Moments!!!!

 Just bout done with the ice team and bout to leave and there was this couple on the opp side of the road your window side auto waiting the guy with the backpack and luggage and the girl standing and just before betting in the auto she holds the guy one more time and the guy leaves…..

That one straight flash back to him leaving for Bangalore like the visual the moemnt holds you that you ask the driver to stay for a bit and not move the car as yet…

Close your eyes standing in his lawn him just bout close to sonis car as he was taking that with driver along for dropping at the station…and you standing with his family everybody else waving and saying stuff there he was just standing there looking at you looking you in the eye and that one smile on him the waaaaay he just stays that way chachi asking him what it was bout his sister asking him and he just nods away and you alone know what and how he was feeling away in that moment…like you remember so well having goosebumps all over just by the way he smiles and nods away just before getting into the car…

In his sisters room and you just couldn’t hold it in and cry out like literally cry it out and she holds you tries to calm you down saying he will be back soon it’s just weeks 1-2 week something’s you write and this feeeeeeeel!!!!

And you just hold her and cry out and the way she says she didn’t know you loved him so much like you already had fever on by then…like something that big part of you suddenly missing in you like that strongly and before it heads your mind to make sense of it your body already couldn’t…

Yesterday to see that couple to relive that stare with him to see him visually love you that much like you could just see it all over on him to that feeeeeel of sharing that lil wordless conversation wit him which just you and him get it…

From there ro that need to just see THE Rani gunj baba temple also the start of it all…

As you be there that one feeeeeeel every single time even from far his car right there him standing out for you you wearing chappals coming out of the temple and stand there to see him him in his white shirt his legs crossed as he used to waiting for you and the way he looks at you you stop right there not a step the waaaaaay his stare used to hold all of you away like you can’t move blink nothing at all like being held by him even without touching a bit……

To finally getting in and the vibudhi moemnt his forehead his hair his eyes closed him holding his hair back and you just stay that way living adoooooring him away that beauuuuuty of faaaaaalllllllling in love with all of him every bit of him and still not yet knowing it away!!!!!!!

Ayyyaaaaaaaaaaa sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!

Himhigh!!!!!

 Yesterday when there there was this him zone you’ve been in lately like literally on a flight mode flying high kinda zone…..

No matter how much the work gets hectic handling staff of 19 -20 people with that much nuisance sometimes to deal with the new staff too now it’s been all messy…like having changed the staff to being unsure of the new ones and the work getting delayed managing sales plus new designs like it’s all been all at once together to handle…

And then there that’ himzone that you keep hiding away sneaking away into and that feeeeeel every single time like you ktterally cover your ears go out in the terrace find your spot and just stay there with his music like people have smoke breaks you have him breaks at work…

And that new person you literally walk back to the studio from that break with a smile on yesterday too once there sunroof out playing his lucky ali away and that zone of himtripping on like your mom knows now if it’s lucky ali not a word of any discussion in between….and you see the ice cream bandi stop by for his chocobar and that feeeeel of becoming him and loving every bit of it away…when you take the wallet out see his picture again and that one feeeeeel like it hits different specially in any of his places you take ur out in and you just pause away live him without paying the ice cream guy and live that beauuuuuty of him away for a bit…

The way it was all lit that beauuutifully chill in the air lucky ali singing him rushing through you max possible and that feeeeeel of just living him from there on WhatsApp some moments nai are just pure bliss even with not much at all but to you alone it means the world away…

Settling in!!!!!

 Ahhhhh this time of the nights this looooove for the chill in the air and the smell of all him in the air as you breathe…..

Like you were just that happy to see his work coming soon stay for a bit in the balcony with a huge smile on something’s nai that level of sudden something they fill you up with is just beauuuuuuuty to another level……

To now settling into write the yesterday lights out socks on and notice the new sock on so put back the lights on cause they were the dinosaur socks like you just had to today cause dinosaurs are now the symbol of your missing him like that’s how much the missing is by now……

Dinosauraous missing I say!!!!!

Soooo yaaahhhhhh yesterday dealing with too much work nonsense by the end of the day your mind just wanted to hide away for a bit into all things him and that’s when your mom calls you asking if can head out for some fruits and stuff…pick her up and straight away to necklace road it had to be……

Like you find immediate peace when there that feeeeeeeeelof him every single time when there looking up at the trees like you still feel him over your neck……him driving and as you just bout being your head out to check the trees the waaaaay he takes the car closer to the tree and you a lil more out of the window and the waaaaaay he would hold onto the end of your kurta or whatever that you are wearing and just watch you….like this one time you feel the pull on your kurta and just watch him the car was that slow and the waaaaaaaaay he was looking at you with that huge smiiiiiiile on…….and that very second that feeeeeeel in you what were you even doing watching the trees when HE was there before you and you get back in and just watch him and the waaaaaaaay he chuckles over it in ishaara asking what’s up cause by then he gets all conscious you staring him away ayyyaaaaaaaaa even as you write now and relive that one expression of his he truly truly entirely was your heart I swear this feeeeeeel now!!!!!!

Every single time he used to make that face he was your complete heart that one face that one expression of his and the more you write and relive now ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaa that one fellow I swear!!!!!!!

Singaaaaaa!!!!!!

 Yooo yooooo singaaaaaaa!!!!!!!

It will fiiiiiinally be out on 20th December this feeeeeel this level of excitement for his work more than you’d ever felt for yours even!!!!!!

Like the second you’d seen it this evening this level of excitement like all evening you were waiting to get back home just so you could see the trailer cut of it…

His hands HIS hands on it charlie like always this one looooooove for his work too like hours of late night edit cause you remember him telling you that back then gora he was working on that he mostly sits on the edits late at night…..hours of phooking his psy beedi away his hands on his work ayyyaaaaa the whole imagination I say like every thing like this bout him comes with that visual with that poster in mind I say!!!!!!!

Yo yooooooo sing miyaaaAa how only you are being missed away!!!!!!!

When he calls it edit magic if only he had the idea of the kinda of magic happening away with you to do with all things him!!!!!!!

Nope!!!!!!

From a evening with himtripping max to a morning with a himcoming but you couldnt enjoy it after waking up with havinf to deal with another staff related thing and in your head this one feeeeeeeeeeel of loud annoying scream ok I don't wanna do this anymore or for today atleast don't wanna deal with another responsibility for now atleast.....

Like you are liuiiiiiiterally taking walks inside the house on the phone dealing with it and in your head it's like nope not me not me I quit from this post kinda feeeeeel today of the morning...

And that one time you had to share a document thing and instead you just stay there living him away and ayyyaaaaaaaaaa this one wooooooooooosh bolke calm and dose of happiness instant fataaaak happiness it leaves you with is beypoooond logics I say...

Like that same feeeeeel you used to get sitting in his car and the first thing while sitting in on getting in his car to look at him and ayyyaaaaaaaa that one face every single time that one smiiiiiiiiile on him and there was that your instantvrush of happiness right there on his face I swear!!!!!!

That one fellow that one face I swear chalta firta dose of happyyyyy hiiiiiiiigh viiiiiibes!!!!!!!

Allll things adoooooorable all things sqyishaaaable all things edibile and howwwwwweee3ee!!!!!!!!

Singaaa!!!!!

 This time of the night post a over long exhausting day mix of everything to ending it with THAT MUCH him to this hour feet up on the chilled bare floor lights out his fink music playinf eyes almost shutting and to live him!!!!!

To just be on WhatsApp zooooooom him in and just live him away as if though his face righr there before you so much so that any closer and you just might chummi eat him up away!!!!!!!’

With this hope maybe tonight he again comes in that version of him…

To just live him his details the way this time of the night brings back those nights on the call on the terrace him in his micro sexy chaddis lookikg his gorgeous best with that sleeeeep tone in his voice too…

This time around every year that sense of himmagic in the air like you can just smell it…

Specially post an evening like today just had to be in one of his place todays place of choice necklace road…….

The memories the versions of him lived in those gallis around necklace road to rani gunj……

Ayyyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa how only why only what only!!!!!!!!

Sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa how only till what level you were missed again today too!!!!!!!!!

Photograph!!!!!

 Ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaa this heart can never grow used to living and not stay amused by HIM!!!!!!!

Evry single time you live him and the way everything elze stops pauses around and that beauuuuuuuuuuty of just him being him and this heart of yours every single time that one fataaaaaak mush deep diving in vibe evey single time i say!!!!!!!!

How much you missed this and how much you loooooooooooooooove moments like these be it then living his details looooving his details for real to out of nowhere moments lile these when you had to reply to some work text but its instead him always first and then the rest of everything else goes blur!!!!!!!!!!

Whattteeeeeee beauuuuuuty sing miyaaaaaaaaa his that one lip style and how you loooooooooooved it back then too!!!!!!!

Some pictures nai basssssss thats it…!

Thats all there is to it!!!!!!!!!!!!

Poooooooooooora ka poooooooooooooooora top to toe front back everything and anything, BARE HEART of your life!!!!!!!!!