Sound of Magic…!

 It’s always ALWAYS been bout his music this beauuuuuuuuuty of feeeeeeeeling him away with music…

Where you’ve been trying to work on the writing to go along with the campaign that’s closest to you as it’s an ode to one of your most looooooooooiived visual random moments bout Him…

Him transforming into the most MOST beauuuuuutiful human bird of your Life…

Pakhi meaning a beautiful bird…..

Where even whilst shooting when some playing some edm artist the model requests you to play something Bollywood and you just couldn’t help but play away everything him from Bollywood and that feeeweeeeel of living him away even on the most hectic shoot schedule you’ve ever worked on till date so far!!!!!!

Like yesterday there were again way rooo many co incidences and moment recalls during the shoot but this beauuuuty of a nite like this one where it’s been weeks since you’ve been trying to work on the writing to go with the collection theme and tonight this new niladri track you find and this beauuuuuuuty the waaaaaaay that one visual of him security check and you live that moennt this very second track playing and it just flows……..

There are zillion things to finish as you’ve been working frame wise selecting the clips to go for the reels changing speed and setting the tone taking most of your brain away and there’s this sudden calm now with THIS MUCH him rushing through you and you like the first draft that you write now like love it the very first thing you write……

It’s very lil but you alone know it almost sums it away in the most discreet and yet heartfelt way like you alone know what and HOW much ir meant to you those moemnts of watching him live that magical moment almost every single time…

Luckiest happiest you’d ever been!!!!!!!!

Visuals!!!!!

 Be it visuals of him from the dream be it visuals of him from the lift back from Bangalore be it visuals of him heading to his interview and on the way as a good luck asks you to show your face in the balcony stairway corner and he sees you in a black faded kurta and calls you fataaak se saying how come he never saw you in it and all and you wish him luck and stuff and hang up and in seconds calls you again asks you to come out and the second you go to your staircase corner the waaaaaay he holds you and checks you out it was your moms old kurta very faded that you used to wear ghar pe but the waaaaaaaaay it makes him that happy away cchummis you and rushes back to the interview calling you again telling you how pretty you looked in it to visuals of him in the jam as yiy lay your head over the window playing his song away and just on the other side of the road see him feeeeel you saw him hair messy and long his saaaaame high shyyyy smile that you used to adoooooore right there in the jam……

And you keep turning around trying to take a look again and the after of it just like always searching for him again throug the jams and streets hoping to see him kahi tho!!!!!!

It’s been feeeeeling all different lately charlie like earlier it used to feel like it’s you alone that misses him but now it’s different like you can feeeeeel it that strongly inside of you……to the ways he tells you the same in the dreams too to this most random moment at the jeweller meet at concu 36 wala like you were done with the meet telling her bye and all just get off she tries to hug you and you move back with a handshake and this song plays falling slowly from My sassy girl and suddenly the female disappears everything else goes blur and you just stand there listening to the track reliving him away from his room from that very moment showing you the movie playing the movie for you places his headphones over your ears and asks you to sit and watch the movie….

That very moment she eventually leaves leaving a text wondering what was wrong with you if you were okay n stuff cause it was that abrupt to these roads every single time the highway brings him away brings those drives along and how you still looooooooove and live him through these drives…….

This one moment when you see the cement truck and it still is your most fav car for life vehicle for life cement truck you weee smiling away with his music playing through the drive to the shoot location space on the outskirts!!!!!

And this college bus beside and this one girl moves her hand trying to grab your attention and in ishaara asks you were smiling away and waves back at you!!!!!!

HOW do even moemnts exact same moments like these happen over n over again with him on drives over his shoulder and the similar bus passing by and college girls waving back showing you looked good tigether and the waaaay it used to make you feel away and him pulling you closer cause it made him that happy away!!!!!

To reaching the location finally and first thing you see is it’s surrounded by just gulmohars everywhere possible it was raining his music playing still in the car open and you living that beauty of the gulmohars all around it was like a day designed with all things him!!!!!!

Pakhi the collection name meaning a beautiful bird also because of him…….

Like you’d been wanting to work with something with birds for long now and this finally happens to the name and then finding a location that also has one set named as the Opera House I mean if you don’t think this is magic this is love madness at it’s beautiful best then am not sure what else possibly could be!!!!!!!

Ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa that one beauuuuuuty of him that one fellllloooowwwwwwss your poooora ka poooooora jaaaan heart soul and everything in between I say!!!!!!!!

For life I say!!!!!!!!

Moments!!!!!!

 

HIM!!!!!

 Since the very beginning charlie donno what it was how it was it’s always been the wwaaaaaaays his face felt on the inside like seeing him seeing his details him walking him turning around his car and just staying for a bit for a few seconds and looking at you waiting for the auto he would just wait there till you get in the auto and then leave…….

It was much before you even knew him anything bout him him walking towards the changing room and you coming out of yours and you would just stand there with him there and you couldn’t move not even for a bit and he would just stand there not a smile not a word just looking at each other and after that moment with him you would still wonder what made you stand there and just live him away……

To that day walking with him towards the oppo side of the road at his Versova space looking at him and that feeeeeel that same feeeeeeeeel how you looooooooooiived his presence adooooooored him every bit of him to the second you get the auto him standing there with the cigarette and only after the auto starts he crossed the road back to his space and you living his legs away from that lil auto window…..

All your sickness be it at the hospital nights thankfully you could see his singing video again on his tagged posts cause it was public again and that one feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel how from complete strangers to finding him and that feeeeeeeel of finding love in him and much more than just love in him home in him and it’s never been the same again…….ever again!!!!!!

It’s that fewwwwwwel charlie every single time you’ve been watching that video of him singing his expressions to that line goof up and the way he corrects it and smiles gently to the guy and the last smile ayyaaaaaaaaaaa that one shy smiiiiile of his and the waaaaaaaaaaay that bit makes you the happiest feeeeling away luckiest possible human for having loved him most importantly for having loved by him…

The nights couldn’t sleep wanting to write away and couldn’t cause of the one eye worse bacterial thing and you stay up with lowest brighteness possible and watching him away missing him the worst possible and also feeelinf the luckiest away!!!!!!

It also makes you scream away question away the reality out of madness why couldn’t he stay why couldn’t you just be that way in that very moment seconds back from the dream wheee you’ve even stopped putting the alarm on just so it doesn’t disrupt your moment with him and hoping he stays for longer…….

It’s pure madness charlie I know but it’s also something no matter how much ever you try it’s not been helping the waaaaaaaays he comes to the waaaaaaays you’ve been feeeeeeling his presence away through random most moments is beyond just magic….cause it’s not an illusion of your mind cause you feeeeewweeel it in your core that strongly and it’s def just not you!!!!!!

Then why distance is all it comes down to!!!!!!!

All of these years not having lived him for real smelled him for real touched him for real lived that moennt of him standing just few steps away from you looking at you waiting for you to come and take those steps off and hold him away ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa some moments you relive now and this feeeeeeeeeeel it overload you with dhadaaaaaaaam seeeee!!!!!!!

Whatta month!!!!!

 Whatta month it’s beeeeen!!!!!

Be it feeling the unhealthiest you’d ever felt worst sick possible like not even during covid ka reign did you fall sick this bad the way you did last few weeks!!!!!!

To following the routine of healing your eyes faster with heavy anti biotics to finally wanting to just write something away!!!!

Cause the waaaaaaaaaaaays he has been coming has been beyond you and any logic possible!!!!!!

How you still don’t get it why still don’t get it but this one beauuuuuuuty of something’s just can’t help it!!!!!!

When there’s this much missing in you like this mucn that it’s been worst you’d ever missed him in all these years!!!!!

Also mainly most importantly being the way waaaaays he has been coming lately like the way you smell him feeeel him on your skin anywhere possible to the way he holds you touches you smells you makes you feeeel his presence like you can that strongly feeeeeeeeel him and then again spend the day wondering why isn’t it all happening for really real and not just in your head…

Cause all of this happening in the dreams the way he has been coming is definitely undoubtedly not just you not just because of your missing cause the way he tells you makes you realise reassures you it’s about him missing you this time lately recently it’s been all about him missing you and telling you so screaming you so and HOW!!!!!!

Himcomings!!!!

 When he comes THIS strong and you just had to squint yours eyes away and have to have to write away this veeyomemt now!!!!!

The sound of him breathing over your neck and as you move slightly thewaaaaaaaaay he holds you closer to himjust so he could smell you away like from moving closer to you with that feeeeeeeeeeeel of his breath over the nape to when you realise it's him and you try to move and turn towards him the waaaaaaaaaaaaay he tightly pulls you closer and smells you away.........

It's the waaaaaaaaaaaaay that one strong feeeeeeeel of him around your waist and nape of your neck shakes you up with him whispering something away that slowly.......and you keep going huh huh like trying to make him repeat what he was saying and actually wake up to your own sound of voice...

This misseeeeeeing lately driving you absolutely mad away blame it on the season blame it on every single rain drop every single moment of him that you come across thepugh the day in your waking state or in your dreams like seconds back........

Like it's been making you write to him mailing him and deleting it away lately!!!!!!!

Like themissinghas been on that ultimate level cause of the waaaaaaaaaays he has been coming!!

And you can't wait for the eye course to get over this week!!!!!!!!!!

Toooooooooooo waaaaaaay tppoooooooo many feeeeeels I swear!!!!!!!

To just feeeeeeeel thatmoemnr of his strong presence seconds back on your skin!!!!!!!

Like he was THAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT close!!!!!!!!!!!

Himcomings!!!!!

 This beauuuty this magic of himcomings!!!!!

No matter where you are what you are doing or even the waking up in sickness too!!!!!!

There’s sooooooo toooooo much to write and with strictly being advised to stay off screen evenings for the conjo you know it’s been difficult to not write when you can’t stop smiling away cause the waaaaaay it’s been playing on loop even right now as you walk across the building alone heading to the cafe to meet the jewellery people for meeting!!! 

It’s this beauuuuuuuuty of any version of him his facial expressions the sound of his voice the sense of his presence and the waaaaaaaaaays it makes you soooo sooooooo happy away!!!!!!!

Nothing I say nothing can possibly make you feel this way the waaaaaaaaaaays with that just that one glimpse of him does to you like doing to you right now!!!!!!!

Him in burgundy hayeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!