Moments 2

 Visual story love...

Lilst of things !!

This track of his had this same animation and to find this first thing you see on Instagram now...

Lilst of him in ways like this - stardust!!

Moments!!!!

 Finally learning driving with super early morning classes it's been VERY difficult as you are definitely not a morning person likeleave along focusing on driving lessons!!

That one movie F1 did change the most in you with that want to just drive with music playing loud to just experience that!!!!!!

And trust me it hasn't been easy with hectic back to back woek schedules to now finally finding a good manager it's like your hour of the day and today with that him rush from morning out driving and thus one person crosses by wearing his dragon balls tee that after writing out sounds sooooo wrong but keeping it anyway 😬 somethings nai!!!!

Been out of writing with managing too many things at once it's been a good tough few months lately...

It's that feeling charlie from being that delicate person to this one tough one you weren't prepared for this becoming for sure...and yet there are these moments that himd you comes out and that makes you the happiest HAPPIEST person possible!!!!!!

Like missing that version of you the most on tough days...

To him posting Boris music ayyyaaaaaaaaa how much you miss that routine of yours like ultimate time of getting himzoned and HOW!!!!

Hopefully getting back at it from next week onwards for sure...

It's for sure the lil things charlie that make you the most happy...his love for psycheeedelicights in some concert story of his to him adding music is like your peak happiness besides his presence...things changed but this version of you that gets crazy happy anything to do with him absolutely ANYTHING to do with him still remains the same, years later too!! Or maybe got beautifully worse I say!!!!!

This morning miyaaa highd this beauuuuutofully cause when he comes like this ayyyaaaaaaaaaaa it almost feels like you breathed him for real touched him for real held him for real felt him for real lived his presence for really real!!!!!!

Kinda waking up today!!

Moments!!

 From a himcoming like THAAAAAAT one to wake up with to moments like this!!!!!!

That one name that one face that one human in the world for you!!

This feeeeeeeeels it gives away fataaaaak se!!!!!!! Even though you know it's not him actual main bit the sound and feeeel of something's nai...

Ayyyaaaaaaaaaaa kittuuuuuuuuuu!!!!!!!

Everytime you see hear this name of his the waaaaaay it plays back his signature steps railing slide of his to come down to the dining table...

It was that feeeeeeling of gliding to your plate literalllllly!!!!!!

That one ONE I swear!!!!!!!

Moments!!

 Just a day before this u working at school back then and he asks you if you could meet him and you literally run back home first thing cause how bad he hated the stale smell of a 3 days old unwashed hair and that was the first thing you had to take care of and just bout to leave and he texts you saying won't be possible today...

The very next day u somehow couldn't get yourself to go to work thinking what if he asks to meet as he did mention he was just in Hyderabad for 2-3 days and you would be away at school and you instead wanted to be home just if he says he is free......that feeeeel charlie of not missing out on any chance of seeing him!!

And the next day he actually does message and you do get to see him...

It's this feeeeeel now reading that version of you from 10 years back nothing in you really has changed when it comes to him things to do with him your habits the ultimate priority of your life has always been Him, no matter what!!!!!!

Like there's nothing in the world that even comes close to what how and the waaaaaaays you feel bout him and what he means to you in your life...

Everything's changed and yet that him version of you still remains the same...!

That one word and to runnnnnnnnnnnn to him!!!!!!

Oh what feeeeeeeeeeels those were!!!!!!!!

Words!!

 Getting on mail after such a long long time to check the website and logo work in progress and you type to check some mail regarding the codes and it instead lands from chip to chippy and now you are here... Skipping work and instead sitting here living him away from back then!!

Some nights nai back to back and all it took was that sound of his music after a very very long time...

Him his words the way he used to talk to you your madness for him still intact years after too!!

It's like with every word as you read you can literally hear the sound of his voice saying those to you like literally him talking to you kinda vibe right now...

This one special from 2015 right before seeing him at his dd space...  That THAT one feeeeeeeeeeeeeeel mins right before seeing him that level of khushi excitement rush through you counting seconds till you see him!!!!!!

Something's nai this clear even now years after the exact state of mind state of you on the way to see him...

Singaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!

Kyaaaaaaaa tho bhiiiii!!!!!!

Moments!!

 From.waking up to a full himhuggfddd himcoming this morning to this moment when doing the evening Pooja at the door and your neighbour Shilpa cracks some joke or something and immediately comes to hold you laughing as you reply back something and she bangs her head against yours and you same instant feel subconsciously pull her back to do it again and that very moment she says something and leaves and you just stand there with the agarbatti in hand closing your eyes in his car right there him doing that with his forehead and as you go closer to do it back again he moves away wanting you to come closer to him and as you do trying to hold his face the way he just stops smiling and looks you in the eye and I swear cgarloe everytime he did that it's just something SOMETHIMG that pauses everything away like it's hold like that one strong hold cant move can't see think feel beyond him kinda stare of his.......and then as you just stay there the way he would come close and very very gently hit his forehead against yours and just stay that way....

That one thing did become your most loooooooooved initial play with him like his and yours bahana to come closer no matter where you at...the way he would do that that often knowing your habit of doing it again......today in that moment that one moment standing there living him away in his car it's like switching worlds away literally...

Back.to this to that kinda vibe.......so everytime your mom this habit she has developed of touching your nose lately as it's getting colder and your nose turns pink in the evenings and she just touches and laughs over it......in that moment again it's him...

Those late evening drives back home you talking something and sometimed he would suddenly park the car aisde touch your nose and chuckle away that adooooooorably and then slowly look yaha waha and chummi eat your nose up away saying it got too red with cold so warming it up for you....

And the waaaay this one habit of his did become this secret play when at his place too with his sister or family around he would just touch your nose and chuckle away saying lucky ki naak and do that something with his lip and just stay and watch your reaction over it...that one feeeeeeel cause it always used to make your mind wander back to the next thing he did after touching your nose away and him smiling chuckling away noticing your restlessness mind over it........

This one sound doing this to your mind away and howweeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!

It's like beyond control beyond you kinda syey of you right now!!!!!!!

Sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa nowwwwwwwweeeeeeee only you are being missed away nowwwwwwww if onlyyyyyyyy he knreeeeeeewwww!!!!!

HIMHIGHD!!!

 Some sounds like you weren't even prepared to feeeeel this way feeeel all of this away tonight!!

It was going to be a caramel and cheese his style popcorn with a Jurassic park movie night kinda winding off......and putting the phone on silent one time checking his YouTube and thia find of magic of his mind...

Turn the movie and lights off and just allow yourself to transition to the him world and the waaaaaaaaaay this one shift like I can't write out in words cgarlie how it instantlyyyyyyy changed it all away inside outside for you...

It's like getting high without even a drop of daaru just pure himhighdddddddd and hiweeeeeee!!!!!

Am telling it's always been him HIM your ultimate psyyyy beeeeedi lit and howwwweee!!!!!!

Him walkijg that walk on the tiles him standing down at the door of his car waving and sending flying chummies at you him just before turninghis car to go home just looks at you at that turning him in the lift looking his absolute delicious best in that khaki jacket him at the ticket counter turning around and looking at you......him at the general store him on the gym stairs under the sun him as you turn right there outside his apartment to the background sound of the waves crashing by that one visual and it makes your heart feel that livethat feeling bas this is it this is all there is to it the home the heart the andar wali khushi exactly how it's supposed to feel like when you look in someone's eyes and you sort of feel that sense of finding something like you know that sense of you are found like how do you say it......like you know yes this is it that sense of bas this that's all kinda feel every single time...

Even in his dd apartment coming back from the kitchen getting the chocolate or water it was and him sitting on the bed looking for something on his laptop and you just stand at the door adooooring him away with that same feeling and he looks up smiles away nodding away knowing you were doing what you looooooved the second most with him living him awaaay!!!!!!

Some sounds and this feeeeel right now this mind right now him first time on that Gmail video call it was something called you could barely see each other but that feeeeeel of him to that Skype call first time it's always been him again n again but the waaaaaaay it always felt like the very first time seeing him living him looooving him kinda feel that rush that excitement and yet that calm somehow knowing just knowing bas this is it...

Everything bout him top to toe to his sound the feel of his presence even with him standing at a distance in his dd space and yet that feeeeeel on your skin in his presence the way your heart felt eyes your senses your ears with the sound of his voice even if him be screaming at some parking lot person but that sense of him in every way possible!!!!!!!

THIS one sound literallllllllllly awakening the maaaaadddddd badddddddddd missing in you!!!!!!

Bite by bite andddddddddddd when autocorrect does these things away bitbecomes bite and you keep it that way cause that sense of his teeth too!!!!!!!!!!!

Sound of music...!

 This loooooooove for his music on another level only!!!!!

Ever since the first time you had your eyes all snug and covered away with his headphones and him still that close to you holding it over yourear waiting for your reaction over his music...

And that feeeeeeeeeeeeeeel you experience and live for the first time ever where just by someons presence that close your rest of the senses go out of you all that you could feel hear live was him his face that close to yours lookingyiu in the eye from that up-close like he had never been before like you had no other face that close to yours before...where the music in the ears goes numb there's no sound nothing at all all you could sense was him in that moment...the waaaaaaay he raises his eyebrows to check if you could hear it and then tries to move the one ear phone and brings his face even closer closest to check if there was sound playing and then puts it back on yours...

It's that one strong feeeeeeeeeeeeeeel of someone's presence like that one second first second of realisation how suddenly that one face made that change in you like everything in you suddenly changed shifted with just that one moment...and slowly the music comes back in the ears and you just listen watching him look at you the way he was and that very moment happiest you'd ever been listening to some sound...

Years after this night too like almost every other night to check some music update on his channel just before sleeping like onw ritual almost and you find some today and wjowwwwwwwwwwwwwwww that one magic of his music.......like it literally switches on something in you that one transition get up turn the lights off feet up in the air eyes closed to feeeeeeeeeeeeeeel his mind away...

Cause that's what his music has always been to you like feeeeeeeeling the realms of his mind away walking through swaying through swimming through almost...

To this one track xoxo the lyrics and somehowwwww it again lands you back at that fence of Versova some sounds some words do that to your mind......but landing there how do you even tap him knock on his foot kinda vibe !!!!!!

This main shoot you have planned for Feb in Bombay and you just can't wait no more...to just be there in that very place!!!!!

It's this vibe one to the other and like he says life is nothing but a series of coincidences and thus one other track by same artists of his with title seatime with her standing and staring at the sea.......

This one track is all ALL HIM!!!!!!!!!

Like been listening to it on loop now and the waaaaaays it's bringing back all those first glimpses of him from every meet almost....

Donno now or why the waaaaaay it's just that first moment of laying your eyes on him that first feel that first reaction inside out how it changes all inside and outside of you with that just that one first glimpse of his every single time...

It's that feel that realisation charloe having loved LIVED no other face but His...

Every inch of his face every inch of his details lived and looooooovedand howwwweeeeeee!!!!!!!

It's just the waaaaaaaaaaay it's bringing back all those first glimpses of him right nowwww!!

One to the other!

 One weird realisation to the other and u blame it on the Bombay sapphire glass down this one's one serious shit I say!!!!

Like it directly hits you wooooooshbolke likethatsuddem transition one World to the other eooooosh bolke!!

First realisation wen you notice the boobles of the demo in stranger tjjng now and realise they are allwoman to the other reaslsiatoon onhis grasshopper other account not following her anymore btu now there are too many boobles following!

Tabhi Umar nai thi aur ab to nikal he gayi pottiya pottiya everywhere now for him.tjo!!!!!

Some.nights some music some drink some mood some realisation and thus one question what are I doing eben!!!!!

Nai this wierdddddeeeeeeee feeeeeel.of the night tonight ironically watching his series away for how many times u don't now it has his hands on itttt!!!!!!!

What are I doing when nai!!!!!!!