World of Him!!!!

 The mind prolly the most beautiful and mysterious organ of all I say!!!!

To the world outside its one thing but to you alone it's just you that knows what's goin on in the inside this one world of Him inside you!!!!

Not just this situation but the mornings the moments you live him in through the day through your best days to the worst ones it's this one him constantly there.....

To that moment the other day that sudden shift and that feeeeel that followed with it come too far all of this his dreams moments like these can't be for no reason....it's that sudden faith hope belief that has found its way back after years in you... For the first time in the longest of times!!!!

With that much him and the planning running your head passed out watching stranger things....this season the longest you took cause it's the scariest tik date and yet that khujli i tell you to finish it also!!!!!

To this day today with too many things to plan out with mangaer looking for places and then to the bank to get some changes in current account thing it's this feeeeeeel charlie that comes even much before his actual moment strikes like in the movies they create this vibe this atmosphere before hero ki entry exaaactky ditto this thing bout his moments too.....like the music u suddenly switch to the weather the people walking around suddenly visually it all gets slowmo and then there is that moemnt of his entry his something and that feeeeeeeel it fills you up with!!!!!

Specially when the day starts of wit some specific dream of his you just know there's more tobthe day for sure!!

Grateful!!!!

 Its in situations like these prolly you realise the strength of yourself and the people you are surrounded with!!!!

The staff that you have now venkatesh pretty small to look at the rest too but thatvone thing bout being there for you yesterday meant a lot.....

The way they are that they consider Indishree as their family and woukd be there also when venkatesh tells you only yesterday that he did name his daughter too as Indushree.....like yesterday there were too many realisation with that final step to make the change....

Always wanted to have a commerical onebchalrie but to start with the search is one complicated step with the lil time thatbyiu have on hand.....

When you come back home and tell your mom bout this the first thing she asks you is what made you smile cause the maggam staff told her the same and she was stuck with why didn't you call her right away and why were you smiling in that situation like it cohjdve intimated her made the situation even worse and you just didn't have a word for that!!!!!

Like even as she was asking you boutbthe same the smile comes back again cause one ear was still connected to his music!!!!!

The vibe!!!!

 There is always that sudden vibe of his presence charlie like the scene was like her with thise two patthes standing at the end of lobby you on the other side the backdrop the plant area swaying away to that sudden rush of the wind his song playing closest to you your mind going blur over her bit of the visual even with your staff around them the scene was pretty intense but your mind at that ease with thatvsmile on your face.....

Even venkatesh comments over how you still dealt with the situation like that smile on your face.....

If only you could express out the actual reason behind it.....

Thank God for atleast venkatesh coming back he has been the driver right from the start but with his sude3n village plan was away for months and had to find others that weren't as safe and secure this guy was.....

Pretty much guard sorts but even then charlie apart from that first hit of the situation visually cause it looked pretty scary initially the waaaay just that switch of play pretty much switched away the situation in your head itself....

Exactly why the first thing as and when youbcan when you kiss him the most the first thing to see always is his Instagram and his YouTube for some music of his which he doesn't even update anymore yet that wait always.....

Something's nai you can't define them with why you do what you do, it's just bout the way something's can make you feel...

The yesterday 3!!!!

From that dream from that moment of being THAT close to!!!!

The waaay it just stayed with you through the day....

Yesterday prolly was the most hectic day at work that yove experienced in the last few years....

Lil back story the place that your studio is at now is a ministers bungalow so you've taken up pretty muc the entire space one floor for the workshop and the other for the studio...it's been all good this far last few weeks there was a sudden rent hike cause the landlord she had started following the page too.....

Still okay at that, few days back she knows she is not allowed within the premises if your car is not there atvthe studio andbyet she drops by and literally forces the store asistant to give her and her friend the outfits away without any payment or confirmation like she just needed it without any order process or anything basically walks in tries it out and decided to take it away wit her friend!!!

The assistant calls up the manager they couldn't tackle the situation and finally you make the call and sort the things out for the moment in the best way possible!!!!

U were out at concu and this happened in your absence.....

All this while you thought the situation was sorted until yesterday....

She comes down to the studio with two random men and luckily your driver comes along standing in the way.....she starts to argue over things bout how she just wanted the outfits why would she pay for them and stuff......all this while there was his music playing in the background your mind stilkl that calm like it didn't affect you in anyway suddenly there was a playlist shift and his lucky Ali dekha hai aise bhi starts to play.....

And you like always just couldn't help but smile in that heat of the situation too.....

Firstly you were all by yourself manager absent store assistant absent just anjum the two other men and your driver.....

U just ask the driver to call yakub the staff fronthe workshop saying forbthe outfit alterations but the venkatesh being smart that he is brings along 2-3 main of the staff and they just stand there.....the song still playing wndbthe smile still there and she gets even more irritated and asks you what was making you smile and tell her it's not working out and you would vacate the space next 6 months as per the agreement and sudd3nly her tone changes cause you were still paying her commercial space rent just cause it was an independent house it was easier workshop and studio same....

She spologides for the misunderstanding and everything but you stick to what you'd decided...

T hat one thing he told you charlie back then like it has stayed with you evry single time in a situation like this, karely if somebody tries to scare you or yiubare uncomfortable with someone's presence closebto you just look them in the eye straight face as calm as you can and it will automatically make it better for you.....

Basically to scare them back and with the sound of his music it only made everything that much smoother for you!!!!!

Things you realise in the most complicated of situations the waaaaaaays he is there with you in moemnts!!!!!!

It didn't scare you anymore like the sight of two men suddenly barging in with her cause the door was open did scare you initially but eventually with his music it all turned out pretty smoooooth i say!!!!!

Now you get it why the ca had warned against the big purchase of your much loved car back then.....

Taking a leap forward like you always wanted a proper commercial space but that's one big investment also need to find the right property that has an arrangement forbthe workshop too...

It's always bout how you take it nai!!

The yesterday 2!!

 Even in that very moment as you live that sound of his voice the way it takes you back to the same tone of his voice you staring away at the sea at his versova place waiting for him to çome out and that saaaame style of his whatsuuppppp and then he adds mein aa gaya that same breath as he did come running that same sound of his smile as he says and the second turn and look at him that one face that one expression charlie always the same no matter how many gaps in between that first look first face of his soon as he sees you constant looking you in the eye living your facial details with that one smileeee on him and the way he nods away asking jayingay andar.....

Everytime any versova memroy recall and this feeeeeeeeeeeeel it fills you up with every single damn time!!!!!!!!

Howleeeeeeeeee in this very moment here how only you were missed!!!!!!

That one face that one expression every single time!!!!!!!

The yesterday!!

First the him from yesterday!!!!!

There was some dream of his like you were living some dream and with it you change the side cause you could hear his music on the other side much clearer and as you turn that one whiff of air over your face that one smellllll of his that THAT close to you and that tone of his voice saying hmm mein aa gaya with that sound of his smile as he says it and that rush of breath in his tone like he lietrallu did come running and that close to you like he laying beside you that you could feel his arm over yours......that slightest touch of his arm and thevway he comes a lil more closer youcouod feeeel his daaaadi over your nose and that sudden shiver rushes through you like that shake and you wake up......

Evry single time youve woken up midways in a moemnt like almost bout to chummi you kinda moment and you wake up without the chummi that THAT one feeeeeel that one lil scream inside you sapnee mein tho Karlene Dena nai!!!!

That one unsettling feeeeelncause you were that that close and you wake up!!!!!

Like that one feeeelnstays with you and how with that even much stronger rush of missing literally jumping inside you and outside that straight face on!!!!

Like there's a tornado of mixed feeels rushing inside the way the mind keeps going back to that one feeeeel of his daadi over your nose like he was coming closer and your damn shiver!!!!!!

SOME days!!!!!

 From the most hectic lowest day yesterday to this one today!!!!!!!

Again times when you realise how just that touch of him brightens up everything away......

That one person in your life that one something in your life that you always come back to at the end of the day that one feeel that one vibe you come back to end of the day when you are done for the day work life in general a good day bad day hectic one over worked one or a chilled one andbyet that one vibe like nothing else that makes you feel that way like your place your vibe that one something in life nothing else.....

It's this feeeeeeeeeeeel that you are feeeling and right now cause today right from the very start was something else again......cause the yesterday was something like you've never experienced work wise like a learning point that made you change up switch up a notch higher like if it wasn't for the incident you were pretty settled with the current space....

But the ways charlie be it fever dreams he is always there be it a bad day like yesterday and yes he was there then too ayyyyaaaaaaaaa that one adorablest thing on the face of this planet i say your poooora ka pooooora heart and soul right there on his face!!!!!!!!