Visuals!!!!

 It’s almost magic like how some visuals just sort of pull you out of the present and take you back to one of your many most fav memories with him…

Post new years dinner with mom this one lane very chowpatty Bombay style near Inorbit with food trucks ice cream bandis you stop by at for some ice team……

This one car on the opposite side where the girl gets down guy out she brings her own plate of something and they both have it on the car…..

Chai galli back then evening street lights on him getting down as you get down he insists on you sitting inside the car him at the dosa bandi under the orange street light……and that was one of your most fav visuals of him him standing there under those lights looking all the more beautiful as he turns around looks at you knowing your eyes must be glued onto him like you could sense that surity in the way he turns around with a smile on him sets his hair away smiles at you and gets on with the order…….it’s these moments where in your heart you feeeels the happiest luckiest person alive on the planet to always looking up feeling grateful away just for HIM…….

As he walks towards the car he chuckles away nods away watching you live him away like that and comes into your side of the car and you ask him what it was bout him still chuckling away nodding away and leans over looks yaha waha chummis you away and says this it’s you……since the beginning in this galli you always look at me this way and I love it like it just looks at me this way…..

Sits closer to your leg asking you to play some music still with that smile on……it’s the way he would remember lilst detail bout you lilst moment lived with you like exactly know how you woood react to a certain thing or gesture of his…….like literally know you inside out!!

And it had always been that way how you looooooooved living him away doing random most things in that same galli starting starting him taking you there for chai in the winter evenings orange street lights and how you loooooved the way he would walk up there turn around look at you ask in ishaara big cup or small cup or want some food along kinda thing……and you just nod away to everything then point on himself and you fataaak se nod away with excitement!!!!!

There was something that beautiful magic like almost the way he would glow different under those orange lights the way he would walk upto you with that one smile on still always nodding knowing your loooooooove to live him away…..it’s like you didn’t wanna miss out on a single visual of him maybe for nights like these…

His hands his arms his face his cheek his chin his beautiful sky like forehead his shoulder his feet his walk his smile his that one nod that one adooooooorable sound of his voice screaming mad at you and that was also your most loved tone of his voice to his fone chummis sometimes the first thing soon as you say a hello he would start of wit his shower of kissies for almost a min and that’s when you know he for sure is coming to see you tonight like on some days you could sense that missing more than the regular day…

Where to where only it went………

It was a quiet new years mom not understanding why the fever and it’s been over 10 days prolly now it’s just this state of lostness to today finally having the new years dinner and this need to be in a place that feels like Bombay and then to find a visual that gets you closest to him - BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!

Be it the dream this morning with his kissies telling you something to a moemnt like this one to a memory writing like right now the way it come back to the same moment his kissies…….!

Miss him miss all of him and also more so now him with the halo too!!!!!!

The way this one thing happens with the dream this morning his song koi aane wala hai was the background music to the complete dream of his from this morning…!

Something’s nai beyond logic I say!!!!!!!!!