Memory se uthaake!!!!

 Ayyyaaaaaaaaaa that him opening the door in his same gym psyyychedelic tee rushes through you abiii k a hiii!!!!

Kabhi when a missing suddenly hits you like this nai iskuuuu memory se uthaaake khaaajaaane ka mannn Karta pooora ka paoooora I swear charlie!!!!!

To dance away to be held away to live him away to adooooore him away amidst all traces of him scattered around his Jim jam biscuits bottles his banana chips not his though and him mentioning there’s dairy milk in the fridge too cause with chikudkayi dabba from his home for lunch you were still hungry and you tell him you will check his house for some more food to eat inside and as you walk throug tell him that you found his jam jam have that next his chips have that and him stil in his room loudly adoooooorably chuckling away says there’s dairy Mike too cause he knew just like him it was your ultimate fav chocolate too…..and then adds to bring it along and come jaldi as you were on a food stroll around his house!!!!!

Some memories nai even reliving it now as you write which you didn’t intend to initially but like always one thing you write bout him and the waaaaays it all starts to flow along!!!!!!

Like it’s that beauuuuutifully still clear his sound of voice screaming away that adoooorably wanting ou to come back to  him sooner as you were looking for food and you rush back to the room again take ur fone off charging and head out again to take pics of his notebook guitar and him asking away you clicking pics of my things!!!!!!

Like he was THAT sure that’s exactly why you rushed for the phone…

Something’s baaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!

A love like that one…!

And still!!!!!!!!!!!

Dates!!!!

 To that moment of call from mom as she asks you to pick some flowers n sweets for home Sai baba as it was guru Purnima today!!!!!

That very moment dhadaaaaam bolke hits you on another level and you ask the driver to take another round of u turn cause it just added another hit of memory tabhi k tabhi!!!!!

Everytime this day the only thing that tingssss you away and HOW is lil did you know tabhi nai!!!!!!!!

Like lilst bhi idea hotaaa hauuuy rehta thooo bhi kyaaaa thiooo bhi karlete nai!!!!!

Like if it wasn’t for having to be home early for the Pooja you would’ve directly gone off atleast till ou aaj ke aaj!!!!!

Cause that one realisation of the day from back then…

Bunking school away with his one call to see him in his psyyyychedelic same gym tee…..ayaaaaaa writing writing that SURE Was one of the biggest ultimate co incidences nai there you were already trippin on him saying psyyychedelic his way and it was the very same day recall!!!!!

Auaaaaaaa howleeeeeeeeeee you gorgeous lil big adoooooorably sexy thing how only you were missed abhiiii k aboiiiiii suddenly !!!!!!!

Sound of magic number 2

 Times like those living and losing yourself in him talking away that passionately bout his love for music……talking bout how it makes him feeel things away more deeply even his workouts!!!!

Times like these today on your way back taking the longer route amidst the jam under the night sky with the track playing the waaaaaaaaay it just hit you diffferentky like suddenly mind that beautifully slow despite of it being a fast beat track but something bout that moemnt that you felt him away that deeply!!!!!!

It was beyond words or express out now the way you could feeel him away just living the beauty of the night sky!!!!!

Also times when you miss him the most with flashes of night drives with him rushing through the music playing the blink on n off jam lights ahead and his sound saying it psyyyychedelic!!!! It’s the waaaaay he would say it charlie every time he felt the lights or some track or some moment with you and suddenly smack his lips and say it and pout away!!!!!

Like that was looooove to you that too bout him the way everytime he uttered pssyychedelic!!!!!

Today your mind literally has that same tone inside scream with mind that solid trippin on him and your mind screams away looking at the jam lights psyyychedelic and that very moment miss his face right then n there reliving him saying it!!

Sound of magic…!

 Music can never say or feeeeeel enough the waaaaaaaaayssssss it brings him along out of nowhere!!!!!

Today just that need to just be under the night sky with the music paying and you pick bonobo for the night…

And it was magical beyoooond words!!!! 

Like the more jam the happier you were cause that meant staying under for that much longer and whowwww it rhymed too!!!!!

Back to the story the sound playing like it sounds that much more magical and this you didn’t know Bose could do and do it thisssss wellllll!!!!!!

Eyes up mind up and away and this one track you play on loop and there he was his hands over your ears with his headset on and him talking bout the magic of music…and how important his headset was for him for same reason and also mentions how he never made anybody else use it or listen to music over it as it’s always just been him using it…

To just live that beauuuuuuuuuty of him charlie from that upclose him all sweaty post workout and yet there was that magic something bout those moments everytime he would put his headset over you and make you literally make you listen to some music of his….when you nod away saying you didn’t understand and he would always addd someday you will love it like the way I do…hauuu that’s how thinking of it now he could foresee it all back then itself nai!!!!!

No matter what!!!!!!

 It all charlie all of it comes down to that very moemnt when something that strongly brings him along out of nowhere no matter what you do how hard you try to get a hold on yourself knowing the reality now!!!!!!

Thesres that one moment somewhere waiting to be touched waiting to be shaken to just jump out of nowhere and hit and away you off n away from everything else and HOW!!!!!!

Today there were multiple moments like these and only almost at the end of the day you realise it’s guru Purnima today the same day back then 2015 July 31 having seen him!!!!!!!

Time stamps I say the waaaaaaays they can make you feel is beyond words or logics!!!!!

To that moment when you take the longer route home and there he was again with his hands over your ears as you were trippin ion bonobo music with his headphone over your ears he holds it and says you know music it feels different when you listen to it over a good headset or music system like this one of mine it’s awesome like the same music if I play it here at gym it will feel differently!!!!!

His eyes charlie everytime he spoke bout something he was deeply passionate bout the waaaaay his eyes would just light up!!

There it was your heart right there you didn’t even know why that moemnt looking into him literally as he looked yaha waha talking bout his music fink his headset and you were that lost in him the waaaaaaaay it just felt away on the inside to live that moment of someone’s closeness till that extent giving you that much Khushi away and how!!

Come back home with heart this happy for no reason and wait for it to strike 12 just so you could drink up and just be cause it all felt a mix of toooooooo much emotions to digest away in one go!!

saving this day away for donno why!!

Dates and memories I say!!!!!

How only this fill this much away in you kuchhhh bhi!!!!!!

Mood n films!!!!!

 Music and movies and how only they make it all a lil better !!!!!! And when you also realise that greater than was stronger than tanqueray when a Saturday night becomes a Sunday night instead!!!!!!

Doing your ultimate best to get a hold on your mind and taking a break off work has been good…..be it games catching up movies and finding new music but the way it all comes down to this one moment now when you live the beauty of a gorgeous drizzle on a quiet serene night as this one!!!!!!

The way it always how or why you donno brings him along and HOW…

Bob, Whow bob!!

 What a gem of a find to watch on a Sunday night!!!!!!!

Takes a notch higher, the love for films and stories I say!!