Places...

 Just weeks back or something this one dispatch time and the staff says the address out loud with the client name and that one place ayyyaaaaaaaa it was DD colony...

U ask her to take care of the others and take thus one to the office and write down the address yourself playing his Fink on the side...

Lil did you know back in 2015 lil did you know nai that very meet him in his psychedelic black t shirt from the gym days hide n seek bjsucits to banana chips around every snack from those evening strolls with him around your Galli or in his car evening snack dates...

That day scattered around his apartment like traces of these memories with him from back then as you look around and that feeeeeel he hasn't changed a bit...to that very moment of having to leave and that feeeeeel as you literally walk ulta with face towards him living him away till the stair turning like making the most of his presence making the most of living every bit of him as much as you could...cause he that day had called uber auto thing for you that day and it was waiting down and you couldn't have stayed back any longer and you remember saying something to him from the stairs off all the days tujhe aaj he bulake rakhna tha isko and him chuckling away that adooooorably.....as he still waits at the door while you getting mad at him as you walk down the stairs...

That day writing down that clients address that feeeel inside isko tho mein jaake order deliver Karti kinda state of mind... But that feeeeeeeel of some places even as you write down the name of the place DD colony...

Even relivifnit now this feeeeel again...

Lil did you know then...!

Days like this!!

 It takes that one visual just that one visual and it's like the mind all of you in that memory loop dreams and reality too...

Him with the background of the sea and standing at his Versova fence waiting for him to come out and take you inside his house it's that sound of the waves crashing by and that first sound of him whatsaaaapppp that one feeeeeeeeel to just waiting for him......that's baaaaaadly waiting for him to ask you to stay back even that last second as you step out of his house along with him that wait in you that self talk inside pls ask me to stay back pls pls and finally leaving...

To the many dreams of him and a boy lil boy running around a huge beautiful tree that one dream on repeat for years and eventually somehow never happened dreamt again the same dream with years passing by...

That one visual of him even at the back side profile one tiny second looking his absolute looooooove best with that gorgeousness of his daaaaaadi the heart of yours right on his face holding his friends kids hand and that feeeeeeling of absolute madness when from that building of his ka watchman to his sister to his ringo to that lil boy wanting to be any of those just soooo.......just soooooo you could be closer to him...holding your hand walking to the beach!!!!!!

Some visuals nai bring out that level of missing like almost awakens that side of missing out of nowhere!!!!!

Like there's that everyday missing him and then there's a missing like this THIS one...

Working on reels and the mind keeps going back to that one visual of him holding the hand that adooooooorably walking towards the beach...

Something's nai!!!!!!!!!!

Heart & soul!!

 THE absolute heart and soul of your eyes and life I sayyyyy!!!!!!!

THAT ONE VIEWWWWWW so seee him live him with the view of the sea at the back this feeeeeeeeeel right now ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa that one girgeoussssssssss of a human I swear!!!!!!!

This need right now to runnnnnnnn MN to him abhiiii k abhiiiiii!!!!!!!!

That one wish to wake up to his presence at the window to the sound of the sea as the bg music......of the zilluon other wishes!!!!!

Miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa howwwwww only you were missed abhiiii k abhiiiiii this very second!!!!!!

Sea ocean any visual of a water body with this gorgeous boy has to be Versova!!!!!!!!!!

Singaaaaaaaaa singaaaaaaaaaaaaa ayyyaaaaa singaaaaaa!!!!!!

Sound of music…!

 Working on reels now, this one strongfeeeeeeel if there’s any other sound apart from Niladri that strings away this you in him, it has to be this recent found artist and of all the tracks this one manase…

It’s like from start to the end bit of the sound is all HIM…

The waaaaaaaays this brings out awakens the missing him in you this one sound is beyond words n logic…

Every lil glimpse visual sound of him from his chuckles to the sound of him sleep breathing on the calls every lil blink wink smile nod of his everything to anything him this one sound Manase is all HIM!!!!!!!

The waaaaaaaaaays it makes your heart and soul , live and miss him is beyond everything else…!

Miyaaaaaa the ways you are missed every single second of every single day I swear if he only knew!!!!!!!

Apart from the zillion changes at work recently including Zardozi master change that changed your entire shoot plan schedule ahead can’t wait for July august when you’ve decided to take a 2-3 months break first ever break from work and solo travel Bombay Goa…

Both the places Him, his plans of you and him in Goa to having dreamed many dreams away picturing him in goa waking upto a visual of overlooking the beach and him at the window to the Versova the fav most place for you…

It’s this feel now working back to back can’t wait for the time ahead…

Like you just want to need to live those places where you’ve pictured him in your head for over zillion times all these years to just LIVE HIM!!!!!!

This one sound on loop this one missing him on loop the waaaays it’s making you miss him…

The sound of his voice right now with the sound of this music…!

Dates!!

 Some dates every year hit differently!!

Holi being one of those dates on the calendar...

Too many memories too many versions of him lived that day too many moemnts shared and first time lived...

From the shower in his bathroom to wearing his clothes to that moemnt before the mirror in his wardrobe standing beside him as he holds you closer checks you out and that big smile on him beauuuuuutiful smile on him HOW happy he looked seeing your reflection with him in the mirror...

It just feels very different on some days the most beauuuuuutiful dream of your life...!

This feeel today!!!!!!!!!

Number love!!

 Andddddd some numbers forever lovei say...

His vento number 1072!!

Sound of music...!

 This looooooove for finding music like this that feels like all of HIM!!!!!!

It's like the sound the vibe as much Kannad as you can understand as it sounds similar to tullu the words this viiiiiibe of him...

Working on content reels grid work font work picture work like there's that load of work to sitting now final selection of the images to send for retouching this sound this one sound and you are just smiling away akele akele nodding away reliving him with the sound...

Holi just days away one of those days with him again one of those firsts too...

He has gone too far suddenly if you think on some dayslike these...like you try your best to drown yourself in work and then there are days like these sounds like these and this feeeel of being held by your wrist and taken to this world of all things to every lil thing just HIM......

Your ultimate HAPPIEST place of your life - HIM!!!!!!

The life and soul of your life...!