Visuals!!

 Working on some next designs as it's the day off romo and watching this very lame series going on beech mein and this one sound of place as you still wrt working on the design... Without seeing the screen jus the sound and that feeeel of him Estonia ...

His international shoot place some moments nai just like that and it still makes you wonder what that particular jazz track was with his two feet moving witybsocks on raining outside against the glass window panes...and this gorgeous jazz track playing!!

This absolute beauuuuuuuuuty of living him...!

Suddened!!!!

Out with mum for dinner waiting for food and this sudden rush of missing him like right right now to just see him right now right next to you on the chair to just see him smile right now nowwwww!!!!!

There are many times you miss him in the woerdest and wildest of ways and this one right now is a new one to the long list of waaaaaays you've missed him...

Like right right now now next to you and you see him on Instagram to fill this something up right now and howww you miss him storying here on IG!!

Something's nai beyond logics n control I say!!

Sunshine...!

 Howwwweeeeee it's that one face in the world for you almost all your life that instant tttttt sunshined into your head nowww!!!!!!

Checking some work text and pause and live that beauuuuuty of him with his very song playing this instanttttttt sunshined in your head I sayyy!!!!!!

Like howwwwwweeeeeeeeee no matter how many times you live that presence of his and still feels that new happppy heart viiibe kinda mood... Every single time this state of mind right now!!!!!!

Start of the day and this himhiiiiighd smiling away already...!

Sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa howwwweeeeee only if onluyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!

Sounds n smells!!

 It’s funnily amazing how the scents change the priorities of the scents from perfumes to anything that reminds you of him is like feeling closer to him…

One such scent is the scent of cigarettes…

Yes calling it the scent ever since Him…!

Today waiting for your friend at the cafe like standing outside and checking some meme reel thing and this scent of somebody smoking a lil away and you slowly go closer to where you could smell the most and just stand there plug in the ears in this him music…….close your eyes and just vibe along with every puff!!!

Eyes closed and you were in his beauuutifully smoky Versova house of his…living that moemnt of his visual amidst the smoke the scent of the smoke filled room and your senses living and making every moemnt of that visual of him slowly emerging through the smoke your mind not sure to be more high on him or that smallest puff of his psy beedi…

Auyyaaaaaaaaaaaa everytime you relive that one visual even now as you write this very feeeeeeeeeeel of him right now!!!!!!!!!!!

His smile charloe you should see his smile when he smokes specially like one puff two puffs and that smile of his it just comeolwtwky transforms all of him away and that beauuuuuuuuuutifulky like you could initially spend hours just living that beauuuuty of him in that moment as he just sits there smiling away a lil high a lil slow like even the way he blinks moves a lil everything that beautifully slow…….

Like you don’t need a drink or a smoke and can still just get hiiiiiiigh living him away and howwwwweeeeeee!!!!!!

Some moments when you’ve lived that wholefully even reliving it now as you write and keep shutting your eyes recalling the moment him away from that moment this feeeeeeeel right now!!!!!!!!!!

Singaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!

Moments…!

 The new space has taken up too much of your mind space cause you are juggling between the next plan of campaigns to fresh designs to the store setup and it’s all new all at once…

And then there’s this same mind every day on the way to the store passing by his melting moments and on your way back out of there is like lilst moments of him throughout and it’s a very different feel lately….

Cause it’s that much of him recently where no matter where you see it’s like the city has only 2277 2727 7272 type of cars with local or MH ones too a lot lately to these random moments of a ford car passing by…this one too had that seat head issue like his other maroon ford car back then…and the way he used to call it the anti opera car cause he was that strict bout not using that car for the opera dates…….

This one time the waaaaaay he holds your hand throughout the drive and the waaaaaays he was feeling even just your arm away you look at him without saying a word and the waaaaaay he slows down keeps asking you to look at him again and that chuckle of his that adoooooooorably saying am telling you karely we can’t in this to opera agar gaye tho we won’t be able to come back home tonight cause iska koi bharosa nai hai and that sudden khushiiiiii in you just thinking of it and you get more excited and by your face the waaaaaaaaay he stops the car and starts to chuckle away that adooooorably I swear charlie those moments of letting him have his moment like that ayyaaaaaaaaaa that ultimate level of happiness I swear!!!!!

Like apart from that moemnt there’s nothing else in the world that could’ve made you more happier to see him live him like that with that sound of him laughing away that adoooorabky at your mind without you saying a word all that while to him…

Ever since then whenever he would come to see you in that car that only thought on your mind opera!!!!!!

Even that day seeing that car in the traffic and the sound of his chuckles ayyaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!

It’s like there’s nothing in the day and then suddenly there’s a random lil thing bout him and the waaaaaaay it all becomes him and that beauuuuutifully!!!!!!

Plus what’s making it all that beautifully worse is the weather tooo feeeeeeel him live him with the rains is another mood altogether I say…

Moments!!!!

 How you’ve been feyiiiiing struggling to hold back your mind!!!!!!

Like nothing you feel otherwise nothing absolutely at all and there’s that slightest something of him and woooooof your mind goes bit by bit I say!!!!!!

Just second back you working on some final reels and jewellery edits with this artist playing and the waaaaaaay it’s like all him just like your ultimate fav two feet brings him along with every beat…

And you had this strand of hair over the neck and that feeeeeeeel of him jn an instance just like he used to hold you by your neck that same exaaaact feeeeelinf it wasn’t even for the gin but the him in you rushes through you and howwwweeeeee!!!!!!

This need to take the exact viiiibe of the feeeeel and save it away cause it happened very often this last week even days back when you wear some chudidar after 15 years with these extra long jumkis and as you try to look to the car beside for the distance in some turn and the waaaaaaay it touches your skin shoulder that feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel of his hand over exact way exact ditto space……….the waaaaaaaaaaaaay he rushes through you in that very moment was SOMETHING else!!!!!!

Like it numbed you away in the most maaaaaddddest way possible the waaaaaaaaaaaaay it just made you come alive that strongly that you had to ask the drive to stop by a lil ahead and leave you in the car for a bit!!!!!

Cause you bas needed that moemnt on your own with him rushing through you!!!!!!

Cause that’s howwwwweeeeeee strongly you felt him in that very moment in that way after the longest time possible and that made you miss your morning workouts that bad!!!!!!

This very moment seconds back tooo same viiiibe that you again needed sometime off of everything else stop the music close your eyes feeeeel him to the mostest and then had to save that vibe of that very moment tonight!!

Youdays I SWEAR howwwweeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!! Only!!!!!!!!!!

This mind this you right right right nowwww!!!!!!!

THISSSS ZONE!!!!!

 The second you land in this zone theees no going back I say!!!!

It’s like seconds back u still we’re working n this music this flashes of him moments through the day n here comes the drop like from one bear to that smooooooooth beat drop like that transition it’s almost like he held you by the neck that instant transition I saaaaaay!!!!!!!

This drop this zone you suddenly landed in unprepared for I sayyyy!!!!!!