mein picture dekhne nai aye cause it had been a month just a MONTH having seen him and the waaaaaaaay you still complaining he chummi eats your face away and as he does the way he that adoooooooooooorably like back then used to say aisaaaa!!!!!!
It’s that rushhhhhhh of him his sound of voice him saying certain words him moving him blinking him smiling him nodding him chuckling away ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa the waaaaaaaaaaay you looooooooooved living away every detail of his……like as you move post workout that one feeeeeeeeelnof him through those visuals from that moemnt was like actual mein living those moments with him today on the mat…..
Like you spend your evenings mostky working and watching his chuckle video with ringo his sound of voice and that him editing video recently…..
Having lived him looooooooved him that way focusing on something and like that used to be your ultimate fav time cause then all that him is yours to live loooove and adooooore away every detail of his……
Some moments and this state of mind now be it living him on the mat from back then in his room to now reliving it all away this rushhhhhhhhhhhhhh today!!!!!!
Like the missing the neeeding the feeeeeeeling this beauuuuuuutifully worse now…
Some days you just donnoooooo how to have a normal practical face on out!!!!
When there’s THIS much going on in the inside right now……!
Sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ayyyaaaaaaaaaa teraaaaaa buzzzzzzzz buzzzzzzzzzzzzdddddddd n howwwweeeeeee I sayyyyyyy!!!!!!!
I swear charlie if only he had the chinniiiiiiessssst idea!!!!!!!!
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