Heights n Mountains!!!!!!!

 Heights and mountains and peaks of cuteness I saaaaay!!!!!!!

Inneeeee itttaaaaaaaaaa cuteeeee kaiseeeee like howwwww and the things it does awaaaaaaay with your mind just one look one glimpse one slightest of something anythung or pooora him like today and THIS you it leaves you with is beyond the logics and words of the world I say!!!!!!!!

THAT one smile leaving your face with the widest biggest smile glued away on your face howwwww like this feeeeling all khush away just by seeeing him smile that one smile awaaaay!!!!!!!

Now when packaging words like mehbooobnagar Dd colony this beauuuuutifully insync is khushinesss beyond worlds I say!!!!!

Said it before can say it a zillion times over nothing can possibly make you this THIS happy the way anything to do with him does!!!!!!

THAT ONE FACE!!!!!!!!

 That THAT one face in the world for you!!!!!

Ayyyyaaaaaaaaaa mera pooora ka pooora heart and life right there!!!!!!!!

THAT LEVEL OF ADOOOOOOORABLENESS!!!!!!

This mind this you the waaaaay tinggggg bolke transforms you awaaay and how!!!!!!!

Muskuraaaaake dil kuuu churaaaate hai!!!!!!!!!!!

Mind gone and howwww no matter what work you are at where you are at mind offfff it goes with him and HOW!!!!!!

The scent of nostalgia…!

 A self chill time after a very very long time of last few over hectic weeks of early mornings n late nights at work with bare minimum breathing space but made few very good changes…..

This beauty of nostalgia that also comes along with familiar scents n tastes from back then…

Scent of mehendi n the taste of aarselu !!!!!

Final day of Navratri and Pooja at studio this need to try mehendi after a decade almost and the way that sound of his words comes along with the sight n scent of mehendi!!!!!

Bad at mehendi designs u burn your right hand few fingers at Pooja today so you copy a few burn marks that look like lil dotted stars…….

This beauty of some nights the scent of October music this good playing echo of words from the past and visual of lil dotted stars on fingers!!!!!

Something’s again beyond reasons or logics I say!!!!!!

Sound of music!!!!

 This feeeeeeelin when you stumble upon such good music that syncs in this beautifully well with the mood n state of mind you already were in!!!!!!!

It’s avfeeeling beyond words!!!!

SOUNDS!!!!

 And some sounds just like that thaaaaaat beauuuutifully laced with all of Him touches you away and HOW!!!!!!

Right in the middle of the workout with a 5kg dumbbell in hand your mind soul and body takes a flight woooooosh bolke!!!!!

Lose the control over hand and the way all of y9u is just that beauuuutifully held away with stillness with all things him!!!!!!

This fataaak sa smile on face!!!!!!

Moments n sounds like these!!!!!!

October...!

 This one month the most special it's like a celebration in itself each day.....

The way the mind is on a replay mode evry single year during this time...

The days with him to his birthday the most important day of your life to knowing it's love after all it's like every single day to relive every single moment to relive makes you realise why you couldn't didn't wanna change a thing...

Even writing now the way it just fills your heart with that one biggest most beautifully ironic sigh - Him!!!!!!!

Lil did you know that one adooooorable thing was soon going to transform you and your life away for a lifetime ahead......

That one face in the world for you!!!!!!!

This one month and the waaaaaaays it brings him along!!!!!!!!!!

Maybe also why all this while staying off checking him on instag to ever since the onset of october that one wait to grab her fone to jst check on him hint of him anything him almost evry single day.....

Mind i tell you can't put a leash on the one that's meant to fly i say......!

And off it goes!!!!!!!!

This mind now!!!!!

 It's EVERYTHING him kinda day today too!!!!!!

According to you it was just a meet just stopping over a temple to do some mannat of your mom's complete that day and he takes you to that only temple after many temple searchings.....stays out cause of the family issues he was dealing with back then.....soon as you are back those moemnts with him to just see him live that version of him from that upclose changed something inside of you then and there itself...

It was that whole beauty of transitional moment charlie from all that fear of touch closeness there was that moment to see him live his details from that close to feel that beauty of his forehead and then most importantly to live that moment with him looking you in the eye like that one starevof his always that makes you feel like he is looking through and inside your soul...not just looking at you!!

The way that moment just held the two of you and HOW!!!!!

it was only till the sound of the traffic around that made you realise you were lost in him.....it being love was something you realised much later but then itself it's like something just shifted in you that moment with him.......!

All your way back at the studio it's been very hectic last few weeks and today too amidst all the rush rush at work it's him charlie the waaaaaaay anything to do with him slightest of him eases your mind out and how!!!!!!

It's like suddenly and just that beauuuutifully you land in another zone altogether!!!!!!

Everything inside outside just feeels that beautifully slow mellow hazy high kinda state of mind.....

Almost home and just check on insta with some friends message asking to meet for the festival and first post you see instead is of Wake Up Isd!!!!!

13 years!!!!!!!!!!!

There are times when his words just hit your mind with that harsh reality side of him telling you things you don't wanna repeat including dint remember a thing bout you......it's that point you reach mind wise heart wise that says screams sometimes give up!!!!!!

And amidst everything else there is one moemnt of him with him that you relive that again changes it all away and HOW!!!!!

It in a strangely beautiful way reminds you how why you couldn't give up all this while!!!!

Like reasoning out for the way you feel for him and why nothing could ever change it...!