Moments!

 Today there get out of the car and just sit on the stairs for a bit with his music playing......that close to living another one first moment of your life with him from that line of fear to that line of love that close and then again......

There was always that wall of distance that he would build away just when close like you can't lean over go beyond over that despite of all that love that he makes you feel and realise still does.....

TO feeel all this is not random charlie the dreams the moments they just can't be random and you strongly believe in that then there is that realisation when there today if he did he would've been there with you today he would've been in your life realisations like these and you lose your sense of logic understanding sane state.....

Like you stay away from sitting andbgiving itvall a thought but when moments like these strike you just can't help..

It's this feeeeel strong feeeeel charlie every time you live some big moment of pride daaaamn he shpudkve been with you to live that feeeling with you to see you like that you know to experience thatvwith you cause merku maloom charlie the friends don't really give out that good vibe seeing you where you are today professionally including vishruta too he is that one person in your life who would've been happiest for you to share that with you to experience that with you and this very same feel on shoot day too after the collection gets well loved already by the team!

To this day today it's moemnts of holding him from back living that mirror moment as he stands watches your bangles on your wrist with that smile cause it had most blues.....to wrestling with him to dancing away tango almost with him to just being dropped ok the floor with every step and not wanting to get off andbjust watch him live that moment to his adoooooorable happiest best wanting to do that again.....to your first moemnt and him knowing you that well!!!!!!!

Somethings again wanting to write and can't write and this mind tonite feeels the most mix of questions the whys that you've ever felt!!!!!!