you do live him in many ways in dreams almost every morning you wake up with.....
but smtimes nai charlie there is that lilst of moment lilst of presence that can make all the difference....
and this one was for you that one moment.....
the after of it you still are struggling to get over !!!!!!!!!!!!!
and HOW !!!!!!!!!
the mind after that moment the you after that one moment hasnt been felt the same.....
its like suddenly you have come alive......
ekdum seee !!!!!!!!!!!
this one calm like you cant speak dont wanna speak or talk kinda state of mind......
couldnt go to the studio either and just in your room.....
like you are doing your best to get over it and yet cant jsut cant.....
cause that one whisper of his did bring back all of Him and every bit of Him that youve lived with him....
and HOW !!!!!!!!!!
his smell his touch his voice his whisper him living you and of all the things the day you felt his love again for the first time that one meet versova meet.....
it did bring back all of it that you stopped thinking reliving bout !!!!!!!!
off late youve only been tying your hair up in a top bun or its in a pony.... rarely leaving it open.....
but ever since that one whisper that need just that need to let it open....
leave it that way.....
as you do its you still living reliving that whisper of his voice that closeness of his.....
its been this long now charlie that almost feels like it was another lifetime.....
having lived Him that close to you for real !!!!!!!!!!
like it now feels like it was decades ago !!!!!!!!1
after that moment like the mind is that lost running on a track of its own....
its this thing charlie bout missing smthing.....
when you miss smthing or someone you obvsly subconsciously tend to feel the person living it rather more lucky.....
not sure if its natural or just you but you sort of tend to feel that way.....
like you know you miss someone and anybody that gets to live that someone prolly the luckiest.....
in your case now being decades ago its this feeling this new feeling know this is where it gets weird and all that weird guilt or not sure what ...... where your mind sort of tends to feel this how lucky that one someone did get the touch the voice to be heard to live that presence of his in any and everyway..... when you relive that feeeeeel of him over your ear your skin after that long.... the way it keeps going to how lucky that skin.........
even writing now it is feeling ajeeb might delete all this later but now its this need to get it out of you......
its like when you dont relive smthings you sort of tend to forget it exists.....
or youve ever lived.....
cause it was years back......
and then a moment like this a touch a presence a whisper like this changes it all away and HOW !!!!!!!!!!!!
even writing it now feeling waaaaaaaay more ajeeeeeber than you did before bhi !!!!!!!!!!
but smthings nai better writing it all out !!!!!!!!!!!!!
some people nai how weird it is dont even know how lucky truly lucky and blessed did they get just like that !!!!!!!!!!
THAT lucky !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but smtimes nai charlie there is that lilst of moment lilst of presence that can make all the difference....
and this one was for you that one moment.....
the after of it you still are struggling to get over !!!!!!!!!!!!!
and HOW !!!!!!!!!
the mind after that moment the you after that one moment hasnt been felt the same.....
its like suddenly you have come alive......
ekdum seee !!!!!!!!!!!
this one calm like you cant speak dont wanna speak or talk kinda state of mind......
couldnt go to the studio either and just in your room.....
like you are doing your best to get over it and yet cant jsut cant.....
cause that one whisper of his did bring back all of Him and every bit of Him that youve lived with him....
and HOW !!!!!!!!!!
his smell his touch his voice his whisper him living you and of all the things the day you felt his love again for the first time that one meet versova meet.....
it did bring back all of it that you stopped thinking reliving bout !!!!!!!!
off late youve only been tying your hair up in a top bun or its in a pony.... rarely leaving it open.....
but ever since that one whisper that need just that need to let it open....
leave it that way.....
as you do its you still living reliving that whisper of his voice that closeness of his.....
its been this long now charlie that almost feels like it was another lifetime.....
having lived Him that close to you for real !!!!!!!!!!
like it now feels like it was decades ago !!!!!!!!1
after that moment like the mind is that lost running on a track of its own....
its this thing charlie bout missing smthing.....
when you miss smthing or someone you obvsly subconsciously tend to feel the person living it rather more lucky.....
not sure if its natural or just you but you sort of tend to feel that way.....
like you know you miss someone and anybody that gets to live that someone prolly the luckiest.....
in your case now being decades ago its this feeling this new feeling know this is where it gets weird and all that weird guilt or not sure what ...... where your mind sort of tends to feel this how lucky that one someone did get the touch the voice to be heard to live that presence of his in any and everyway..... when you relive that feeeeeel of him over your ear your skin after that long.... the way it keeps going to how lucky that skin.........
even writing now it is feeling ajeeb might delete all this later but now its this need to get it out of you......
its like when you dont relive smthings you sort of tend to forget it exists.....
or youve ever lived.....
cause it was years back......
and then a moment like this a touch a presence a whisper like this changes it all away and HOW !!!!!!!!!!!!
even writing it now feeling waaaaaaaay more ajeeeeeber than you did before bhi !!!!!!!!!!
but smthings nai better writing it all out !!!!!!!!!!!!!
some people nai how weird it is dont even know how lucky truly lucky and blessed did they get just like that !!!!!!!!!!
THAT lucky !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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