That most LOVED time of the year again when everyday every single one of them every second of your every day you are only walking backwards and how!!!!!
No matter where you are what you maybe doing you find these lil windows of himzoning yourself out of the reality and back to your most loved time of your life…
Right back with him beside him living him away max most possible!!
To some moemnt in the traffic the other day the beautiful orange sunset with hints of powder blue and that one visual just holds you right back in bis car him talking something right beside your house in that very galli just living him away the sound d of his voice the sound of his chuckle and you are just there living him away……living the visual of your life away!!!!!!
In that moment it’s just him and you him with you just his sound your senses just living that one visual of him nothing around nothing beyond, just him…
And that one sound suddenly the car moves a lil shakily over some rock and you move look around and you were literally thrown back into the reality……and you realise here we are again it’s the October magic again!!
And this is just one moment of the many moments and it’s just stil the day 5 of October….
Way more to go how you still donno!!!!!
Random most sounds and moments bring him along the most simplest of moments with him rush through you apart from the big ones!!!!!
Even much before it was love it’s the knowing it’s the reknowing him kinda moments just living him from a distance him walking looking you from the other corner of the gym and that strong feel in your core that one strong pull always……
And as you look around sometimes find him right there beside your treadmill suddenly and you realise he was there as you were looking all around and the way he would look at u blankly and look around as to who were you looking for…..
Lil did you know then in that very moment here we are many many years decade later still looking for him in places sounds and moments…
To know him to be loved by him to just live that one human!!!!!!!
Also why his ringo account going private hurt the most how bad you did get used to living those videos of his versions of him over n over again……specially on your most stressful of days at work that was your ultimate hideout almost!!!!
To just live him the sound of his voice his adoooorabke chuckles away!!!!!!
