Zillion moments!!

 Past few weeks have been a zillion moments and moods all of which bout missing him much much more a lot more  than before... That dream you wake up with that place you see that moment you live like it's like him in the himcomings literally decide the mood for thedayto the shirt of the day too...him in that black shirt dream becomes your uniform almost every other day...

It's been one sync one moment after the other one song after the other one mood to the other like this beautifully in sync...to these beautiful and filled with pride moments of his work it just every single time makes you so soooooo  proud to see how far he has come and grown.......that one evening at opera him questioning you away that adooooorably with when karely when will it be me to this...

It's literally like having seen him grow this beautifully!!

It's just this moooooooodyou are in since 2 days this strongly living away 2009 and HOWWWEE!!!!! Like carrying his jute bag from Bangalore to work and feeling that happy about it everytime you see it in you!!

Tonight too this beauty of his music and trying out this new Bombay sapphire couldn't have made you more moodier just the sound of that one place in the world...like the sound of it and it lands you at that fence right outside his apartment waiting there for him to come to you...looking at the sea and the sound of his voice from the back whatsupppppp like he literally smiles wiiiidely everytime he would say it that like you know andar wali Khushi se say something's kinda tone of his voice...

Am telling u charloe this sapphire this night that him in that green shirt giving all the feeeeeeeeels away!!!!!!

To watching your blonde likeness for this series getting stranger with episode and these tiny words here and there some nights nai it's just in the air this time of the year every year like you feel it all all over again........this beautifully like it runs rushes through you!!!!

Misseeing!!

 There is an everyday every moment missing and then there is a misseeeeeing like THIS one!!!!!!

Like suddenly hit with you and you have no absolute control over it to tone it down THAT kinda misseeing lately...

Waaaaaaaaaayyyyyyy waaaaaaaaaayyyyyyy too too much misseeing!!

Waking ups!!

 Few stories his place moemnts of him living him his details away and back to back himcomings in that very same gorgeousssssssss stormy way and yesterday just got wild I say!!!!!!!!!

It wasn't even like he came yesterday it was from the rush of his day before dream and for some reason you were just onnnnnnnnnnnnnn like one constant mood through the day at work.......know writing it out but just need to have to cause it's been very long since...

Hence here goes like all of day yesterday working on too many things plus the work before the repaint and still this one mooooood himzonedddddddd you were like constant on mode like there's no switching it off kinda ironically funny state you were in...

The way it kept reminding you of in his car when you move when having those feels for him even on a drive like he would just knowwwwwwwww how you still donno slightest change of move in the way you are sitting or something and he would just knowwwwwwwww years after it still amazes you how he would know those tiniest details bout you like that precisely...the waaaaaay he would just like you in the eye raise his eyebrows and smiiiiiiiiiiile that one smile of his even writing it now you can see him literally this clear from that very visual very moment even now...that THAT one smile of his!!!!!!!

Miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!

All of day yesterday that one moment or the several others rushing through you and you just couldn't think straight no matter how hard you tried!!!!!!

To the himcoming same again this morning too this one him this one him in his black shirt and the thingsssssssss it does away to all of you to every inch of you is beyondddddd logics I swear!!!!!!

This one mooooood d you wake up in and just had to let it out somehow get into quick training session and play his drive track and do the stretches ayyaaaaaaaaaa and to still be able to feeeeeeeeeeeel him as you move along!!!!!!!

Something's nai you can't put logic or sense to it, just is the way it is to feel him this strongly move along with you and with that one track in his car on your birthday on a drive!!!!!!!!!!

Sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa aisaaaaa waisaaaaaaaaa kaisaaaaaaaakaisaaaaaaaaaaaa KAISAAAAAAAAAAA yaaaad aare tumm!!!!!! 

I swear if he only knew charlie!!!!!!!

This you today this beautifully worse I say!!!!!!!!

Words!!

 And just when you are in this absolute bliss zone of Him words like these, from some Bottega campaign, in that perfect sync...!

Himcomings!!

 Be it yesterday or this morning too the waaaaaaaaaaaays he comes like this!!!!!!!!

Of all the himcomings when it's like this THIS!!!!!!!!

Like your mind every bit of you to all of you HIMHIGHD right now and howwwweeeeeeeeee!!!!!

All you can think feeeeeel hear is Him!!!!!!!

Everytime to live this rush of him and woh bhi like THIS!!!!!!!!!!

Miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa aisaaaa kaisaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!

Moments!!

 To another moemnt watching this idli beauty of a movie sometime back again and the waaaaaaaay dhanush in one scene waits for her to come back as her mom takes her away from him and just looks at the door knowing for sure she will come back for him that very moment very same expression having lived and loooooooved for real ayyyaaaaaaa!!!!!

Him right outside coffee back then Starbucks now at gvk as his sister takes you out to meet her friends suddenly when on a date with him……like just comes holds your hand tells him bhayya abhi leke ayi isko wapis kinda rushed moment and you with her that one feeeeeeeeeeeeel of his face the way he just looked at you in that moment when walking out and away from him and you make her an excuse of having left your phone and will come back to her….rush back to him just a lil away the way waaaaaaaay he was still standing at the door knowing for sure that sure you’ll come back to him and you literally run to him and hug him in public…….cause him his expression that beauuuuuuty of that moemnt of his love for you it was that strong pull that you felt that strongly rushing in you and you runnnn to him hold him away and the waaaaaaaay he holds you back…

Back to her with the biggest happiest smile possible !!!!!

To playing yesterday movie again and something’s nai just hit different on some nights!!

With THAT much him already rushing through you trying to move ringo and sitting there in his place to movies and moments like these!!!!!!

It’s a complete HIMHIIIIIIIGHD kinda night tonight…!

Sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa howwwwwwwweeeeeeeee only you are being missed away aaaj bhi Even with no daaadi I say!!!!!!!!

If he onlyyyyyy knew!!!!!!!!! I swear charlie this night this mind how truly lucked out ringo is!!!!!!!!!!

Moments!!

 The other day this one moment when for the first time ever being in the cab actually made you smile happy on your way to the studio the driver actually takes the prashasan Nagar route instead and in that very turning actually does that thing to the stereo cover puling it out or something and that one feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel the second you see that……

Opera you were at fataaaaak se…

His usual thing soon as you land in your spot at opera he would do that thing to the music system in the car by putting the cover down and this one time finally right in the middle of him holding you that rush of a moment and you still holding him ask him why does he put the music system ka cover down and he actually was holding you in middle of something he moves back looks you in the eye still over you and starts to chuckle away that adoooooooooooorably…

He chummies your face away and then gets back in his seat and puts the music cover back on and shows the light on your face and to see him looking at you that way in that moment with that light over him that one visual just the waaaaaaay he looks that beauuuutiful in that moment his eyes his complete face and expression in that moment and he does it again playing some track and comes back to you…

Something’s you write and this one feeeeeeeeeeeel and you don’t wanna change that line you just wrote…

Even writing reliving that moment him in that moment or such moments his face the waaaaaaaaaaay he just would transform and look that much more gorgeous in that moment…

That day too the second you see that in the cab that very moment with him at opera and the many times that used to be the very first thing he would no matter how the rush lights out first just to make sure you were safe and away from the eyes of the world there…….

The mind!!!!!

 Do no matter what try how hardest possible and yet there’s always that one moment of him and the waaaaaaaaaays the thungsssssssss it does away to your mind I swear!!!!!!!

Ever since that one story of his Diwali with niladri music like the two music that you always hoped for him to post something anything with over the years have been niladri and fink…

And he does this Diwali with niladri the way that very moment actually was when it truly absolutely felt like the happiest Diwali possible!!!!! In years like that one string feeeeeeel of him with you strangely weirdly as crazy as this sounds it just felt like one…just almost like back then with him on the call to these lilst of moments ever since then through your day even with the chaos at work around like a zillion complaints with no driver still the world on one side and then there’s HIM!!!!!!

The heart and life of your eyes I swear and howwwwwwwwwwww baaaaaad you are this getting used to these red halo moments over him like every moment of the day to live a moment of him be it random ones be it his work ones making you super proud of him away always fan girlinf away with every work post to this very one today he posts …….

Ayyyaaaaaaaaaaa and can’t tell you enough charlie how baaaaaaaad your heart all of you just wanted to move ringo away and get into that space of his hold him sniff him chummi eat him away the waaaaaaaaay he would curl up around you the exact same way closing his room door making you sit with him like that against his door……

It’s like fataaaaaaaaaaak se that very moment that very feeeeeeeeeel of him holding you that way with his legs curled over you and howwwww absolute madness as this sounds like you were smiling away imagining yourself in ringos place as mental as this sounds but I swear charlie the thingzzzzzzz a missing high mind could do to your mind is beyond logics or even sanity for that matter…

Like you were actually laughing away at your own mind only to actually picture yourself moving ringo away and placing yourself right there the waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay his face looks in that auyyaaaaaaaaaa this heart right right now even reliving that one expression that one face of his in that moment ayyyyaaaaaaaaaaa JUST LOOOOOOOOOVE!!!!!

They say you can’t see love only feel it wrong I say him HIS face in that moment is what LOVE actually ditto looks like his face in that moment to you all over again after years LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE it’s been since then!!!!!

Yet again…!

Luckyyy!!!!!!

 How trulyyyyyy lucky is the Ringo I say!!!!!!

A mini heartbreak when you don't see the daaadi anymore and then there's the entirety of him ayyyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa that one wish to slightly move our Ringo and settle there gently this heart this mind this him this gin doing the things away to the imagination I sayyyyyy!!!!!!!

Singaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa tummmm aisaaaaaaaa waisaaaaaaaaa kaisaaaaaaaaaaaa kaisaaaaaaaaaaaa yaaaad aaaaaare miyaaaaaaaaaaaa jaaaaannnnnn!!!!!!!!!

Visuals!!

 Years back then same time around seeing him at his dd space months after he posts bout happy lucky happy rains something!!

To see similar visuals and the waaaaaay it takes you back in time cause then it felt like he was still in Hyderabad as he had stopped meeting saying he was leaving for Bombay and wanted to work on his script full focussed...

Some visuals don't just bring the moemnts along they give them vocals like you could almost hear him talk to you kinda vibe...

No matter how preoccupied your mind is with too many things and legals to deal with the space don't wanna talk bout it don't wanna let your mind go that side of the day it always comes down to this one missing for him........like the one constant one beauuuuuutiful constant amidst chaos!!

It's like your home your scared space you unwind to and with...

Sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa this one misseeeeeing that one face I swear!!!!!!!!

Daaaaadi!!!!

 Andddd that looooove for his daaaaadi is something else only that amazes yiu everytime!!!!

Like there are mornings you just wake up living him away on WhatsApp and that strong urge need to just sniff away his daaaaadi like deep dive your nose in his daaaaadi like just that for starts...

Ever since the first time in lift him in daaaaaaadi and something that sexy bout him all the more...

How why what you donno but just that extra bit of gorgeousness all over him with that touch of daaadi...and this you noticed it's just him and his daaadi to all and every bit of you doing the things away!!!!!

Doesn't happen with any other sighting of a daadi human so it's not the daadi in general it's him and his daaadi ayyyaaaaaaaaa him in that olive him in this black this morning him in that black Goku your heart lil heart since the waking up the sound of him breathing is all you can hear right now even with his music playing!!!!!!!!!

Singaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa you daaaaaaadi of a beauuuuuty I swear!!!!!!!!!

If onlyyyyyy!!!!!!

Some waking ups!!

 There is a storm you are dealing with on your own and then there are moments like these be it the himcomings latelyball the more strongly or these moments of him actual moments of him!!!!!!

Your heart feels pinkest on the inside the veins fully coming alive it's like from lilst to everything in you coming alive this beautifully!!!!!!!

Loving him growing in love with him always has always felt like the first day of loooooove...it never was like ya ok it's always beeeen aaaayyyyyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa HIM!!!!!!!!

Like the epic figure of your life I say!!!!!!

Post cold drowsiness court runs in the day and you fall asleep soon as you come home no dinner nothing and it felt like 2009 cause back then you used to sleep by 10-30 max and you only wake up sometime back and the first thing the loooooooved halo over him run to her phone check and just like that Dil se...

U couldn't have asked for a more loved up morning as a reality check after the him coming last night......the way he just chummies away every bit of you like he was comforting healing you away and you could feeeeeel everything in you calm and yet that rush for him as he breathes on your skin before every chumi like he used and you instead sniff him before chumming him.......

The very first thing soon as you wake up from a dream like that one cause when him in black it just never is a normal himcomings I say......eyes open that rush to see the second pic from his lecture ayyyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa your heart every single time that one face that one hooooman that one lip ear hands shoulder chin forehead alll of him and that one day you how baaaaaaaadly wanted to join film school just for that one day.......

Imagine having him stand there and talk to hear him to live him to watch him move like you alone know what your heart felt like that day...

To today this very moment when you see he posts some story of watching this movie in theatre that very song that very film that you missed him with watching on your love day.........

In his room on his bed with his sister and him on a bean bag right next to you like you were on your tummy sleeping on the bed with his sister watching and him close to your feet just touching feeling it away and you just couldn't stay still that way...it's that thing on mind he is right there feeeeling that much away that touch of him it's the music of this film the rush of him like you could feeeeeel it in him... Like you that badly wanted to just turn to his side and hold him away chummi eatbhis face away and couldn't.......

This was i think that same night of psy beedi session at his place for the first time in life...

Like it was before the trying like good kids watching movie kinda thing to his idea of making you try his most fav thing other and he actually says it too hello fav meet my other fav...!

Something's nai wooooooooooooosh bolke toooo many waaaaaay toooooo many moments from that night this one film and the waaaaaaaaaaaaaays it did bring him along this morning even after the waking up...

Sing miyaaaaa my heart my life I say...!