Whiff of H…!

 Even the slightest sliiiiightest whiff of him and there you gooooooo off and away to anything to everything him!!!!!!

The waaaaaaaay it’s that one just that one slightest pull and this SOMETHING it fills you up with is beyooooooond logics I say!!!!!

Last night watching some movie it was while working on some different work style and color palette and also his music playing you pass out again on the floor itself……

And this one visual of this street that looked ditto as the one he had posted in his story 2-3 years back which also had Gulmohar on the road divider thing and also the waaaay it looked exactly similar to the pehle wala version of opera cause of the wild ferns around……

The same street exactly there and in his car backseat with his daadi like in your mind it was a play of two different places like daadis face blur again like only his face comes clear in the dream like main character and the rest of all faces till date goes all blurred out…..

And so in the moment you sitting there is the exact same vibe of sitting at that couch before tv with daadi as he walks towards the door and looking back at you with daadi and smiling away just before dropping you home….and daadi asks you to sit by her for a second and tells you take care of him love him a lot he is the most innocent and favourite of hers in the complete house and family for that matter……and she also says something else and you just looking at him him wondering what she was talking to you and just smiling away and then tells you he loves you a lot…..

It’s that feeeeeeeelung in that very moment reliving that moment witb her in his house to backseat in the car the way it felt like a reminder it was that strange like you recall that moemnt and there he was right outside the car asking you to come out and you try to show him daadi and there was nobody there but just you……

Usually you do get your own grandparents sometime in the dreams but it mostly always has that sense of fear and scare to the dream….but his daadi dreams always have that sense of too much love or atleast that sense of calm…

Like the second you realise it was you on your own in the backseat and look at him out there stil asking you to come out to him and you fataaak se open the door to run to him and hold him awaaaaaaaay………him in a gorgeous softessssst his skin like white shirt and khaki chaddis your ultimate fav thing on him that one feeeeeeeeeeeel of his daaaadi over your neck that feeeeeeeeeel of his arms his scent all around you that feeeeeeeeeel of a sigh finally like you feeeeel it inside you that ONE big sigh!!!!!!

And he tries to move you to look at you or something and you wake up with that shake that one feeeeeeeeeel that very second you wake up that feeeeeel of his arms his skin still on you like you wake up with that feeeeeel of his still hug there him still holding you as it was that closest to him…….

The waaaaaay the complete dream leaves you with that feeeel again what connection what sense you have no idea just that one feel and add him back what sense it still makes you don’t know……

To this mornjngs dream ayyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa that one face for life I say!!!!!!!

Like you’ve been on this high since that very moment that one transition from the white shirt to the sexxxxxxxxxxxy black shirt and you know it’s the transition of his version too!!!!

Every single time he comes running with all these feeels making you realise live his love for you it’s the waaaaaay it laces all of you away with all things him…

Like you see yourself and it’s different like you can feeeeel it on you this clear you look different……

Like from THAT much him on the inside so much so it comes out reflecting on your face too!!!!!!

His Enrique you are loving lately be it at the Pilates class too to this morning with the himversions this viiiiibe mind happppy skin happppppppuest cause of the waaaaaaaaaays you feeeeel him……also why you skipped this witb Pilates instead it’s this yearning this was leaving you with like wanting more of him every time post session at home…..

Like all day the waaaaaaaays the mind turns swirls away kn the inside with just him on mind like it was getting that difficult to think straight and then with the absence it was all the more beautifully worse…..

Today to get back in this and still feeeeeeeeeeeel him away like this and to the sound of this one track that has the cutest memory but the vibe now feeeeels different…..

Cause again it was that insync with your waking up this morning with your mom standing there asking you if you were fine cause you made some sound and she came running to check on you……

Rush to the washroom and se your face red!!!!!!

SOMETHINGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And today as you were taking a picture to the sound of the same track see u cry it goes on video and you take it anyway…….

It’s this mind ever since that dream the waaaaaaaaaaaay he looks feeeeeeeels moves soft dances away in that shirt that feeeeeeeeel of him in that black shirt and how baaaaaaaaaaaaaad you wake up with THE STRONGEST missing ever to touch him for real feeeeeeel him for real in that same shirt is MADNESS!!!!!!!!

Even writing now reliving that moment from the dream goosebumped all over I say!!!!!!!