Years!!!!

 Lately this realisation of how long it’s been since you’ve see him for real touched him for real hugged him for real heard him for real the main reason to add for real is this important cause otherwise it’s every single day to hear him still hear him his exact voice saying certain things calling your name exactly how he used to feel his touch to still be able to smell his exact beauuuuutoful scent like it’s all still there and still isn’t…….

Is why sometimes these dreams don’t make sense to be able to live him this strongly exact version different versions of him and his love for you his missing for you him to be able to tell that to you in dreams and still the very version of the reality is when you lose the sense of……

Like how could this be still possible when he this strongly makes you feel him live him through the day through the night and still the distance for years now……….

Like you feel it so strong deep in your core that you can’t hide or fight that reality of yours too cause he did come that strongly felt that real like the shoot day you were actually laying over him your head over his chest and sharing some work thing with him in the dream playing with the hair on his hand and saying something with his music playing phuturepirmitve wala track playing and you telljg him bout it and that’s when your mom walks in and wakes you up saying you had some complaining tone literally sharing your day with him in the dream how weird could this possibly be where writing it out sounds even more worse……cause it somehow now makes you question your level of sanity like the only time it makes you do this…….

How could you possibly feel him this strongly almost every morning waking up with that feeeeeel of having met him and still long to see him feel him through the day looking for him in places malls streets around hoping to see him somewhere through the day…….to day trippin him through the shoot through the mall today and akele akele that him highedjust cause of that blink book moennt…….

Something’s nai something’s only!!!!!!!!

Zamanaaaaaaaaaaa ho gaya charlie having seen him for real to just live that moment of him standing across the room and walking towards him and living that feeeeeeeeel liivng that moennt of watching his smile grow that beauuuuutkfully with every step you take that feeeeeel of his hands his arm his shoulder that just that feeeeeeeeeeel of being wrapped all with him his arms around you ayyyaaaaaaaaaa to just live that one teeeeeeeeeeel of looking at him for real and the more you write this now this feeeeeeeeeeeeeel it’s filling you with!!!!!!!

This feeeeeeewwweeewwwwwwl right NOWWWW NOWWWWWW NOWWWWWWWWWWEE!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ayyaaaaaaaaaaaaa howleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee if he only lnewwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!’nnn