Priority...!

 

Even after having saved it on your Pinterest board this need to save it here you spend all your day most trying to figure out how to get back posting images...this level of peace right now when you are able to do so...

Some moments nai need visual to tell the complete story and give out the actual vibe of the moment asto how and what was it that you exactly felt like...

This was one of those moments of urgency I say, hichki down or not you just had to!!

Hummmaaaaa!!!!!!

The opera visual story...!

What only!!!!

 And for the whatever of God you are unable to post the image here even after trying all cookies whatever it is unable to post images this one thing about techlogoy why is it this humanly chanellnging to understand !!!!!!

At this kind of hours where pee who bhi utri understanding cookies away ayyyaaaaaaaaaaa him calling you cooookiepie every single time you read cookies somewhere!!!!!

Logics!!!!

 Today hicki hit too high this mind spiralling away right now so.zoom bolke......

Ok another realisation today to work on job you need 2 balls which you already have but to run a business you gotta have 10 or.mpre balls to get through I swear.....

There are days when you literally have that same vibe as a kid trying struggling to get the sock on and then gives up throwing the sock away nah not anymore kinda thing then there are days you take it as your hideout for your mind...

Cause honestly charloe if it wasn't for your work consuming you literally howelse would you possibly have survived his absence from your life...

Nai hota tha otherwise I swear never ever anybody in your life did become the ultimaye priority of your heart and soul literally!!!!

Like even on your worst most tiring late nighty work schedules there's that peace that safe hideout of your mind into all things him...

Feomovinf to new studio space to having to fix the entire roof all over again with pant and stuff it's been maddening shoots postponed store setup postponed to looking for new space and then running out of budget to your ac telling you to instead investing in property Insyead.....it's all been too too crazy for your mind to keep pace with to understand to the photographer being an absolute leechad for hiring a bigger crew to changing plans shoot schedules and your ode to the sea collection changing again...

There's only that lil a small mind can possibly work and digest no......there's way too many things it's been feeding on ab hajam nai hora...

As glam as it looks fr the outside it's an absolute 24/7 job ever since having moved here.....too many things working simultaneously you were never used to!!

Then there is the back work for the shoot styling and stuff and tgus another visual ofa woman again and that feeeeeeeeeeeeeeel of him taking that picture of you at opera and falls in love with that picture of yours......as you see and call it ugly and he calls it your most loved picture taken by him...like his ultimate fav picture of yours !!!!!

This image as you were reseacthingon pinterest the second you see it it immmmmmediately reminds you of that pic of yours he had clicked at opera...

After a rush of love post moments he moves a lil away watching you watch him as you were holding yourself away with that intensity of the moemnts and he takes his phone out and takes a picture of you...

Some moemnts nai...!

Visuals!!

 Way too many flashes of memories recently!!

With this new tend of 2016 2026 it's like one time travel mode only ever since... 1 hichki down now this mind right now...

Today has been something else this coffee meet with the stylist discussing about some her project and your outfits collaboration and you just couldn't put your mind into work with this visual of her hickey it's like this one complete rush of him through n through and she keeps checking on if you were even listening...

And this sound of him chuckling away as you force him literally to leave his color of loveo you and he mentions bout your mom noticing and you literally hold him forcing him to stamp you away...

And she was saying something and you akele akele laugh away recalling that moemnt with him it was like you were liyeralllllyin that moemnt with him...as he says terko dar nai hailook at you kya Khushi milti ki terko...to him in Versova literally Colors you away top to toe in his Colors ...

It's that joy of witnessing that in his eyes this mall in nacharam near the fly over stopping by to get some concelater as that day it was darkest on you and he stops by there...just right outside under the light he stops you there moves your collarof the kurti a lil away with his hand and that smile on him and asks you to tilt your head a lil in Ishara and then sees it again and that joy in his eyes charlow was our of this world!!!!!!!

Like nothing your seen before just the way he looked that happy seeing it on you!!!!

Today there wer zilluon more moemnts like these just flashing through you rushing through you on that very moment!!!!!!

And you finally falloff that meeting and head to the studio instead!!!!!

It's that sudden rush of him tooopppp much in you!!!!!

It's when you feel that much him you just can't be yourself with work around like you just need to be away from everything else and closer to just all things him...stay in the office with phone on silent and his music playing!!!!!

This thing about visuals one lil visual nai can do a zillion things away to your mind....!

And howwwwwwwwwweeee!!!!!!'

Moments!!

 There is that certain level of happiness somethings as lil as this can give you on specific days mainly…

This vibe of seeing that most looooved halo over him hoping to live him and it turns out to be a anime post!!

And yet that something lil did make you that happy for a bit as it’s the Youday literally today since the very start of the day…to wake up to himcomings like these on a Sunday is pure purest form of magic I say!!

Like nothing else apart from the actual Him could possibly make you this happy, that feeeeeeeeeeel of waking up after a himcoming like that one on a Sunday who bhi…

Hayeeeeee sing miyaaaa that one of a kind I swear!!!!!!

To this recent of listening to old songs with beats like these and still working but this mind this mooooood it lands you in…places that you wanted to be, live with him that THAT BAAAAAAD!!!!!!!!!

Such a mood today has been, still is…!

Zillion things!!

 Zillion things godzillian changes and then there are queit moments like these when he just walks into your mind in the middle of the jam!!

This akele akele smiling away moment heart smiling on the inside too cause that's how this memory of his made you feel right right NOW...

Ways of the heart to the Sound of His Music yet again...!

Places!!!!

 Most MOST fav place in the world Habsiguda all places around tiniest of corners of Him places!!!!!

Every SINGLE time you are here this THIS you THAT him!!!!!!!!!

Sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!

Howee!!!

 U feeel something you feel it strongly and then you write the same thing the feeeeeeeeeeeeeeel only gets amplified on another level only like right now this feeeeeeeeeel of him with this sound this mind this you right now!!!!!!!!

Ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaa how absolutely luckyyyy is anybody whoever gets to live him breathe the same air as him to live him!!!!!!!

This missing right now sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sounds!!

 It's these sounds all this while stylist coming to the apartment still on call her asking to look for her call by honking and the waaaaaay you are back on your Habsiguda terrace and him driving pass by still on the call you looking down and he takes his one hand out of the window waving at you turns into the Galli and steps out looks at you and then goes back home...to with her on the bike for a drive and that feeeeeeel of sitting with him on the bike for that small drive to your mom actually discussing something bites your arm trying to irritate you and you run to your room holding your arm...

Cause in that moment it was his face his mouth his teeth that feeeeeeeeeeeeeeel of him on your skin that you refused to share with anybody elseregradless of who!!

Close your eyes still holding your arm and reliving him from all those moments he loooooooooved doing that and then looking at you flashing his teeth off showing how sharp they were to bite...

To everytime there's some rash or mosquito something the waaaaaaaaaay it always reminds his adooooooorably way of love like post bup you met him few times in Hyderabad but the way he wouldn't leave his color of love on your skin and you literally forecyflly used to ask him to leave it on your skin just so you can live him longer with you post meeting him...like the sign of him with you to see live it and feeeeel him every time but when in Versova meet he literaaaaaalllllly signs you head to toe with all him like literally stamps you up almost like all mine... All His!!!!!

That only a day or two after you notice your entire arm some part of your leg shoulder neck andddd everywhere possible was all stamped away with color of his love and howweeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!

That you actually used to sit and wonder how when did he even that many all over you it's that thing of his back then when he used to say wait terko leke chale jaata and then will have it all over you without worrying about your mom noticing them on you......years after he eventually did do that what he had planned long back then!!

Days!!!!

 Last few weeks haven't been easy like November and de ember were the most dofcult ones work wise to starting the first day of the year with pooran poli as your first meal then the news passing away of your dad...to looking for a new studio space!!!!

Like you avoided writing cause didn't wanna write in that state of mind ...it's been a rerun of the times from back then when you decide not to go for the entire thing and stay home instead...

Not a single tear charlie knowing for a fact you had the utmost love as a kid for that man it's that thing nai it's the people you least expect from are the ones that break you the most...

That man changed your life without you even understanding knowing or realising that moment when the man sat next to you asking if he did call you that day or speak to you and you didn't know what it was about till He actually calls you and tells you bout it much after...

To that call with him much after bup when he tells you how you both would've actually been together long back if it wasn't for that thing that the man did.......to this conversation with your mom after the news asking you if you would ever forgive and this is something you've asked yourself multiple times over the years nai hota charlie tried thought of it many times it's just not possible...

Anything else from your life wouldn't have affected you like this bas miyaa Ko door nai karna tha everytime you think of it think of those times from the moment he walked into your life till today that dream this morning you alone know what place He holds in your life and always will...it was like snatching away the only person place thing that made you the happiest that loved you the most like nothing else ever that one feeeeeeeeeeeeeeel of him in your life that HIM in your life that man shouldn't have!!!!!!!!

Soooooooyaaaaaaaahnot going there to that topic again soooo yah much after also what caused the delay in the work to comuruing to look for THE place for the studio...

And you see this place the owner was into some porudtcion thing name had to be Chetan Reddy ayyyyaaaaaaaaaaa the sound of his name it's like the most beautiful song to your ears everytime you hear his name it just makes you andaaaar se soooooo damn happy !!!!!!

Chetan PURE LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE and ofc all thingzzzzzz looooooooooove I say!!!!!!!!

Mooood!!!!!

 Years have gone by you've grown much older but there's this one thing in your life and the waaaaaaay it hasn't changed not even a bit when it comes to your loooooove and madness Fangirling away anything to do with him right from day 1 till today !!

Maybe has grown much with time but hasn't changed a bit.......like there's every other aspect of your life that you can tackle and handle but when it comes to him ayyyyaaaaaaaa the heart the you the mind everything on a flight mode every single time...

Like in an instant and you become all HIM away head to toe every bit of you that beauuuhhhtifullu all him in an instant just like that!!!!!!!!

That track the words the vibe the TIMING of that track like you were him tripping away in the office balcony that very moment reliving him away from the Kachiguda terrace and missing him away that baaaaaadly to just that need to live him in all places WhatsApp Instagram and the to hear a song of his and you see this new track ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaa the beauuuuuuuty of that moment beyond words and magic I say...

Sundaaaazed!!!!

 This THIS beauuuuuuuty of some moments when you fall asleep watching this really stupid series and then you wake up to THIS feeeeeeeel of him on your skin and howwweeeeeee!!!!!!

Like you've already been this super him hughdddddd all day today so much so that it has been giving you those stomach mind vision swirls kinda high...like can't see feel live a thing beyond him kinda himhighdddddddd!!!!!!

Themnro wake up right now with this feeeeeel of him on your skin ayyyaaaaaaaaaaa that looooove for his teeth too!!!!!

The way waaaaaayssssss a single moment can bring along a zillion memories and feels of the same from back then...

Like you can't wipe out this smile this him hughhhhh off your face cause he played the music at that right specific time and it made you feeeeel like he was with you at that very moment as weirdly crazy as this sounda writing out it just felt that way that strongly!!!!!!!

I swear Charloe nothing in the world possibly makes you feel this way the waaaaaaaay anything at all Him does...

It's like it just changes you inside out and howeeeeee!!!!!!

Like you are akele akeepe smiling away feeling touching your own own arm away just cause that's how strongly you felt him there like literally waking you up kinda feeeeeel with this string and the most gorgeous weapon his teeth!!!!!!

Singaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa howwweeeeeee only you are being missed I swear!!!!!!!

Saving this waking up away!!!!!!

Saving this very day of his music after very long...!

Mad mad!!

 There's this certain level of khushi and then there's this one like THIS one right now maaaaaad maaaaaad level of khushi with a new song posting of his sometime back now.......it's this beauuuuuuuty of timings of some moemnts magic of some words this pure pure magic of living some unlived still to be lived visuals to just live moments like these right right now it's this state of you right now NOWWWW!!!!!!!!

Ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa singaaaaaaaa pure pure magic walking talking breathing chuckling form of human magic I say!!!!!!!

This looooooooooooooove for his music to this need to runnnnnnnn to him nowwwwwwwwww even not knowing where he is to just runnnnnnnn to him and hide away in all him around!!!!!!!!!!

Yaaaaaaaaadkiyaaaaaaaaaa dilneeeeee kitttttuuuuuu kahaaaaaaaaa ho tummmmmmmm howleeeeepan pee hummm haiiiiiii kahaaaaaaaaa ho tummmmm!!!!!

This mind today won't work refuses to work today I swear!!!!!!

Patang sa...!

 This visual of kites across the sky and the waaaaaaaaaay they bring him along!!!!!!

At work working on something and that sound of a kite stuck in the tree and you leave the office and rush to see and this visual one feeeeeeeeel of him it brings along every single time...

Him on the Kachiguda house terrace looking yaha waha for the kite with that one adooooooooooooorably signature nose twitch expression of his and you sitting with his sister commenting on the rest but yours eyes super glued on his adooooorableness!!!!!

U ofc looooooved him when it's just you and him but you specially loved him all the more when around people or places it's his behaviour his body language the sound of his voice his list movement just to see him around people just living his every detail away and loving looooooving him all the more every single time...

There's that something in watching from a distance the one you love cause it's not centric to you or attention towards you it's that beauty of living them in their natural habitat almost like watching living looooving their general behaviour otherwise not just alone towards you but in general...and how you used to loooooove living him away that way too!!!!!

Something's nai out of nowhere now this cloud of all him you are in psyyyychedelic cloud ofc!!!!!!

Sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa howeeee only!!!!!!!!

With no stories what so ever of him this missing all the more lately!!!!!!!

Feeeeels!!!!!!!!

Sound of magic…!

 This beauuuuuuty of some moments like these and music good bad lord this looooove for music with him moments like these the waaaaay it just lands you some place else…

In the jam this car speeds by and then suddenly slows down like in almost slow mo mode of driving and the person in the drivers seat his hair from the gym days… messy anime style hair do and this one track lost in moemnt starts to play!!

How do you even write out such moments of pure magic in words like how do you definite in writing when something feels this magical with him highd and thus track that sort of eases your mind out like you are almost flying in your head this THIS himhighd right now !!!!!!!!

Pure magic of some sounds and moments like these!!

Moments!!

Journalling this feeling away!!

Been like this ever since the waking up today this strong sense of missing him today like really really missing him kinda feel and as the day goes by it only grew stronger with every passing second...

Still there still feeling it and maybe much more strongly now and this urge to write out the missing instead of holding it all in...

To just say it out how much how bad you miss him today...!

Some days!!

 Some days nai just like that right from the very start...!

To find something like this of all days today!!

Sheer beauty!!

 The sheer beauty of some simplest of moments in understanding and realising that the joy just that one face in the world brings to your heart is incomparable to any other... Even years after!!

It's that sudden realisation after a very hilariously complicated class of driving this morning to sitting in the morning sun with coffee in your hand and just closing your eyes and reliving that sound of him and expression of his from that reel of Ringo and him...

Like you alone know how bad you miss those moments of just playing a reel of him chuckling away playing with ringo on loop for few mins...that feeeeeeeeeel of having him around with the adooooorable sound of him kid laughing away!!!!!!

Some joys are just beyond...!

THIS!!!!!

 Some moments like THIS when you feel him this THIS strongly!!!!!!!

From a waking up like that one to this very moment to feeeee him and live him like this in a moment beyond magic!!!!!!!

It’s like taking the already worse missing to another level altogether!!!!!!

Missing another version of him like THIS!!!!!!!!

To feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel him like this!!!!!!!!!!

Miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!

Tum kahaaaaaaaaaaaaan!!!!!!!!!

Moments!!!!

 Days off at work binge watching the final frontier and this beauty of some moments when the place looks exacttttly like the cement factory from back then...

All greyish white where he finds the perfect spot for the first chummi...the tall structure with the machine like thing attached to it as you take a look around when he parks it there and as you look back at him that one expression of his you can NEVER forget in your life that one face his smile that one smile his eyes had that beauuuuuutiful spark it's the waaaaaaaayhe looks you on the eye and comes closer...that feeeeeeeeling of a finally here comes your first chummi ever eyes shut waiting to feel him doesn't happen as you open your eyes there he was looking at you still and chuckles awaaaay suddenly that adooooooooooooorably and keeps saying sorry and laughs harder showing the cement truck passing by and he had to pullback you can't even begin to write out your state of embarrassment peak level I say!!!!!!!

Like you just couldn't even lift your face up or look at him and just bout one sec away he again takes the car to the side just around there saying am not missing out on this moment now and turns to you holding your face pulling it with one hand kisses you...

Even as you write now that one feeeeeeeeel of living him that way your most MOST beautiful moment of life I say...!

EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Since the start of this show you have been holding back from writing this one feeeeeeeeel but in this one moment his face from that very moment keeps rushing through you and you just couldn't now after writing it it only just got that much more beautifully worse now...

Sing miyaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!