Waking up!!

 The other day waking up on your way to work that one dream of his you couldn’t get your mind off…

It was an early day to work with some client appointment and yet that one strong missing him rushing through you and right bout the store turn you ask driver to take to Nacharam instead…

Right from the moment you cross the begunpey flyover the tibbs frankie place lifestyle building to the Pizza Hut place no more to the orchids florist close to the gym turning to the gym circle to the entire lane there onwards….

There’s still soooooooooo much every corner every turning everywhere there’s him to your Habsiguda lane ayyaaaaaaaaaa you’ve lived the most loooooooooooved time of your life there…

Like literally lived your LIFE there the ultimate and complete self of you there the complete essence of happiness and just everything love there that one place you’ve LIVED him there!!!!!

Even writing it now this very feeling rushing now is also the main reason why you avoided writing it out that very same day…

Today having lived the beauuuuuuuty of him with ayyyaaa daaaaaaaadi the looooove of your life on his face right there….

Just have to write it out just this beautiful need to today…!

That one galli of your building ask the driver to take it to the end of the lane and just park for a bit and the drivers gets out after parking stay there for almost 40 something mins just crying your heart out…

You didn’t plan or intended to it’s just that whole feeeeel of just you being there in the car looking at that lane at your apartment there was like going back in 2009 and reliving all him right from the day one….. this one day he drops you outside your apartment I think it was the stadium day and jokes bout how he is going to follow you till the lift to see which floor you stay on…and you ask him instead to come along with you and he just pauses for a bit looks you in the eye and just asks in ishaara if you were serious bout it and you still wait there and the waaaaay he that excitedly gets out and comes along with you…

Not a word single word in the lift just stands there smiling away and you looking outside the lift that one feeeeel inside and get out on your floor and right at the stairs show him the penthouse there and he stands happily nods that nod of his and you nod back asking him if you could leave and he just waits there waving at you…

This was when you felt that shift in you that one shift of wanting to see him more look for him in the gym in his absence just wanting to live him from a distance even as he would workout on the other corner and you on the treadmill just that one wonder that one need where he is to live him…

From that day to evenings you would walk around holding his hand in those lanes around or sometimes just having chips and snacks in his car in the evenings when he suddenly feels hungry and wanted to have chips with you in your galli and would come from his ghar se to your lane…

To one day parking his car beside your apartment talking talking end up reaching the main road of the street and only after reaching do you realise you were there and didn’t realise talking to him…

Then he takes you to his gaming side and the bakery beside damn you did forget the name of that bakery and gets some chocolate ignoring a few friends of his trying to come say hi to you as he wasn’t really fond of them…

On your way back ayyaaaaaaaaa that one smile the waaaaay he used to glow differently beauuuutifullu under those warm tone street lights and how you looooooooved watching him under those lights like him talking and you absolutely completely lost in him under those lights…

It’s that thing charlie when you suddenly realise how you could loooove someone’s nose too looove someone’s eyebrows the way their eyes move stare at something or that one expression just before the smile hits that one second of transition expression it’s realising how you could looooooove just living somebody’s details away and it actually making you happy like you’d never felt before…

Not knowing still not knowing it’s love this is what love feels like you were just looooooving those details away like his face used to make you very happy actually correction still does happpppyyyyyyyy and howwweeeeeeee!!!!!!!

Like him talking talking suddenly would come just close that his arm touches yours just slightly and it actually was also the first time that touch didn’t shake you like it felt like it was a touch your skin was already familiar with…that it doesn’t make you move or give that sudden shake!!!!!

Ayyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa this mind nowwwwwww!!!!!!!