Moments!!!!

 Of all the moemnts something as random as that moment with his back facing towards trying to feed you something has made your heart this THIS happy right now......

Just to live that closeness of his after years that way the way it brings back that chocolate room memory with him...

His usual love to make you get something he loved he takes you to this place with his sister in the front with him and you were sitting right behind him...and this chicken something he orders for and there was a specif way of eating it and he turns and takes your foil plate thing and shows you how to eat and then opens his mouth asking you to open yours and feeds you and then watches your expression cause you loved it and then suddenly realises his sister's presence as you ask him to feed her too in Ishara soon after brings his one hand from the side feeling your feet away and then holds your hand for a bit and looks at you through the rear view...

Ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa one thing to the other this heart right now how HOWWWWWWWWEEEEEEE much love did he absolutely filled you up with nai!!!!!!!

This one sudden feeeeel right now THAAAAAAAAT much love he completely filled you up with lasting for all these years now...to a night for a night like this one too!!!!!!

This heart this feeeeeeeeel this missing this LOOOOOVE for him right now!!!!!!!!!

Sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!

This missing!!!!!!!!

He was that close THAAAAAAAAT close just mins ago!!!!!!!

His hand his back his arms his entire presence that THAT close to you!!!!!!

Sound of his voice still this very clear talking something away!!!!!!!!!!!

This one feeeeeeeeeel right now of the 2009 like in your mind right now you are back there in that very moment living his love for you away and howwwwweeee!!!!!!

He used to love you THAT MUCH!!!!!!!!!!

On nights like these with a missing like this sometimes it all still feels like one of the most beauuuuuutiful dreams of your life I swear!!!!!!!