Visuals!!

 It's this feeeeeeling every single time everytime something good something new something exciting happens the first and only person that comes to your mind with that urgency urge wish to share HIM!!!!!

The work at the new store is taking forever and going at a snails pace but this one lil thing that made you very happy today also did become your most fav corner till now.....and the second you style the spot n take a picture of it the very first wish to share it with him rushes through you...you know some wishes make no sense now but it's just that thing that side of you that you can't change now...

It's like the core of you by now...

This first corner of the store styled first time and you are in love with it baby steps for now........ nevertheless saving it up here!!

Cause it made you that happy!!

Momentssss!!!!

 To this other one right after the previous one you close your eyes and live him away like any moment of his that you come across right after you close your eyes and stay there for longer reliving him away….

To still in that zone this one track strawberry something by harry and that feeeeeeel of him again one morning at his place……after meeting his sister head over to his room and he was still sleeping go closer slow and the waaaaaaaay he turns fataaaak se towards you and tries to lean closer smelling your side away…it was your perfume and the waaaaay he smiles with his eyes still shut and you lean closer to move his hair away from his forehead to kiss and the waaaaay he tries to reach you by his lips…

Chummis you and that very second like by then you were used to the chummis but that was the first early morning one and he moves back and you go closer wanting another one and his eyes still shut the waaaaaay he could sense that in you and kisses again…this time a proper one!!!!

And that very second as he moves a lil to open his eyes and look at you smiling away still adoooooooooorablh girgeosullllyuyyy sleepy ayyaaaaaaaaaaaa his beauuuutiful beat you say it out how come you taste this sweet and he comes closer again for another one and moves a lil away asking even now!!!!!!

After all these years some strawberry track brings that him along and that feeeeel suddenly on your lip today some moments you can’t write out out and stil that need to cause it felt that strongly today…like you do your best not missing him with and in details but some moments donno know how or why or what the waaaaaays it brings him along and that strongly!!!!!

The waaaaaaaay that moment that visual of him looking his gorgeousssss sleepy best tasting like that stayed with you….where you had to discuss with the carpenter again for the counter and your mind keeps going back to him on bed sleeping on tummy looking that beauuuutiful still talking you were smiling….so you like always take the phone and head down for a lil walk…

U just donnoooooooo how to get back the straight face on when he comes like this zooooooop bolke holding your hand all of you away and off you fly!!!!!!

Coming back landing back to reality is when it all gets difficult and beyond you!!

Moments!!!!

 It’s been a very himddd up start to the day today right from the himconing to the moments through the day it’s like the more you were doing your best to control your mind and not let it wander to the detailed corners of him the more it was getting out of your hand literally!!!!!

From the dream to the waaaaaaays you struggle keep a straight face on and now as the way is longer to the studio you get more time with his music and your mind with him…

Through the jam and this car slows down beside front seat kid brother back seat sister on her moms lap and she puts her leg on the front seat and the way the brother tries to bite her leg and right then there He was!!!!!

From the very first time he does that at opera the very first time there from the random galli to your galli at opera after the chummi he takes your hand holds it one end to the other end kinda grip looking you in the eye he bites……

It’s that feeeeeeeeeel to experience something like that like you did live the first chummi and chummissss with him till then but to experience that and the way he does it looking you in the eye as he does it……it’s like a spark of live current through every vein of you in that very second….

Ever since then how he loooooved doing that and watching your expression as he does that….this one time at his place wrestling almost wwf style with him on his bed again one of those things you looooved with him to wrestle and as you keep winning at full power the way he suddenly grabs your arm brings his face closer to your shoulder still looking you takes a bite and there it was his cheat move that he very well knew would add a pause to that play mode you were in and get into transition phase……

It’s like the mind the body the soul inside suddenly feels that buzz like suddenly in seconds you get high on him……like it was some sort of magic that he would work it was beauuuuutiful to just live him live that transition of his his eyes his smile his face his body moving like every bit of him bit by bit frame by frame would transform suddenly and how you loooooooved living that beauuuuty of him!!!!!

Something’s you write and relive now ayyyaaaaaaaa singaaaaaaa!!!!!!!

Gorgeous gorgeous human I swear!!!!!!!!!!

THE sound...!

 Fast asleep watching Jason movie and this beauuuuuuuuuty of his music ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa the waaaaaay it brings him along like this high it wakes you up with like the gin couldn't buy the waaaaaaaay this him highdddd you wake up right now......

Like even right now can't think of write syatught cause that's how close he was seconds back holding him sniffing him away him chumming your hair and skin away and howeeeeeeeee and now suddenky this lost!!!!!

This rush of him right now like you can feeel it inside of you even the way you are breathing right now!!!!!!!

The sound of his voice saying your name and things away holding you ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa to see him in this olive tone looking this delicious ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa taste of my love I say !!!!!!!!!

Singaaaaaaaaaaa this very second how onluuuuuu you are being missed awaaaaay abiiiii ke abhiiii!!!!

Like you wanted to write out today's day and working and watching movie you fall asleep and like he had to now nowwwwwwwjust so you could live him again ayyyaaaaaaaaaa your face right now your skin right now........

The waaaaaay exactly the waaaaaaaay it's always been bout his presence and the waaaaays it transforms you away inside out...!

Baarish!!

 What makes your heart smile n sing singhhhhh away!!!!

The OG singaaa and the rains!!!!!

The news bout the onset of monsoon ayyyyaaaaaaaaa the waaaaaaaays this season brings along the singaaaaaa I say!!!!!!!!

Waaaaaaaaays you are being missed away sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa if you only knew !!!!!!!!!!!!!

Let me adooooooore you!!!!!!!!

The Sound…!

 On your way back home and you play this random mix of pop songs from much early!!!!!

And this one Bally track plays you singing along and the waaaaaaaay he rushes throug you in that moment….

under your apartment waiting with his sister for him…..as his sister had come over to your place on her way back home and after spending some time with you she calls him where he was and all and he says he will be there in few mins….

Under your apartment with her and she sings this line aaja ree  and you sing along with her saying aaja re chippyyyy and he comes over taking that Gali turn wali filmy entry of his and you both laugh over it with her saying dekh bhayya tere liye full filmy style entry mara…..cause that entry was just when you start singing calling him out…and as he gets off asking you what it was bout and just nod away saying nothing…and in that moment I swear charlie that sudden strong need to just hold him hug him tightest like you could feel it in your arms that strong missing that need urge to hold him away……

But with her sister there you couldn’t and he knowing you that well walks towards you and places his arm over your shoulder and you just place your one cheek on his arm tightly like cheek hugging him away literally and seeing noticing that in you he asks his sister to turn his car or something it was and she takes a few steps ahead and he chummis you away fataaak se and walks towards his car…..

Standing there raising his eyebrows asking you what’s up if you were okay and all and later they both leave in their own cars away…

Him on the call even before you tell him bout it he mentions how he could strongly feel you missing him and wanted to hold him and then you tell him bout it!!!!

The way he would always call it it was written all over your face like he could literally read away your missing him just by looking at you!!!!!

Something’s you write and relive and this feeeeeeeel now……

Soooo yeahhhh that memory recall and that feeeeeeel of him from that moment to much later at home sometime back see there he was your most loved red halo over him and you chorofy moms phone to check and it was bout Mumbai metro…

Andddddd again your mind your madness your moment of magic was the track ends at the railway station her waiting for the guy and He turns up with Mumbai metro thing….

Something’s nai you know it’s madness but just can’t help just can’t!!!!!!!

Love and all things with love like missing too is allllll in the details charlie…!

It’s like all magic you just need to find your own spark of magic and that moment was yours!!

Ayyyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa the most MOST gorgeous HUMAN ever on the face of this planet I say!!!!!!!

How only waaaaays beyond measure sing miyaaaa you are being missed away abhiiii ke abhiiiii……..

if only he knew charlie!!!!!!!!

Aaaajaaaaaaa reeeeee!!!!!!!!!!

Himmmmed!!!!!!

 To today from those many moments this dream or something that lands you in the ajeebest mood that stays with you for quiet long…..

It was only much later in the day this influencer that follows you sends you a message of a invite of all places in the world and all of Hyderabad it was bout mount opera like your most beloved BELOIIOOOIOOOOVED THE mount opera…

It was such a HUGE pause right then and there as you were in the middle of discussion with the carpenter them standing you with that gorgeous him pause that one word right at the top and asks you to check her story for further details it was bout some festival at mount opera like you alone and he knows what that place means to you!!!!!!

Right from the very first time there he looks around and chummis yiu and still close to your face he looks you in the eye and tells you this is my most fav kurta on you…

To running out of the car and asking you to come out and the second you do the waaaaaay he lifts you up ayyyaaaaaaa that feeeeeeel to be literaaaaaallllly high on him and hiiiigh on his love…

His face from up there that expression on him his smiiiiile and can never write out enough how much you loooooooooved still looooooove madly love LOVE his smile !!!!!!!

It’s your heart right there on his lips the waaaaaaay he looks when he smiles too!!!!!!

To finally taking you to the actual galli of yours saying let’s see this galli as the previous spot few bikers come over so he decides to keep safe and try some other Gali and this did become your own lil hideout home away from home kinda corner to live him away and howwwweeeeee!!!!

That one place where having lived zillion versions of him from loooving adoring him in his whiten blue striped shirt to actually wearing one as he gets on call with his friend……

That one place ayyyaaaaaaaa on evenings when he would just come out to meet you for lays chips date and you miss holding him chumming him with him standing beside you just touching your fingers away on the car…..eating chips looking you in the eye and smiling that smile of his raising his eyebrows laughing at you and then telling yiu soorat dekh Teri it’s written all over your face opera leke jaa……and then would suddenly stop smiling stop eating and just look you in the eye that one rushhhh that one feeeeeeeel of him and even without holding or touching him you could feeeeeeel literallly feeeeeeeel him rush through you and hiwwweeeee!!!!!

Like he would bas know when your face had that reaction like just look at you before going out anywhere haaaan jayinge opera aaj…..like just nod at your face and laugh away holding you making you sleep on his lap as he drives…

It was like your world of Him right there……..

He would just transform there charlie like unfurl away that beauuuuuuuuutifully not just living moments away but sharing moments away with you like he never did before no place else than there…

Even as you write now sooooooooo many moments lived there sooooooooooooooooo many wishes made there in that very place with a someday surely…!

Absolute filmy!!!!

 Him calling you meri Bollywood girlfriend hai tu!!!!

On your way to sign the agreement at the office and it was through Basheerbagh lanes and this trip you were on that day too wake up Sid songs playing on the way…..and this traffic jam in the small lane and to your side of the window there was this tv store with all screens playing wake up sid movie…

It was that sudden perfect in sync filmy moemnt that instantly makes you THAT happy like suddenly you were blessed with that strong magical dust all over you to live that in sync moment of himtripping!!!!

Some moments nai fataaaak se fill you up with something that makes you akele akele have that lil party on the inside like you are your happiest on the inside smiling the widest in the inside cause that’s how that quiet yet magical moment made you feel like ekdum dhadaaaam se…

And how you looooove finding these moments in details cause it’s like finding him in those corners of such moments like immeeeediately travel back fataaak se and find him right there smiling back at you right then there…

It’s absolute madness it’s ansultely magical it’s ultimate level of happiness in that moment for you cause you just found him there…!

HIM!!!!!

 It’s this something that you can’t possibly write out in words how it’s like every morning there cause it’s very early morning days for now till the setup and the feeeeek to pass from there and you always ask the driver to slow down for a bit there……it’s like meeting him there every morning with flashes of him eating his strawberry strip his style mixing it in a smoothie form and then asking you to eat it his way…..waiting for your reaction if you did like it and that smiiiiiiule of his soon as he sees you loving it!!!!!

It’s that initial phase of becoming him viiibes right there in that very spot like lil did you know it was just the start of it all even much before you knew it was love…

To the next time there he takes one ice cream and starts to drive instead of staying there and wants you to feed him as he drives around……like he wanted to live that feeeeel of him driving and you feeding him the ice cream…

His mind I swear charlie was like finding your most beauuuuutiful home right there in his mind in him!!!!!!

Sooooo yaaaaahhh and this one day on your way back home you were on a work call in the evening and see this girl with the guy on the bike and her kurta was close to the tyre and it was a chiffon kinda kurta and dupata too and in ishaara you ask her to move it away from the tyre and smiles away thanking you…….

Again at his place he had dropped you there to be with his sister on a bad day and he had to go out for some his dads work after a few hours almost by evening he calls you and asks you to come out jaldi but chupke se without telling anybody and you literally run out to see him and he was at the back gate waiting on the bike for you….

You literally run to him and he moves a bike a lil more peeche you go closer slowly and he does it again a lil more peeche and then ishaara asking you to sit at the back with him…you try to sit side way cause again it was your first time on the bike and you didn’t know how to exactly go bout it……he asks you to sit with your one leg this side and one leg the other side as you do holds your hand and makes you hold him asking you if your kurta and dupata was off the tyre and in your hands and telling you to always hold it that way when on the bike…..and takes it slow inside his house like making the most of it and tells you how he always wanted to take you out on the bike with him and you as always excitedly ask him if we could go out now then tells you it wasn’t the right day but still he that badly wanted to live that moment with you…

That day with him to that day instructing that girl forthe same thing and finding him in that lilst of moment was magical…

Like in a second he was right there RIGHT THERE in that moment with you…his facial expressions that clear as he moves the bike a lil peeche watching you walk towards him his that one way of looking you in the eye with that smiiiiiile on him ayyyaaaaaaaaaaa his smile was your HEART!!!!!!!!

Like poooooora ka pooooooora heart!!!!!!!

Singaaaa!!!!!!

 It’s been moments and more moments lately but today’s this moment was the ultimate highlight of it all I swear!!!!

Ever since having moved to this new store which you had to after the recent literal vandalism in your absence that the owner does there…..with outfits missing and stuff and then to have people sit out like men kinda men sit out just so you can’t pass through that corridor to reach her and complain about it you finally decide to change before it got any worse…

Been looking for a good studio commercial space for over 2 years now and finally of all the agents of all the places it HAD to be this one…

Like the very first landmark that the real estate guy mentions was melting moments Annapurna studio Gali and ayyyaaaaaaa that Khushi even before seeing the space…

Like that gut in you does that scream yes THIS IS IT kinda vibe much before seeing it too…

Once you see the place love it anyway and ask for pricing and stuff and it was much higher than the budget you had in mind but that one fewweeel of every day passing through his melting moments place and living him away under the tree you just couldn’t plus it’s bigger with bigger office finally and more organised as it’s a commercial building…

After much chaos finally moved started with the initial tile change as it had termite loved wooden flooring so that had to go and lil did you know choosing a tile was this stressful than choosing a fabric……to the exact shade of paint takes you good 2-3 days after many trials to lil lil setups and you are loving every bit of the process…again his thing anythung that you do with love karely will eventually come out perfect always does…

His tipni when you were making that sheera for him for a good 4-5 hours almost and getting disappointed with yourself and him sitting on the kitchen counter top swinging his legs away looking at you tells you this…cause it was your FIRST ever thing that you ever made cooked on your own…and it was for him ayyaaaaaaaaaaa somethjngs you write and relive now, him on the kitchen counter too BLESSED LUCKIEST for having lived that moment with him…!

Himmmmm!!!!!!!

 Ayyaaaaaaaaa some days nai kyaaaa se kyaaaaaaaaaaaaa hooo jaaataaaaa ki!!!!!!

It’s like dooooor se to be touched by him and howwwweeee like HOWWWWWEEEEEEEE!!!!!

Like he just did not just pat your shoulder but held all of you and howwwweeeee!!!!!!

It started off with what ajeeb vajeeeb wali feel to this right now watching the rains away and feeeeeeelinv all of him away as you do!!!!!!

Ayyyaaaaaaaaaaa singaaaaaaaa how only HOWWWEEEEEEE only you are being missed away I swear if he onlyyyyyyy bad the slightest of idea!!!!!!

Zzzzzz

 This weird state of mind you wake up with!!!!

It’s been one night of troubled sleep wake up with a temperature but that one thing one dream where these blurred visuals or something it was that looked like he is getting married kinda thing!! Like always wishing the best for him ALWAYS and since the very start!!

Not sure what it is too much news too disturbed too much work with all of it that one weird state of mind you go to bed with and this one dream or something it was and this now feeeeel you wake up with…

Mind feels weird today!!

Even with the Pooja tomo the mind it is is feeling weirder away!!!!!!

Mooood!!!!!

 It's when you get in this himzone the way it changes all of you on the inside away the way you talk think walk breathe move everything bout you gets this beauuuuutifulky himzoned like you can feeel it in you this strongly become Him...!

There have been a zillion moments at work on way to work out out for work no matter where you go be at these lilst of moments of him even coming back home...

On that soon but for now this viiiiiiibe of him when he comes like this it's like with that one touch hold kiss of his it's this you that becomes on the whole...no less than magic!!!!!!!

Not sure know of any other form of magic, than this feel of him...

Sound of his voice talking sound of him breathing like this in the mornings and to wake up and be with this viiiiiiibe of him that just transformed you away and having to act normal how do you even!!

So many moments so many wishes soo many dreams...!

Sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Howwwweeeeee only!!!!!!!

Moments!!

 When you wake up with STRONGEST longing just to hold him hold all of him away and be held by him like he used like literally all of you away in his arms kinda hug like all of you suddenly melts away wooosh bolke with just that hug of his...

This very strong longing this morning it's the waaaaaaaay it's making you feel on the inside weird lostness...

It's that feel of too much intense missing kinda vibe of this morning...!

Daaaaze!!!!

 On some days too many him moments of absolute magic and this state of mind by end of the day this THIS bad him highhhhhd and howwwwweeeeeee!!!!!

This beauuuuuuuuuuty of his one smile that one moment of his rain story tooooo many feeeeeels I say!!!!!!!!

To live a moment of his and that too of all things with the rain ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa sooooo many wishes so many dreams living him away with the sound scent and touch of rains with him…

His mind behind the visuals that interest him alwaaaaaaaays a big fan like you looooooooove every lilst bit and bite of him I say but that looooove for his mind to another level only!!!!!!

This mind right now right after one drink down it’s been ONE day with all things him no matter where you were at for work it’s been a hectic week and day today but this beauuuuuuty of finding him like this in moments and visuals ayyaaaaaaaa singaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!

That one gorgeous GIRGEIYS LIL big adooooooorabke thing called LOOOOOVE I say!!!!!

Breathing moving swaying form of LOVE I say!!!!!!!

Every inch and bit of him!!!!!!!

This mind today right now feeeeeelin too mucn away I say!!!!!!!!!

Godzillionth missing!!

 When yove been missing him away godzillionth of ways and he literaaaaallllly posts bout dinosaur ka khaandaan!!!!!!

And ever since then amidst all the cement in the air and the hair you've been smiiiiiiilingaway all rosey and howewww!!!!!

It's that lilst of something out of nowhere that can fataaaaaak se meant the world away despite of being nothing almost...but to you it means the very core of your missing him at godzillionth time and in godzillionth of ways...

Also why your fav animal recently is dinosaur!!

Something's nai absolutely magically madness I say...

This loooooooooove to live his moments away kyaaaaaaa tho bhi!!!!!

That one gorgeous lil big beauuuuuuuuutiful singaaaaaaa if he only knew i swear!!!!!!!!!

Lilst of these chaos and yet beautiful moments last few weeks of planning organising moving to the new "commercial" studio fiiiiiinally  and that too from scratch literally with tiles selection to paint selection and of all the places it had to be at his melting moments place back story soon... The sunsets from your office every single day MAGICAL it has that same vibe of him your ultimate Sunshine of life I say!!!!!!!! In constant aweeeeeeeee for life!!!!!!

Extraordinary Love...!

 This inexplicable extraordinary loooove for his drive stories and everytime you see it you can't explain the level of happiness it gives you and this one being after a very long time...his hands holding the steerwheel it's a vibe to another level only!!

And the view some moments where you are running between the older studio and new one and thus feeel every single time passing by his melting moments ayyyaaaaaaaaaa once upon a decade with mr gorgeous singaaaaa here in the very same spot!!!!!!!

Some moments are just beyond you hayeeeee dilllllll gayeeeeeeee jaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!

Gayeeeeee jayeeeeeeeeee referee!!!!!!

THE sound…!

 Zillion decibels of sound that you come across every second of your day almost including the buzz of the air in the air and then of all the sounds that falls on the curtain of your ears there’s that one sound and the waaaaaaaaaay it zinggggghhhhh bolke rings throug you!!!!!

Of all the sounds in the world that ONE sound of his voice ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!

This one feeeeeeel every time you play the video soon as you come back home too that nurture care adooooooorableness in the sound of his voice for ringo like always being protective of anybody that he truly loves was also one of those zillion other traits bout him that you absolutely LOOOOOOOVED!!!!!!

The way he is super protective about anything and anybody that he truly absolutely loves u lucky lucky lil ringo I say!!!!!!

How truly absooooolutely lucky I say!!!!!!

That one slight conscious smile on him ayyyyaaaaaaaa how you used to adooooooooore that one expression on him too when you that lost in him driving and the waaaaay he used to make that similar face with that slight smile even with the irritation in his tone that one look on him!!!!!!!!!

Ayyyyyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa heart of your life I swear!!!!!

This tired head right now and the waaaaaaay it eases all of you away like suddenly THAT him highd himzoned even without his psy beedi…

Another one of those wishes something’s you write and complete madness still I say to hear this artists commonsaints  tracks living him away for real……it’s a WHOLE viiiiibe right now even without a single sip of your drink down this feeeeeeeeel like you are flying almost just that one look on him that one smile of his atyyaaaaaaaaa the waaaaaays it makes your heart dance away literally !!

Singaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa how only you are being missed away if he only knew I swear charlie!!!!!!

Especially in this phase you are in last few weeks like it’s come full circle finding your new studio space right close to his melting moments ice cream place….

Like one full circle after years lil did you know back then having his strawberry strip ice cream in that very place it will come down to this after years now…!

His smileeeeeee!!!!!!

 Ayyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaiyoooooooooo the waaaaaaaaays him smiling puts a smile away on your face right in the middle of packing organising and planning this khushiiiiii seeing him in white after this long!!!!!!!

Ayyyyyaaaaaaaaaaaa this heart right right right now!!!!!!!!

Suchaaaaa mood!!!!!!

 Him suchaaaaaaaaa mood sucbaaaaaa vibe!!!!!

When you wake up with THAT much him this zone of mind it lands you in and with so much going on it’s like your zone of getting lost and finding your actual self back again kinda vibes…

U try to keep yourself as busy and more as possible with work but there’s no denying the waaaaaaaaaaay his presence in dreams like these or moments in music that you find him or places you find him in like the cloud last night as it rained there was this one cloud above you were him tripping away on and with and howwwwweeeee!!!!!!

Like this one artist that feeeeels all of him with the vibe of the sounds common saints but there’s nothing sainty bout the waaaaaaays it makes you miss and feeel him away with the sound…

There’s so much to write so many feels so many moments and yet that feeeeel the more you write the more missing it grows away with and the you it transforms away into how do you even put a control seat belt your mind away!!!!!!

Missing him in waaaaaaaaaaays more than one even with cement in your hair literally amidst all chaos there’s him the ultimate SUNSHINE of your life I say!!!!!!!!

His that one presence that one smile that one feeeeeeeeeeel that one rush from this morning and this mind this you ever since then……..

How do you face a dusty day ahead when there’s this rosy hazy state of mind this himzoned away!!!!!!!!

Like howwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!

Singaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!

If he only ONLYYYYYYYYYYYY knew!!!!!!!!