Echoes!

 Echoes of a time......  That sheer beauty of some purest of moemnts isnt that strangely beauuuutiful charlie.....  Like you may not want to feel anything else but the way suddenly just the word of it being mother's day and all those moemnts of reassurance rush through you....  Some promises you make you just can't break for anything what come may.....it's that sheer pureness of some moments that vurnerable where you'd only seen him be protective caring adorable beauuuutiful loving but those first times when he was finally opening upto you bout his state of mind then what he was going through and how much he missed being taken care of as a kid to be nurtured to just be held to feel safe or just being taken care like someone's there for him like he was there for everybody else then.....

To live that side of him to see him cry feel his weakest to just see him that way made every bit inside of you make that promise in all those moemnts to love him be there for him no matter what....like it was only after those moemnts with him did you really start taking care of him as his mom would to check on him to make sure he was okay to make him feel exactly how he eanted to.......

To just strictly hold him in those moments like his mom would and not like his gf.....to just be there for him no matter what!!!!!

It did become your priority like smthing just came along in your life and changed you completely.....

His voice in those moments like you could feel his pain his insecurity in that sound.....just the way he would want to hear it over n over again I'm here I'll always be there with you I'll always love you...

Just hold me like this be with me like this love me this karely!!!!!!

This was the longest you felt thus way for the first time it did change you this time.....but today that need to hold him closer in your way just for the day you just had to...

To realise where you belong and to know why you are being pushed away smtimes takes longer that you'd want to but when you finally do it's a very different strange feel to live with to come to terms with...

But this time did happen kya hua nai maloom charlie not a tear after that first noticing of the block....like after that you don't feel a thing anymore.....

Ekdum se it's gone!!!!!!

Just that sound of his from then since morning today like yoy could hear him that close to your ear.....that close!!!!!

And couldnt help it today!!!!!