The switch !!!!!

 to n fro from work ever since that dream !!!!!!

thaaaaast one feeeeeeeeeelin !!!!!!!

again never felt that waaaaay befoe.....

lik u keep changin how to sit lik ineeeeeee switchhhh on karkeeee gayaaaaa ab iskuuuuuu off kaiseeeee karu !!!!!!!!!!!!

lik initially u were smilin a lottt cos ur mom manager noticed it rit through the mask sayin ur eyes were smilin waaaay tooo muhc lik seen u smilin that way after very long...

n it ws for real !!!!!!!!!

lik u just couldnnnt stop !!!!!!!!!

whooo hotaa nai chalieeee theres that relity n then theres that world that u are literallllllllly drawn towads.... lik u smell him first that clos et o u on ur pilllow and the waaaaaaay it that smoooothly slowlly pulls you towards him closer to himmm even wit ur eyes shut....

lik u that baaaaaadly wanna seee him n alos know u move n he disappears.....

its lik u can stillllll deal with his dreams any other waaaaaaay but this waaaaaaaay the waaaaaaay it makes u happyyy and also with that thing hitting u after why !!!!!!

its that hopeee chalieeeeee !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

that big of aaaaaa hope that you stpped living !!!!!!!!!

alsooooooooooo that u have no conrtol over !!!!!!!!!!!

that one dream and the waaaaaay it changed all of u awaaaay to the same similar one this morning..........

and yet againn this mind i tell you uuuu !!!!!!!!!

it started with him lived with him and after him it sort of was smthing was hidden awaaaa deepm inside.....

and again with him with that one pic one dream of his ...............

and HOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ur mind this you now his skin lik u can still smell him the waay his daaadi felt his hand holding u his arms covering you away lik that strong of a presence................ u know u shoudldnt be writinn but allso the waaaaaaaaay onlyyyyyyy way you can get this misssin out lik a aprt of it out.... hopin it gets better hopin it goes to back its hiding again !!!!!!!!!1

cause this mind i telllllllll uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu itsonlyyyy gettttin this beuuuuuutifullyyyyyyyyy worse...................

ayyyyyyyyyyyyyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa that one him i sweaaaaaaar !!!!!!!!!!!!!

isnt this stargenely beautiful chaliee to think of it now...........

wen otherwise this u same u dosnt feeeeeeeeeeel a single damn thing nothin at all and anything to do with him and this you now !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!