Music!!!!!

 Like you’d been avoiding to write this state of mind out for this long and all again it took was music to say it out of you…..

Like you’ve been trying to silence your dreams away your workouts away and just stopping at the cardio and stuff and avoiding the himhour of the workouts knowing it would only elevate all these feels away!!!!!

Like you wake up with that much him post dreams still and then the lostness follows throug the rest and get in as much work as possible but not happening…..and you had to take the day off today cause I swear charlie when the himness strikes through you like THIS you just wanna be on own…..away from it all and just be living this feeling this in the fullest way possible!!!!!

And without fail with music again just does something it’s like magic pouring through your soul and making it better somehow SOMEHOW!!!!!!!

It’s that sparkle with these memories rushes of him like visuals THIS clear like it wasn’t even about 15 years back whowwwww saying something’s out just does hit differently!!!!!!