In traffic right now and this him playlist playing and it’s like lilst to recent most moments with him rushing through you!!!!!
It’s like it’s not just his music playing right now but the veriest lil to everything him rushing through you right now…
How can a random moment turn jnto something this THIS beautiful out of nowhere and all of a sudden like this!!!!!!
Singaaaaaaaaaaaa howwwweeeeeee only you are being missed away if he only had the lilst idea I swear!!!!!!!
ANDDDDDDD few sips down gin gin after a daaaay of himzoned and you get more even himzoneddddd!!!!!
Any track to every track becomes him track now tho!!!!!!
Waysssssssss uve missed him daaaaaays uve missed him ginsssssss uve missed him with........
Vocal singing missing night thonite!!!!
Editing night as you are waaaaaay behind on posts and reels cause of the store interior work taking up almost all of your time but some habits nai no matter how hard you try nai hota bas...
Any news bout Bombay first shakes you even much before understanding what's it bout!!
This one habit I swear of all the other habits like another wierrd one being how somehow the wanderer guy feels like him and him not seeing your story is like somehowwww as crazy as this sounds writing it out is like Him not seen your story...
How does it matter no clue what diff it makes still no clue lil heart I tell weirder ways of its own ....
Like another one being on Saturdays waiting for the red halo over him and howwwweeeeee!!!!!
Again no clue what or how or why, just does something away...!
How, still no clue!!
New addition to the store again one of those things one of those moments with him in your mind happened today too...
This deeeeep him diving away like there’s that need to add the himness in almost everything that you do just soo you can feel and live him more!!
Be it styling the store and you see this glass bangle stall and buy and wear it after years the first and only time being with him by him at yadhirigutta!!!!
Decade later to wear it see it in your wrist that feeeeeel of him to going to this antique pot store at the other end of the city and on the way his Škoda service centre…to heading to get the manequins to another location passing by ranigunj Sai baba temple and necklace road ofc it was like one moment of his to a zillion others and one after the other!!!!!!
Even as you start to write now this feeeeel this missing ever since then…!
It’s this this thing always be it back then or years after even now anything small or big the first and only person that need to share has always been him…be it the store corners things to share with him or your first ever Bollywood outfit sourcing for tamana with sidarth movie and of all the places in Bombay it had to be shipped to the stylist in Versova … like not sure what’s this even how this be possibly this accurate precise when it comes to all the himmagic that you breathe through your days and seconds of your day……
It’s getting beyond you like how do you even not miss him like this!!!!!!
This mind right now still from that moemnt moments back!!
One single day and there are over a zillion moments that you may come across and then there is this tiny lil fragment of a moemnt like this one that sort of makes the other any other moment or thing seem non existential almost!!
To live him to live a moment of living him living his details like you just did seconds back even be it in a dream this feeeeeeeeel right now this very feeeeel right now rushing through you!!!!!!!
His eyes that beauuuuuuutifully sleepy his that one sleeeepy gorgeous smile to just be able to live a moment of him like this too!!!!!!
Ayyyaaaaaaa singaaaaaaaaaaa how only you are being missed away abhiiii k abhiiii!!!!
When you avoid writing him cause there’s that bad of a missing happening ever since that day like you can’t just can’t think anything at all beyond him and you know writing only fuels it more and then there’s this beauuuuuty of some moments to just be able to live him breathe him from this close even for a dream…
This very mind right now!!!!!!!
Brain magic at absolute best!!
So much planning at work for the store and still manage to forget most important things on day to day level.......
The same brain exact visits a lane after more than 12 years and one turn in the lane and you know just right there to the left will be his Skoda service centre and then to find it right there that one rush of him through you in an instance ayyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!
This beauty of his places and to live him there close your eyes and the exact moments lived there rushes through you like hesgday was a big day all him day inspite of it being a work day still......
It's going to be a long night writing tonight I say!!
U wake up no dream but this heart and mind still smiling away to living him from yesterday's moments!!
That one just now line did ring too deep nai...
Still smiling away living him from yesterday!!
When you know once you sit down to write it's going to be a looooongpain cause the thingzzzzzzz his places do away to your mind are just beyond words...any amount of words can't possibly define it out!!
Gvk and a zillion memories lived there where even in the second last scene this brown jacket Tommy wears is exactly ditto same as his one from thus one gorgeousssssssssss pic of his by the lake side...
Seeeeeee this is what writing does to you didn't wanna write feeling too much away so you instead be first time vocal bout it trying to get it out of you and do a audio thing and then even then writing it out here!!!!!
Strangely this new thing tried felt good speaking out even a line of missing him feeling him away this much just did something, that shift again!!
Kyaaaaaaa thoooooo bhiiii kaisaaaaaa tho bhi!!!!!!
Singaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!
