Yesterday!!

 Just yesterday on your way back from work raining and the other corner of the road somebody's car wheel cap comes off rolling before your car...

There he was again!!!!!!

On your way to some movie with him and mango and he suddenly stops to the side right before the Begumpet flyover pulls over and he gets out as he had noticed the wheel cap of his car come off and you turn around watching him runback slow towards the car with the wheel cap and it's these moennts charlie like random moennts very random nothing romantic and yet it makes your heart feel that extra special like it makes your heart go ayyyaaaaaaaa this one human the way this one human feels in your heart sings to your heart is like no other......

It just feels that different inaide your soul not just your heart like all of your insides feel differently sing differently dance differently to the sound of this one human...

A presence like no other in the world is what it does to you speaks to you in a way only you understand...!

That very moment wheel cap rolling right before your car and there was that moemnt of his rolling straight into your heart I say!!

It's that instant smile inside outside like that one feeeel there he comes, there He comes... Yet again!!!!!

To this morning from that dream of his to seeing no him on WhatsApp heart breaking somehow these mornings that very realisation and that moment at the cafe again buying bread and you literally picture him standing beside you smiling at you at the counter and you just freeze there smiling away like absolute madness of day dreaming away I swear!!!!!

Like that level of strong missing today!!!!!

To few hours back you see your most beloved red halo over him and the second you come back home take your mom's phone see and there he was ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa even his back made you that happpppppoy away!!!!!!

Like you just run to your room play his music and lights out and just be there missing him more away basking a lil more in that rushhhhhh of him!!!!!!!

Him changing tires his sister's picture of him all blue all rained out streets and him just changing tires very sexy!!!!!

I'm telling you charlie like it's always been this way and he somehow knew it too bout you like looooving going crazy over random things bout him like random most things bout him used to make you that happy that instant smiiile tinggg on you in an instant!!

And the waaay he would laugh at you for that calling you howli hai re tu poori!!!!

Today just seeing him living his back away to just see some of him any of him and you just couldn't stop smiling awayyyyy cause trust me that darshan of his back too did come after a very VEEY long time!!!!!!

It's that need to live him feeeeeel him miss him more like lettinf yourself live that him that way missing heartest away with his music...

Some moments nai charlie like are a self induced chaotic Sukoon somehow like they give you that level of Sukoon at the same time you know it will only make the missing more worse and yet AND YET you can't help but just feel away miss away and howwweeeeeeee!!!!!!

That one human that one face that one back that one HIM!!!!!!!!!