Visuals!!!!!

 This magic of some sounds!!!!!

Writing one moment of his Dd space playing this mixed two feet playlist away and out of all the tracks comes this one famous lost words…

The THE drive track in his vento back then to you have NO absolute idea cause you don’t even remember seeing the road ahead or beside JUST HIM all him is all you remember from that evening…….

This THIS Feeeeeeeeeeel now this sudden state of you now with instant goosebumps all over as you heard thus after long and the waaaaaay it’s bringing back moments visuals from that drive!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Connecting reality…!

 Heard a thing bout connecting flights?! Lately you’ve been living away connecting reality kinda himcomings!!!!!!

Last night in middle of watching black doves to passing out to waking up to this beauuuuuuuuty of him!!!!!!!

He was just on the bed in a deep burgundy shirt and chaddis looking his beauuuuuuuuutoful best just that gorgeousness or him the visual still this clear scrolling over the phone or something and he asks you to say something in telgu and you say something not sure what but the waaaaaaay he starts to chuckle over it holding his stomach and laughing away literally and you run to him over him and sit over him…and the way he throws literally the phone aside and as you ask complain bout him laughing at you and stops you and asks you to repeat the thing in telgu again as you say something a line or something the waaaaay he kisses you away in the middle of you talking…moves a lil away and says it again asks you to repeat it and you do again does the same thing stops moves a lil away and the waaaaaaaaay this time he looks like his expression his complete face that look on him his eyes his complete face charlie BEAUUUUUTIFUL and this time you chummi eat his face away and in between he holds your hair pulls it a lil just like he used to and you wake up……few strands of hair under your own arm as you change side and that feeeeeeeeeeeeel to go see yourself and your face was red it had that him glow cause it always used to be like this your face your skin transforming away post him kissing you away that way!!!!!!

And your face had that same glow same redness and that feeeeeeeeel of his hands in your hair that one visual of him being that close to your face that color on him his eyes his smile his chin cheek forehead his nose your heart right there ayyyaaaaaaaa the scent of him like reliving the moment away this one feeeeeeeeeeel!!!!!!

U wake up and that high on him watching the series blindly cause you straight away land into a moemnt exactly similar to this one at his Dd space…

That striking of realisation was a downer making you realise how long it’s been and how baaaaaaaaaaad you miss him away……

Today another moemnt when somebody comments over your telgu in the apartment lobby and laughing over the accent you smiling away cause it was all connecting away to all things him yet again…..

There are things that alrandom but the kinda happiness they can give you is beyoooond logics I say!!!!!!

Himcomings!!!!!!

 Moments like these ayyyaaaaaaaaaaa this happy face this happpy heart this happppppppy skin this happpppppiest soul you wake up just by him coming!!!!!

Another one of those times when wishing away this moemnt for real like from being wine high passing out waking up now to that feeeeeeel of him and finishing the glass now with this slow hazyyyyy himhighdddd state of mind now…..

Just cause your mind refuses to be fully awake and slip into this reality as of now…..like in your head you again reliving that feeeeel of him on your pillow still living every detail of his away…….

This mind this face now you are just just happyyyyy!!!!!

But that realisation sinking in of making that faaakkkity mistake of clicking his story away and hoping wishing praying doesn’t irritate him enough for him to!!!!!!!!

For nowwwww this happpppy himhighdddd just cause the waaaaay he just came…

Sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!

I swear charlie if he only had the slightest of idea how much he is loooooved missed and adoooooored!!!!!!

Every single time to live him like this this feeeeeeereeel it overloads the insides of you away with!!!!!!

This instant buzzzzzzzz of happiness like you just can’t stop smiling now akele akele with this off the ground wali feeeel rushing throug you right now!!!!!!

Onedinkdown!!!!!

 Isniiiir it funny how shddenky you become much bolderrrrr and stronger one dinkedown!!!!!!

Like the fqar hits you hitting play on his story but itstilllllhasnt sunkeneee in yet!!!!!!!

Ayyyaaaaaaaeeeeee singaaaaaaaaaaaa hiwwwwwwwe only you are bejnffffff edibilyyyyy missed away now abijeeeee ke abijeeeeeee

Ohshitoffuck!!!!!

 Exaaaaclryyeeee 1.5 wine glass down and you have your epicfccccccc ohshitoffuckohshitoffuck moment already!!!!!

Habits I swear you click to see him from.upckose for his picture and the story plays now this huggeeeeeegeggeeeee feaf if he blocks you back again!!!!!!!

This one loveeeeee routine u got used to and now the himhhigheeeeee goes almost down realising what maaaakieeeee moment yovev just had!!!!!!!!!

Why doooo u why woydokeeeeee u!!!!!!!!

Jowheeeeee do you even!!!!!!!!!!

Singaaaaaaaaaa teraaaaaaa yahhhhbuzzzzzz!!!!!!!

Faaaaaaaaaackityyyyy fackkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!

This oneeeee highddddd out feeeeeer now!!!!!!!!

Himhiiiiighd!!!!!!

 This beauuuuuuty of some mornings you wake up with and even with no himcoming that moooood snoozing the alarm away still on bed to just live him away on WhatsApp and have a sleep talk literally just watching him there…….and still talking to him you actually sleep for a bit as it was a very very late night working and writing him……

And that feeeeeeel even after waking up from that 5-10 mins nap no himcoming but still that hiiiigh on him……getting ready for work as had to be at work early for some appointments and mid way the new househelo kranthi is a die hard romantic with her ringtones like every other day there’s another romantic track ringing…..today there was this Telugu track but the initia sound of it pulls you away to all things him with this another track you had found months back……some movie your mom was watching and this track plays and you were in another room the vibe of the track and the line kanulo ni roopame eyes with your beauty is all you could understand to here and there words with bhaasha and stuff…..but that line stayed with you!!!!!

It’s strangely the whole vibe of the track takes you always back to these two moemnts him leaving for Bangalore in his room with just you and him and the Holi day with him again……

The waaaaaaaaay packing his clothes he would still keep coming around you and hold you by your waist just stay for a bit and get back to his packing laptop stuff…..and still checking his other shirts asking him to take that too instead of this and he would again come hold you stay on your shoulder and keep saying nai hora merse kya kare like you literally had to push him to pack his stuff……that one feeeeeel the way he keeps taking you to the mirror side of his room and just hold you and see your reflection with him like he was saving that visual away with him for the days he was going to be away for…

Like he does that multiple times just standing there holding you and seeing you with him the same on Holi too…..like this track is all bout those moments with him that beauuuuuty of him and everytime you listen to this it’s that visual of him with you the restless missing sound of his voice as he keeps whispering away in your ears……

Like you just couldn’t get ready and instead switch to working out like you just had to…….to this other his track of tabu and ayyyyaaaaaaaaaa this beauuuuuuty of living him feeeeeeling him away with his music….

Post workout loving every bit of the him yo yo singaaaaaaa to that most loved moments himversions…

How dooooo you even feeeeeeeeeel him away like this as you move as you stretch that sense of him that onenvisual on loop against his bathroom wall him holding you and stopping in between the chummi as you open your eyes him right there with his face a lil away and just watching you and that weirdly beauuuuutiful feeeeel from wanting more of him in his chummi to being watched by him you asking more…..to the way after a few chuckles of his the waaaaaay he would come close his forehead over yours and just look you in the eye with that one smiiiiiiiiile of his and slow whisper karely kya horaaaa……even writing now that echo of his voice saying it right now!!!!!!!

This was his one of his habits he would do and today as you move stretching with your head down all you could feeeel live was his face his forehead his skin his smile his lashes touching yours away……like this one moment on loop and that feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel of him the way it was moving you making you touch your own face neck arms away cause that’s how strongly you feeeeeeel him through n through!!!!!!

It was magical almsot!!!!!!!

Something’s you live and now write and it’s like playing all over again!!!!!!!!!!

The waaaaaaaay it all makes you re realise why it’s always been him, this beauty of becoming someone’s, this beauty of eventually becoming someone you Love…!

Visuals!!!!

 To from there when mom asks for winter veggies from what he used to call back then chindi colony and she gets down and stay back in the car play his drive song away like that was your recent most fav one just the waaaay it somehow just felt special for reasons not known…

And the waaay it all syncs that beautiful with the mood with the him vibe you were trippin away on the rear view with flashes of light back n forth in swoop motions like a film of life playing in the lights mode it just felt that beautiful with his music cause tear views too are that special….him on drives with his sister in front and you at his back seat he would have those wordless conversations wit you through the rear view and sometimes hold your leg away hand away feet away from the sides……

Tooooo many feeeeels toooooooo maaaannnnyyyyyy!!!!!

This heart this mind was that fulllll and the way by the time you reach home the missing also gets that beautifully worse……

To even writing it out now it all hits back again and howwwww!!!!!!

To the first story he posts on WhatsApp status for the first time and you just only don’t have the guts in any of your balls to hit a play on it…..cause I swear charlie how much you’ve missed him around like this to just be able to live him like this and you didn’t want to ruin this by upsetting him away over it!!!!!

Some Khushi’s I swear that special that sacred almost tooo way toooo precious!!!!!

Moments from yesterday your lil precious lil lkhushis of him…!