Hiiiigg on the moooon and himmmmm right now!!!!
Jaaaanejaaaaaa kittuuuuu miyaaaaa dooondtiiiii hu mrinnnn tumhgrerrre mein yahaaaa ase wahaaaaaaa!!!!!
This moooooood suchaaaaaaa mooooood lately!!!!!
This one comstant stafeeee of happpppy himmmm highfddddddd you ate and ahowwwweeeeee!!!!!
Last night super tired like the schedule before shoot has always been this way but the second you come home play his music and this sudden vibe its lands you in is beauuuuuuuute i say!!!!!!!!
Still in that himzone vibe you fall asleep on the floor itself as you were working on sequence and mood layout for the poses and stuff!!
That one first second when you feeeeeeel him is always MAGIC!!!!!!!
Like eyes shut and that scent of him and even with eyes shut you try to move jjst your face up sniffing him away and the waaaaaaaaaay he holds your mouth and chummi eats your nose away again like he used to back then exaaaaact same way!!!!!!
That feeeeeeeeeeeeeel of him as he still was chuckling away even while chumming your nose and that adooooooooorably says howli hai tu look at me and that rushhhhhhhh of the sound of his voice every single time ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa your most loooooooooved sound in the world his voice that one ONEEEE tone of his voice…….open your eyes and there he was in blackkkkkk shirtttttt this time it was waaaay more deep than his usual style and the waaaaaay he looks you in the eye and that one smile of his and slowly moved a lil away that was your pull to him like the second he moves that way was your calling to move all in closer and that one stroooing pullll evrry single time he used to do the same back then too……..
Rushhhhhhh to him and chummi every to all of him away in that rush everytime you lay a kiss on him you tell him i missed you i missed you and the waaaaaaaaay every single time you tell him that replies back with a me too me too that one beauuuuuuuuuty of every detaul of him with every kiss the waaaaaay he moves making that one sound to that one chuckle jn that same tone adoooooooorably tickle horaaaa merku……the one time more he says that you literally wake up with that mixed vibe of giggling and also that highhhhhh rush of him still through you!!!!!!!
It was still night and that feeeeeeeeeel of not finding him there beside you lookikg that deliciousness that he was seconds back hits you weirdly…
Back to missing him more and listenjng to his niladri back to sleep to waking up and again no dream this morning…….
One of the beautiful yet weirdest thing happening since yesterday is that mode you are on even with work being this hectic is that one constant on mode…….like you just CANTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT help it cant help thinking bout him missing his details from that one dream the other day like its been playing on loop visually no matter what you do…like you are trying your best to get back to your normal mode switch but its NOTTTTTTT working at all!!!!!!
Today too same mode you are up in and now the visuals and sound of him from that moemnt on the floor is on play today subah se…….
How do you even HOW DOOOOOO YOU EVEN!!!!!!!
Ayyyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa kittuuuuuuuuuu kiitttttuuuuuuuuuuuuuu miyaaaaa only i say!!!!!!!!
When dont feel like daying the day today!!!!!
U knowwwww just how important somethjngs are essential for your being when you dont get to live it…
No him this morning and this weird side of the mood you have woken up with!!!!
Cant fight can’t normal right now…
And with days away from shoot pending planning and organizing you still cant get yourself to day the day i say…
Its this one blah not feeling a thing kinda vibe today!!!!!!
Sooooo yaaaahhhhhh!!!!!!
From that moment to this one from the dream and that one rush you wake up with and just had to get in the workout that need to feeel him more wanting more of him THAAAAAAT badly!!!!!!
It was barely 5 hours of sleep and THAT much him and you just had to today!!!!!!
And thisbeauuuuty of some vibes I say that mooood you wake up in to the workout and ever since that video of two feet and doing some research of dance videos on YouTube trying new thing away……
Secret dancing still baby steps cause you loove moving that way it’s that beautiful sense of him that comes along when you move that way…….AND it was and got wild I say!!!!!!
And this you realised with some specific stretches and you wanted to extend that to dance moves and how you looooved it today cause the waaaaaaaYs you felt him today as you moved was like dancing away for him to him with him and that state of mind mooood it lands you in is beyond!!!!!!!
To this one time still vibin to the music to the him feeeels you do this stretch head down back arm shoulder stretch kinda thing and you feeeeeel him beneath you……
Something’s you write out I know it’s madness but what and how something’s can make you possibly feeeeeel is beyond reasons or logics charlie……that one moment was JUST that!!!!!!
Post feeeeels now this hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh today on him!!!!!!!
Like you can still feeeeel that rush through you and this one feeeeel of realisation or that need today to be exactly that way and live that moemnt for real live him that way for real cause it’s mostly used to be him over today this strange need this strangely beautiful want even writing out this one shy muchness I say to hide away your mind only!!!!!!
New feeeels today again something feeling for the first time ticked for him…!
Himcomings like these too!!!!!!
Him him him HIMMMMMMM!!!!!!!
This gorgeous gorgeous beauuuuuuty this one fellow is I swear anything him be it just the sound of his chuckle shadow of his hand or visual of his feet in that back in Hyderabad story ayyyaaaaaa when anythung him gives you all these feeeeels away imagine justttttt imagine a himcoming like this one whatttttt allllll feeeeeels it can give you a way!!!!!!!
This heart this you right spoooooooo sooooooooo high on him already!!!!!
There’s this buzzzzzzz buzzzzzzzzing away in you through you like a rush of him would be an absolute understatement to the waaaaaaay this him feeels in you!!!!!!!
It was that different vibed dream yesterday you were up till very late in that dance vibe mode after his dream like that high on him and he again comes that waaaaaaaay it’s this lobby kinda place with stripes in sandstone and white and you were walking one stripe after the other his style like he used to go the block tile walk and that one hand on your waist……the waaaaaay he grabs you as you turn in that swirl kinda swing the waaaaaaay he chummies your face away even before you see him and you try to move a lil to see him what he was wearing and stuff but that one feeeeeeeel of his chummi every time eyes shut living him away with that full of him in that moment and he slowly moves a lil and he was in white shirt and white chaddis and that feeeeeeeel of him wearing it his style……as you check him out and you tell him feeling his chest away why isn’t this black and the waaaaaaay he chuckles away saying roz roz sirf black pehnu mein howli…..
Ayyyaaaaaaaaaa that sound of his voiceeeeee and you actually scream out saying tu bolaaaa tu bolaaaaa cause even in that moment it was excitement of living him look that girgeoysssssssssssssss in that and then actually to hear him talk to you with that one constant expression……as you try to hold him or something and you were over him in another place…….like he was right there with a grey sheet beneath him still in that shirt and you over him…….it’s that smiiiiiiile on him as you feeel his face his forehead and try to go closer you were on the edge of your couch and wake up…..
That one visual of being over him feeeeeelinf his details and watching him move that slow that beauuuuuuuuutofullu the waaaaaay it sets everything in you on the highest pace possible like that rush storm inside kinda vibe…….
Even as you write now that feeeeeeeelnof being over him that way like to actually live it feeeeel it after THIS long!!!!!!!!
This one time on Holi too after everything in his room the waaaaaaaaaay he was holding you roughly and biwwwwww you loooooved it cause you coildfeeeel away his missing the waaaaay he was feeeelinf your arms shoulder like bit by bit cause also first time head to toe you were in his clothes…..
To the mirror moemnt to finally lifting and dropping you in his bed and some moemnt and you get over instead…….things you shouldn’t be writing but also this this very need to today!!!!!!!
Cause it was that insync the dream and this moment from back then……you hold his arms away his style and the waaaaaaay he chuckles away saying meraaa styleeeee achaaaa it’s when you don’t say a word and just live that beauuuuuuty of him and the way the smile suddenly disappears and another gorgeoyssssssss expression of his as you go closer the waaaaay he moves ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaa something’s you write and relive now ayyaaaaaaaa how you misss that one face HOWWEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!
How does writing out make you feel it all the more deeeeply away!!!!!!!
Like reliving the moemnt in your head hits different but it’s all when you write out his every detail the waaay he looked in that moment the waaaaay he stared at you or that nod of his and now your mind is in a xomoleyelyyyy different zone like you just can’t feeeel see beyond that one moment with him…
Or is it the nights the beUuuuuty of some hours when it’s just you and all that you geeel away think away live away like it all just flows and howwweee…….
Opera THE place lived a zillion versions of him ayyaaaaa and looooooved each one of them asayyyy!!!!!!
It’s the waaaaay he would suddenly pause and just feeeel you away just by looking you in the eye not a smile just that one something expression on him and living you that way for a bit and then diiiive away to your side…
Today as the dermat checks the skin and says bout how sensitive it was to fragrance and even metal and just sit there as she shows examples on her ipad and one picture being that of a color of love and that instantttttttt it’s all him in that one second……..
Where he literally stops you on the stairs of back then big bazar at nachrma just soooo he could see his mark on you under the light……asking you in ishaara to move your dupata away just so he could see it on you you should seeeee him charlie in moments like these like the waaaaaaay he looks all of him in moments like these like that extra bit of more beautiful that extra bit of more passionate that extra bit of something more like everything around him just stood still paused all you could seeee feeeeel live looooooove was that beauuuuuty of him……
The way he keeps asking you he had a reason to smile away and feel happy about his darkest mark on you but why you were you smiling away looking at him…..
It’s that feeeeeeeel charlie when you live a moment and you realise that reality of your life again yet again I love HIM!!!!!
All over again kinda realisational hit it used to be!!!!!
Be it then or now reliving that moment of him his face his expression from that moment and that same realisation again I looooooooove HIM!!!!!!!!!
It’s been a dance viiiibe youday since the start of the day today and all it took was that one moemnt with him on the straits from the dream and the waaaaaay it set that playlist for the day today with allllllll things HIM and howwweeee!!!’n
To this moemnt when watching some nba movie with harlow u instead switch to his disclosure music and find these viiibees and the waaaaaaays they bring him along…
This beauuuuuuty of some days when jus knowing realising how he knewwwwww ur skin too even before anybody else your mom you or the dermat knewwwww……..
When roseee today hits you differently it’s this happppyyy high of the sound of his words at opera touching your skin on the neck awaaaay…….
Chuckling adooooorably as he feels your skin and says you have one very sensitive skin and you tell him it’s normal only and the waaaaaay he has that adooooorable naughty smirk where on a normal day should’ve irritated you but the waaaaay he used to make those faces in moments like these just before saying something stole your heart away again and hiwwweeee……
Trust me karely I knowww I’ve seen you have the most sensitive and delicate one……I didn’t even that hard and your neck is deep red already……and every single time he would say or do something like that you give yourself more and ask him to show what was the hardest like!!!!!!!
And the waaaaaaaaay he just looks you in the eye that one lil smile and thaaaaaaaaat nod THAAAAAAT one nod and leans over you……….
Something’s you write you relive now and this feeeeeeeeeeeelinf right now!!!!!!!
Some tracks some visuals and the waaaaaays they bring him along where you don’t even get the lyrics of the track as it’s some other language but here you are straight tanforedted to opera and in that moment with him…
Zooooooop bolkeeee!!!!!!!
Who would’ve thought struggling with this perfume rash on neck and wrist with different creams is not working but the happppiness it’s been giving you away is beyoooooond!!!!!!
It just makes you happpppppppy even right now living him in that moment from opera ayyyaaaaaAa he was your ultimate poooor heart I swear!!!!!!!
Still is , reliving it now!!!!!!!!!
