Baarish…!

 Some people are like the wild baarish to the soul…!

Like after a long gap when it rains all out on a humid hot day how does it make your mind body and soul feeeel away from within!!!!!

Exact ditto same way this one gorgeousness of a human i say ever since the very start slightest of him anything him has had the same exact impact on you…

Years moments missings after now still feels the very same maybe feels much stronger than then it did, but the beauuuuuuuuuuuuuuty of it remains the same…

The essence of some people i say just the like whole vibe of baarish visuals scent feeeels all the very same it just does something to you your mind body soul like lilst of it and the waaaaaaaaaaay it transforms you away!!!!!!!!

Ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa this cutieeeeee kittuuuuu of a magical being i say…….!

Missing!!!!!

 You could possibly miss someone away every second as you breathe and then there’s something slightest of something to do with them that you live for a fraction of a second and the waaaaaaaaaays you miss them after that fraction of a second is completely entirely different to the way you’d been missing before that fractionth of a moment of living them for real…

This missing right now today post that drive his music that very track moment has left you with is beyooooooond like you are missing him THAT bad away too and just can’t wipe this smile off I say!!!!!!!

If only IF ONLY there was an option to download the video download him away from that video I say!!!!!!

Himmmmmm’d you are fully and HOW!!!!!!

To watch it over and over again and this feeeeeeeeeel every single time to live that visual of him on drives ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa that one visual it used to be to watch him drive ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa your pooooooora ka poooooora heart and all things in between right there I swear charlie!!!!!!!

Sounds n visuals!!!!

 It’s this vibe of his drive stories and how you’ve alwaaaaaays loved LOVED them!!!!!

And this strongest rush of missing everytime when on shoots and as most of these studio spaces are on the outskirts of city every drive there and howwwwwww you’ve missed him with Mumbai boards everywhere and just that idea of being on the highway cause you were that used to with just him and mostly sleeping over his lap where you miss out on the road view but had the BESTEST view to trip on with his music playing…his hand over you him checking you out beech beech mein smiiiiiling awaaaay holding you closer!!!!

To the upgrade of drives in his vento living him loving him in a new upgraded version much mucher upgraded version!!!!!!

To the sound of him talking over the call as he would call you whilst driving away from highway and tell you how far he was at to the kid like eeeeeee I’ve finally reached update from him as he reaches bombay!!!

To that feeeeeeel of him rushing to see you first soon as back from Bangalore and his friends go over to pickup and wait for him downstairs as he comes over to see you first thing……

And that eventually did become another one of your most favvvvv most LIVED LOVED moment of him……

To see him that way for the first time to live that feeeeeel of a missing ending to finally seeeinf him right there in the lift his khaki jacket his daaaaadi full grown wild his messy hair and his smiiiiiiiile still this clear even as you write now and can almost see him from that very moment eyes a lil sleeepy shy high and the waaaaaaaay he fataaaak se opens the lift gates with you rushing with the gate too to just hold him and he instead lifts you up that feeeeeeeeeeeeeel of a FINALLY!!!!!!!!

It was like you didn’t wanna blink and miss out on seeing him for that second too somethings you write now and this feeeeeeeeeeeeeel right now!!!!!!!

Visuals!!!!!

 To seeeee him the waaaaaaay you did this morning and the weirder after feeeels that made you miss him all the more to finding this thing over you and in your head feeeelinf all happy away like it was that visible on your all over your face be it covering it’ away with your hair initially with that him thing still on your head and then realising but this one’s a rash to finally when your mom usual habit leaves her phone out watching this His kendric musical documentary thing……..get off to get another glass of wine and see her phone right there and that one strong feeeeel check it and ayyyaaaaaaa after all these months there he was and HOW!!!!!

It was your most loved his drive video thing and the track playing his lucky ali ek na ek din…….to the end of it with his legs some visuals spaces and that feeeeeeeeeel it instaaaantly fills you up with!!!!!!

2 of your most LOVED things his lap and his drive actually 3 things and HIM!!!!!!!!

Actually 4 his music too!!!!!!!!

It’s that instantttttttttt rush of Khushi it overloads you with to think of it now him saying finally as he was back in Hyderabad cause it also had his ringo post after at his house……but of all things why you were feeeeeeling all happy away even now smiling hiiigh happpppy away stil no ideas!!!!!!

Sel assocating with things that wasn’t with you but it’s this feeeeeeeeel on the inside that geeeeels it all this strongly away and THAT you can’t help hide or fight away I say!!!!!

Ab joooo hai whooo hai it’s taking it all in awaaaaaay happppy highiiiiing awaaaaay with tooo many smiles so you let it!!!!!

As it is it’s beeen that long be it seeing him not literally but seeing any of him and then to relive that bibeeeeee of being with him on drives laying over his lap with his music playing ultimate ULTIMATE LEVEL OF HAPPPPPYNESSS I say!!!!!!

And then there’s alsoooo that ventooo flashback drive memories to just been days you’ve been saying psydelic his way to anythung and everything and today when you see that video again of his the sound of him saying psssssychedelic pouting his lips adooooooooorable lips away rushes through you even writing it now ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa kitttuuuuuuuuu miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa whattteeeeeee only!!!!!!!!

Visual loooove!!!!!

 Be it this morning waking up to his sounds and scents to the day ahead and you just couldn’t with a straight mind and head back home and the second you change into this new blue lounge set like slowly slowly the wardrobe is going all blue or all black but the beauuuuty of an irony like a solid irony was watching your chest goes all shades of him literally!!!!!!

Like to see yourself like that after yeaaaaaaaaars this recent change of fragrance and you tried the first time today and it has left you with this rash over the wrist and chest……it’s WORSE like a zillion ants over but the khuhsiiiiii it’s been giving you away is pure madness!!!!!

The waaaaay everytime you see it makes you go back to all those times of watching his color of love on you and the waaaaaaay it used to make you happpy ayyyaaaaa how happppy like everyday first thing to check yourself in the mirror trace away the spots he had been and thaaaaat feeeeeel it used to give you is something you only realise when you live moments like these……like be it the waaaaay he comes this morning to this beautifully ironic connection of the rash over you was just making you happy and HOW!!!!!!!

To actually visually living stealing a moment of actual him coming and then heading out and breathing it all in a lil harder to just live a feeeeeeling you don’t need reasons charlie it’s just and all bout the feeeeeels…….

In your head and heart that one loud echo only you could hear HE IS HEREEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!

Some visuals and this you they’ve transformed away into like you can’t stop dancing moving swirling away round round on floor with the music playing it’s this rush of him like it’s all coming back him driving back home from Bombay or Bangalore some viiiiibes nai just beyooooooond!!!!!!

Kitttuuuuuuuuuu miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa how only like how only you are being missed away I say if uouuuuuuuuuuuu only had the sliiiighest idea I saaaaay!!!!!!!

Blue pinkddddd away!!!!!!

Shades of him!!!!!!!

The waaaaaaay!!!!!!

 Something’s the waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaays they can fataaaaaaak se make you feel away from within us beyooooooond magic!!!!!!

Like he used to say back then he absolutely has the remote control to you!!!!!

He absooooooolutefuckingly does this state of you now suddenly after this long dancing the nite away just this feeeeeeeeeeeel inside of you it’s not even the pepper wine this one visual of him and a zillion more memories come rushing through you right now ayyyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa nothing I say possibly could make you feeeeel away like this the waaaaaaaaaaays anything Him does and HOW NOW!!!!!!!!

Ayyyyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa the waaaaaaays he comes be it just this morning to coming back home and seeing yourself with this color that immmedddddiately takes you back to being all him coloured away by him stamped away by him!!!!!

To this now ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaa this mind today this you today pure magical bliss state of mind and you all of you breathing this him rush away and howwwwwww!!!!!!!

Something’s!!!!!!!

 Just donnoooooo what where or how to start!!!!!

Too much on mind and this need to stay away from writing till it gets back normal in your head cause you just don’t like hearing yourself out here after writing out your state of mind…

Like the after feels are just too weird!!

But then this thing happens and it’s just that random like that plain random but the waaaay it stirs something in your gut away and HOW…

Like even writing it out now somehow feels stupid but it just is all bout the feeeeels something gives you away nai and this one felt that strong…

Another one of those random account follows and this one just felt different still donooooo but that feeeeel in the gut cause of the series of likes that the account hits away on your posts……like from the first like to this series of likes the way it felt it a story telling itself reminding you of something he had said back then taking your pictures on special occasions and telling you how he would love to get it in a roll kinda thing with a series of special moments that he had clicked a picture of yours in with the date mentioned…

Like the second you noctixed the follow after few hours of it tho but the way the first like being talwarkas post to the next one and so on felt like one section of your life almost…….

And the waaaaaaaay it made you feel on inside that strongly could it be Him and then the series of self questions why would he do that even with this feeling lately if he even remembers you at all now…..like you keep reasoning your doubt out but it’s just that strong gut feeeeeling charlie that not just the mind but the heart keeps going back to could it be him cause it feels that strongly different and it actually made you wait for some message from this account…….. cause it still feels that strongly him like this chat on some other platform he had suggested when you couldn’t access your Skype where you randomly entering some specific keywords could find him but he acts as a stranger but that guy feeeeelig back then too knowing it’s him…

It’s been late night of some vibe of a music with too much missing him away again yet again and this morning again the way he comes it’s just getting not sure how beautifully worse like you are all mixed up vibes not sure what’s happening on the inside it’s too many feeeels too many dreams too much missing him away and too many realisation’s prolly trying to sink in…….