No idea!!!!!

 When there’s that sudden need to refuel yourself it’s this yearning to feeeeeel his love feeeel him closest to you is when you are drawn to his places……

It’s that strong pulllllcharlie that you can just feeeeel it in you and that very need to be there again…..

Today when there it’s been raining drizzling beautiful n slow and the second you are there Habsiguda the galli the building the stair place the terrace corner above the galli street light beneath and to be still be able to live him in that very corner to that corner before your peeche ka gate he used to park the car and live a moment just before you head home sometimes when he had to rush back home to just living that stair place from below that wall on the floor……

It’s that feeeeel today that wish that one strong feeeeep to be able to live that moment again today it all just hit differently maybe it’s that realisation finally kicking in of what was and what is now……..that made you want to wish for jumping back into that very moment like how much could you possibly wish to go back and live him right there in that very spot holding you as he used to to just be able to live him live his details live him looking you in the eye right there in that corner hear him say I love you karely again or just hear him call you out karely pouting his lips away!!!!

It was roooo many moments of wanting to jump in to that moment or the other from back then like your mind literally reverse trippin walking hand in hand with him on those very streets to be able to relive him give you a flying chummi just before sitting back in his car late at nights……

To watch him on your terrace look his beauuuuuuuuutifully adoreaboe sleeeeeepy self and just come and hold you away!!!!!

Like it was that feeeeel even writing now all these years nai charlie there somehow was a some day in you maybe tomo next day next year and now this time today it was that longing to go back in time realising what is now finally maybe……..

It just hit different today……..

Like initially you were happy missing him in his corners but the more those visuals you were just reliving the memories with this sound the more hollow deep inside it all felt away……

Even writing now ajeeeb lagra charlie like his question that scared you back then when he asked it’s that echo today what would you someday if I’m not there in your life……..

Years after still don’t know charlie……..

To just be able to relive him relive his details relive his presence his voice his eyes his sound of voice his love for you sound of his chuckle sound of him calling you howli sound of him getting mad at you visual of him walking towards you visual of him just bout to talk to you visual of him opening the door for you and the first thing you see is him right there to LIVE HIM to be able to LOVE HIM again!!!!!!!!!!!!

It’s all feeeeeeeling ajeeeeb kyaaa hora kyu aisa lagra no idea it’s just feeeeeeeling very ajeeeeb like it never did before…….