Sunshine...!

 Howwwweeeeee it's that one face in the world for you almost all your life that instant tttttt sunshined into your head nowww!!!!!!

Checking some work text and pause and live that beauuuuuty of him with his very song playing this instanttttttt sunshined in your head I sayyy!!!!!!

Like howwwwwweeeeeeeeee no matter how many times you live that presence of his and still feels that new happppy heart viiibe kinda mood... Every single time this state of mind right now!!!!!!

Start of the day and this himhiiiiighd smiling away already...!

Sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa howwwweeeeee only if onluyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!

Sounds n smells!!

 It’s funnily amazing how the scents change the priorities of the scents from perfumes to anything that reminds you of him is like feeling closer to him…

One such scent is the scent of cigarettes…

Yes calling it the scent ever since Him…!

Today waiting for your friend at the cafe like standing outside and checking some meme reel thing and this scent of somebody smoking a lil away and you slowly go closer to where you could smell the most and just stand there plug in the ears in this him music…….close your eyes and just vibe along with every puff!!!

Eyes closed and you were in his beauuutifully smoky Versova house of his…living that moemnt of his visual amidst the smoke the scent of the smoke filled room and your senses living and making every moemnt of that visual of him slowly emerging through the smoke your mind not sure to be more high on him or that smallest puff of his psy beedi…

Auyyaaaaaaaaaaaa everytime you relive that one visual even now as you write this very feeeeeeeeeeel of him right now!!!!!!!!!!!

His smile charloe you should see his smile when he smokes specially like one puff two puffs and that smile of his it just comeolwtwky transforms all of him away and that beauuuuuuuuuutifulky like you could initially spend hours just living that beauuuuty of him in that moment as he just sits there smiling away a lil high a lil slow like even the way he blinks moves a lil everything that beautifully slow…….

Like you don’t need a drink or a smoke and can still just get hiiiiiiigh living him away and howwwwweeeeeee!!!!!!

Some moments when you’ve lived that wholefully even reliving it now as you write and keep shutting your eyes recalling the moment him away from that moment this feeeeeeeel right now!!!!!!!!!!

Singaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!

Moments…!

 The new space has taken up too much of your mind space cause you are juggling between the next plan of campaigns to fresh designs to the store setup and it’s all new all at once…

And then there’s this same mind every day on the way to the store passing by his melting moments and on your way back out of there is like lilst moments of him throughout and it’s a very different feel lately….

Cause it’s that much of him recently where no matter where you see it’s like the city has only 2277 2727 7272 type of cars with local or MH ones too a lot lately to these random moments of a ford car passing by…this one too had that seat head issue like his other maroon ford car back then…and the way he used to call it the anti opera car cause he was that strict bout not using that car for the opera dates…….

This one time the waaaaaay he holds your hand throughout the drive and the waaaaaays he was feeling even just your arm away you look at him without saying a word and the waaaaaay he slows down keeps asking you to look at him again and that chuckle of his that adoooooooorably saying am telling you karely we can’t in this to opera agar gaye tho we won’t be able to come back home tonight cause iska koi bharosa nai hai and that sudden khushiiiiii in you just thinking of it and you get more excited and by your face the waaaaaaaaay he stops the car and starts to chuckle away that adooooorably I swear charlie those moments of letting him have his moment like that ayyaaaaaaaaaa that ultimate level of happiness I swear!!!!!

Like apart from that moemnt there’s nothing else in the world that could’ve made you more happier to see him live him like that with that sound of him laughing away that adoooorabky at your mind without you saying a word all that while to him…

Ever since then whenever he would come to see you in that car that only thought on your mind opera!!!!!!

Even that day seeing that car in the traffic and the sound of his chuckles ayyaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!

It’s like there’s nothing in the day and then suddenly there’s a random lil thing bout him and the waaaaaaay it all becomes him and that beauuuuutifully!!!!!!

Plus what’s making it all that beautifully worse is the weather tooo feeeeeeel him live him with the rains is another mood altogether I say…

Moments!!!!

 How you’ve been feyiiiiing struggling to hold back your mind!!!!!!

Like nothing you feel otherwise nothing absolutely at all and there’s that slightest something of him and woooooof your mind goes bit by bit I say!!!!!!

Just second back you working on some final reels and jewellery edits with this artist playing and the waaaaaaay it’s like all him just like your ultimate fav two feet brings him along with every beat…

And you had this strand of hair over the neck and that feeeeeeeel of him jn an instance just like he used to hold you by your neck that same exaaaact feeeeelinf it wasn’t even for the gin but the him in you rushes through you and howwwweeeeee!!!!!!

This need to take the exact viiiibe of the feeeeel and save it away cause it happened very often this last week even days back when you wear some chudidar after 15 years with these extra long jumkis and as you try to look to the car beside for the distance in some turn and the waaaaaaay it touches your skin shoulder that feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel of his hand over exact way exact ditto space……….the waaaaaaaaaaaaay he rushes through you in that very moment was SOMETHING else!!!!!!

Like it numbed you away in the most maaaaaddddest way possible the waaaaaaaaaaaaay it just made you come alive that strongly that you had to ask the drive to stop by a lil ahead and leave you in the car for a bit!!!!!

Cause you bas needed that moemnt on your own with him rushing through you!!!!!!

Cause that’s howwwwweeeeeee strongly you felt him in that very moment in that way after the longest time possible and that made you miss your morning workouts that bad!!!!!!

This very moment seconds back tooo same viiiibe that you again needed sometime off of everything else stop the music close your eyes feeeeel him to the mostest and then had to save that vibe of that very moment tonight!!

Youdays I SWEAR howwwweeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!! Only!!!!!!!!!!

This mind this you right right right nowwww!!!!!!!

THISSSS ZONE!!!!!

 The second you land in this zone theees no going back I say!!!!

It’s like seconds back u still we’re working n this music this flashes of him moments through the day n here comes the drop like from one bear to that smooooooooth beat drop like that transition it’s almost like he held you by the neck that instant transition I saaaaaay!!!!!!!

This drop this zone you suddenly landed in unprepared for I sayyyy!!!!!!

Moments!!

 In traffic right now and this him playlist playing and it’s like lilst to recent most moments with him rushing through you!!!!!

It’s like it’s not just his music playing right now but the veriest lil to everything him rushing through you right now…

How can a random moment turn jnto something this THIS beautiful out of nowhere and all of a sudden like this!!!!!!

Singaaaaaaaaaaaa howwwweeeeeee only you are being missed away if he only had the lilst idea I swear!!!!!!!

This zoned!!!!!

 ANDDDDDDD few sips down gin gin after a daaaay of himzoned and you get more even himzoneddddd!!!!!

Any track to every track becomes him track now tho!!!!!!

Waysssssssss uve missed him daaaaaays uve missed him ginsssssss uve missed him with........

Vocal singing missing night thonite!!!!

Habits!!

 Editing night as you are waaaaaay behind on posts and reels cause of the store interior work taking up almost all of your time but some habits nai no matter how hard you try nai hota bas...

Any news bout Bombay first shakes you even much before understanding what's it bout!!

This one habit I swear of all the other habits like another wierrd one being how somehow the wanderer guy feels like him and him not seeing your story is like somehowwww as crazy as this sounds writing it out is like Him not seen your story...

How does it matter no clue what diff it makes still no clue lil heart I tell weirder ways of its own ....

Like another one being on Saturdays waiting for the red halo over him and howwwweeeeee!!!!!

Again no clue what or how or why, just does something away...!

How, still no clue!!

New addition to the store again one of those things one of those moments with him in your mind happened today too...

Missing!!!!!

 This deeeeep him diving away like there’s that need to add the himness in almost everything that you do just soo you can feel and live him more!!

Be it styling the store and you see this glass bangle stall and buy and wear it after years the first and only time being with him by him at yadhirigutta!!!!

Decade later to wear it see it in your wrist that feeeeeel of him to going to this antique pot store at the other end of the city and on the way his Škoda service centre…to heading to get the manequins to another location passing by ranigunj Sai baba temple and necklace road ofc it was like one moment of his to a zillion others and one after the other!!!!!!

Even as you start to write now this feeeeel this missing ever since then…!

It’s this this thing always be it back then or years after even now anything small or big the first and only person that need to share has always been him…be it the store corners things to share with him or your first ever Bollywood outfit sourcing for tamana with sidarth movie and of all the places in Bombay it had to be shipped to the stylist in Versova … like not sure what’s this even how this be possibly this accurate precise when it comes to all the himmagic that you breathe through your days and seconds of your day……

It’s getting beyond you like how do you even not miss him like this!!!!!!

This mind right now still from that moemnt moments back!!

Moments!!!!

 One single day and there are over a zillion moments that you may come across and then there is this tiny lil fragment of a moemnt like this one that sort of makes the other any other moment or thing seem non existential almost!!

To live him to live a moment of living him living his details like you just did seconds back even be it in a dream this feeeeeeeeel right now this very feeeeel right now rushing through you!!!!!!!

His eyes that beauuuuuuutifully sleepy his that one sleeeepy gorgeous smile to just be able to live a moment of him like this too!!!!!!

Ayyyaaaaaaa singaaaaaaaaaaa how only you are being missed away abhiiii k abhiiii!!!!

When you avoid writing him cause there’s that bad of a missing happening ever since that day like you can’t just can’t think anything at all beyond him and you know writing only fuels it more and then there’s this beauuuuuty of some moments to just be able to live him breathe him from this close even for a dream…

This very mind right now!!!!!!!

THE brain!!!!!

 Brain magic at absolute best!!

So much planning at work for the store and still manage to forget most important things on day to day level.......

The same brain exact visits a lane after more than 12 years and one turn in the lane and you know just right there to the left will be his Skoda service centre and then to find it right there that one rush of him through you in an instance ayyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!

This beauty of his places and to live him there close your eyes and the exact moments lived there rushes through you like hesgday was a big day all him day inspite of it being a work day still......

It's going to be a long night writing tonight I say!!

U wake up no dream but this heart and mind still smiling away to living him from yesterday's moments!!

That one just now line did ring too deep nai...

Still smiling away living him from yesterday!!

Vocal wordy!!

 When you know once you sit down to write it's going to be a looooongpain cause the thingzzzzzzz his places do away to your mind are just beyond words...any amount of words can't possibly define it out!!

Gvk and a zillion memories lived there where even in the second last scene this brown jacket Tommy wears is exactly ditto same as his one from thus one gorgeousssssssssss pic of his by the lake side...

Seeeeeee this is what writing does to you didn't wanna write feeling too much away so you instead be first time vocal bout it trying to get it out of you and do a audio thing and then even then writing it out here!!!!!

Strangely this new thing tried felt good speaking out even a line of missing him feeling him away this much just did something, that shift again!!

Kyaaaaaaa thoooooo bhiiii kaisaaaaaa tho bhi!!!!!!

Singaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!

Loooove!!!!

 This level of looove to live his moments away!!!!!

Something's nai something's only...!

Going Sunday he went yesterday to movie with him was double the experience ALWAYS one for the movie and more for him, to live him away with his expression his focus his adooooooooorable focussed expression watching reacting to the movie and his love and respect to wait for the end credits through...

Kyaaaaaaaaa thoooooo bhiiiiii!!!!!!!!!

Himzoned himhighdddd!!!!!

 It’s these lilst of moments be it editing working on looking for some right kinda music to go along with the mood of the reel…..and this weather suddenly gets this beauuuuuutifully drizzly and you decide to head out for a bit on a lil drive around all by yourself and ofc the driver!!!!!

Playing his music and this viiiiibe of him from those days that one pic of his with lucky brings back the BEST memories of your life literally!!!!!

At his place him running gliding walking dancing sometimes around having lived him that much there to his navy shirt to his that specific smile that you loooooooooooooved absolutely!!!!!!

Ayyaaaaaaaa the waaaaaaaay wooooooosh bolke he takes over your mind like the most beautiful cloud I say!!!!!!

It’s like you were almost flying like that kinda himhighddddd!!!!!!!

To finally finding that track that you again misssed him with the words the mood of the track and you decide that one…..

To editing some extra clips and you find this you laughing in it and this realisation after long hearing you laugh like that over something goofy the model does and you actually crack up and pin drop silence after cause that’s how loud you were…..

It’s that feeeeel charlie cause not like that anymore you are much more serious and keep to yourself…

Like that you with him you really REALLY miss the waaaaaaaay he would bring out the best of you like you still like yoruself today too the way you have grown stronger with time……but that you with Him was the most feminine you’d ever been specially comparing the you now and then that was your most beautiful feminine self ever it was his love poora ka pooora!!!!!!

It’s when someone loves you truly they do bring out the best in you and he always did loved you even when you were nothing at all and HOWWWWWW!!!!!!

It just hit and felt very different years after to hear your own laughter like that!!!!!

To the other moment common moemnt being when it gets cold outside the car and inside the windows get steamed up even the other day out with mom way back from work windows get like that and that feeeeel of the stadium place that one moemnt with him and getting caught by the cops…ever since then everytime that visual of the window brings every second every move every inch of him along and hiwwwwweeeeeee!!!!!!

Even now as you sit down for edit again this feeeeeel of his face his forehead his arms his smile his frowns his that one signature nod ayyyaaaaaaaaaa heart of your complete life and soul I swear for life!!

Just when that same feat and worry hits you with news bout bad weather in Bombay you get worried about him and knowing you can’t do a thing bout it…..he posts that post and that sudden something calms away inside of you he is good he is good he is safe kinda feel…

Something’s nai you can’t help it be it that habit of yours or this one just before sleeping playing his music on his channel and everyday for years now that one wait to find some any music of his and today it happens just when you get sleepy and head over to his channel and see this new update!!!

Am telling you charloe if there’s anything apart from all him and his presence that can possibly make you THIS happy anything other than him it’s his musiK…

That’s your own lil world of happiness right there!!

Ayyyaaaaaaaaa this feeeeeeeeeel as that one psyyyyy of a track plays on loop now!!!!!!!

Singaaaaaaaaaaa you gorgeous gorgeousssssss lil big adoooooorabke thing how only you are being missed away I say!!!!!!!!!

Psyyyyyychedelic!!!!!

 To find his music after yeaaaaaars!!!!!!

THIS level of happiness right RIGHT NOWWWWW!!!!!!!!

Some habits nai and out of all a sudden after years thus very moment the waaaaaay it makes you re realise whyyyy you always loooooved his musiK too!!!!!

Cause it all eventually did start with the sound of his musiK the Fink…!

Heart!!!!!

 He is the ultimate heart HEAAAART of your soul I swear!!!!!!

Take the day off to work on edits and reels his music playing mind in that himzone even whilst working this feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel be the weather the mood the zone you are in it just lands you in a complete different zone inside outside around you…….

Check him and see that halo of your happiness over him and that rush for moms fone and see him ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaa the heart of your soul literally !!!!!!

To live him with lucky zillion memories ayyaaaaaaaaaaa THIS STATE OF YOU right right now!!!!!!!

Singaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa if you only had the whifffest of idea waaaaaays you are being missed away abhiiii k abhiiiiiii!!!!!!!

Himversion!!

 Most of the campaign's you write the description for somehow feels like it's the you from the him times...

Like you recall that you from that time the real you and somehow write in that feel and zone...

This one too has all the him feels of seeing him in mornings start to the day with him to the many times you just felt him missed him with rains badly strongly or that Beatles track of here there everywhere, that you, that you miss.......

Another one to the list as you complete it and select it as the final draft all the ones you wrote last night post shoot!!

Cloudy!!

 Some visuals even years after the very same feeeeeeel of him…

It’s the clouds just before monsoon or almost monsoon and the waaaaaay it always bring him along on the terrace talking bout the same clouds and sharing it with you…

Every time around June July this feeeeeeel of him seeing the same marshmallow clouds…

Prepping for the early morning shoot tomo you had to source the jewellery for the same and on the way it leads to tank bund necklace road stretch ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaa some days nai just too toooo perfect I say to relive him away in one of his places with his sound of music to the visuals of his marshmallow cloud too perfect !!

Sing miyaaaaaaaa howeeeeeee only like HOWWWEEEEE only!!!!!

Visuals!!

 It's this feeeeeeling every single time everytime something good something new something exciting happens the first and only person that comes to your mind with that urgency urge wish to share HIM!!!!!

The work at the new store is taking forever and going at a snails pace but this one lil thing that made you very happy today also did become your most fav corner till now.....and the second you style the spot n take a picture of it the very first wish to share it with him rushes through you...you know some wishes make no sense now but it's just that thing that side of you that you can't change now...

It's like the core of you by now...

This first corner of the store styled first time and you are in love with it baby steps for now........ nevertheless saving it up here!!

Cause it made you that happy!!

Momentssss!!!!

 To this other one right after the previous one you close your eyes and live him away like any moment of his that you come across right after you close your eyes and stay there for longer reliving him away….

To still in that zone this one track strawberry something by harry and that feeeeeeel of him again one morning at his place……after meeting his sister head over to his room and he was still sleeping go closer slow and the waaaaaaaay he turns fataaaak se towards you and tries to lean closer smelling your side away…it was your perfume and the waaaaay he smiles with his eyes still shut and you lean closer to move his hair away from his forehead to kiss and the waaaaay he tries to reach you by his lips…

Chummis you and that very second like by then you were used to the chummis but that was the first early morning one and he moves back and you go closer wanting another one and his eyes still shut the waaaaaay he could sense that in you and kisses again…this time a proper one!!!!

And that very second as he moves a lil to open his eyes and look at you smiling away still adoooooooooorablh girgeosullllyuyyy sleepy ayyaaaaaaaaaaaa his beauuuutiful beat you say it out how come you taste this sweet and he comes closer again for another one and moves a lil away asking even now!!!!!!

After all these years some strawberry track brings that him along and that feeeeel suddenly on your lip today some moments you can’t write out out and stil that need to cause it felt that strongly today…like you do your best not missing him with and in details but some moments donno know how or why or what the waaaaaays it brings him along and that strongly!!!!!

The waaaaaaaay that moment that visual of him looking his gorgeousssss sleepy best tasting like that stayed with you….where you had to discuss with the carpenter again for the counter and your mind keeps going back to him on bed sleeping on tummy looking that beauuuutiful still talking you were smiling….so you like always take the phone and head down for a lil walk…

U just donnoooooooo how to get back the straight face on when he comes like this zooooooop bolke holding your hand all of you away and off you fly!!!!!!

Coming back landing back to reality is when it all gets difficult and beyond you!!

Moments!!!!

 It’s been a very himddd up start to the day today right from the himconing to the moments through the day it’s like the more you were doing your best to control your mind and not let it wander to the detailed corners of him the more it was getting out of your hand literally!!!!!

From the dream to the waaaaaaays you struggle keep a straight face on and now as the way is longer to the studio you get more time with his music and your mind with him…

Through the jam and this car slows down beside front seat kid brother back seat sister on her moms lap and she puts her leg on the front seat and the way the brother tries to bite her leg and right then there He was!!!!!

From the very first time he does that at opera the very first time there from the random galli to your galli at opera after the chummi he takes your hand holds it one end to the other end kinda grip looking you in the eye he bites……

It’s that feeeeeeeeeel to experience something like that like you did live the first chummi and chummissss with him till then but to experience that and the way he does it looking you in the eye as he does it……it’s like a spark of live current through every vein of you in that very second….

Ever since then how he loooooved doing that and watching your expression as he does that….this one time at his place wrestling almost wwf style with him on his bed again one of those things you looooved with him to wrestle and as you keep winning at full power the way he suddenly grabs your arm brings his face closer to your shoulder still looking you takes a bite and there it was his cheat move that he very well knew would add a pause to that play mode you were in and get into transition phase……

It’s like the mind the body the soul inside suddenly feels that buzz like suddenly in seconds you get high on him……like it was some sort of magic that he would work it was beauuuuutiful to just live him live that transition of his his eyes his smile his face his body moving like every bit of him bit by bit frame by frame would transform suddenly and how you loooooooved living that beauuuuty of him!!!!!

Something’s you write and relive now ayyyaaaaaaaa singaaaaaaa!!!!!!!

Gorgeous gorgeous human I swear!!!!!!!!!!

THE sound...!

 Fast asleep watching Jason movie and this beauuuuuuuuuty of his music ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa the waaaaaay it brings him along like this high it wakes you up with like the gin couldn't buy the waaaaaaaay this him highdddd you wake up right now......

Like even right now can't think of write syatught cause that's how close he was seconds back holding him sniffing him away him chumming your hair and skin away and howeeeeeeeee and now suddenky this lost!!!!!

This rush of him right now like you can feeel it inside of you even the way you are breathing right now!!!!!!!

The sound of his voice saying your name and things away holding you ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa to see him in this olive tone looking this delicious ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa taste of my love I say !!!!!!!!!

Singaaaaaaaaaaa this very second how onluuuuuu you are being missed awaaaaay abiiiii ke abhiiii!!!!

Like you wanted to write out today's day and working and watching movie you fall asleep and like he had to now nowwwwwwwjust so you could live him again ayyyaaaaaaaaaa your face right now your skin right now........

The waaaaaay exactly the waaaaaaaay it's always been bout his presence and the waaaaays it transforms you away inside out...!

Baarish!!

 What makes your heart smile n sing singhhhhh away!!!!

The OG singaaa and the rains!!!!!

The news bout the onset of monsoon ayyyyaaaaaaaaa the waaaaaaaays this season brings along the singaaaaaa I say!!!!!!!!

Waaaaaaaaays you are being missed away sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa if you only knew !!!!!!!!!!!!!

Let me adooooooore you!!!!!!!!

The Sound…!

 On your way back home and you play this random mix of pop songs from much early!!!!!

And this one Bally track plays you singing along and the waaaaaaaay he rushes throug you in that moment….

under your apartment waiting with his sister for him…..as his sister had come over to your place on her way back home and after spending some time with you she calls him where he was and all and he says he will be there in few mins….

Under your apartment with her and she sings this line aaja ree  and you sing along with her saying aaja re chippyyyy and he comes over taking that Gali turn wali filmy entry of his and you both laugh over it with her saying dekh bhayya tere liye full filmy style entry mara…..cause that entry was just when you start singing calling him out…and as he gets off asking you what it was bout and just nod away saying nothing…and in that moment I swear charlie that sudden strong need to just hold him hug him tightest like you could feel it in your arms that strong missing that need urge to hold him away……

But with her sister there you couldn’t and he knowing you that well walks towards you and places his arm over your shoulder and you just place your one cheek on his arm tightly like cheek hugging him away literally and seeing noticing that in you he asks his sister to turn his car or something it was and she takes a few steps ahead and he chummis you away fataaak se and walks towards his car…..

Standing there raising his eyebrows asking you what’s up if you were okay and all and later they both leave in their own cars away…

Him on the call even before you tell him bout it he mentions how he could strongly feel you missing him and wanted to hold him and then you tell him bout it!!!!

The way he would always call it it was written all over your face like he could literally read away your missing him just by looking at you!!!!!

Something’s you write and relive and this feeeeeeeel now……

Soooo yeahhhh that memory recall and that feeeeeeel of him from that moment to much later at home sometime back see there he was your most loved red halo over him and you chorofy moms phone to check and it was bout Mumbai metro…

Andddddd again your mind your madness your moment of magic was the track ends at the railway station her waiting for the guy and He turns up with Mumbai metro thing….

Something’s nai you know it’s madness but just can’t help just can’t!!!!!!!

Love and all things with love like missing too is allllll in the details charlie…!

It’s like all magic you just need to find your own spark of magic and that moment was yours!!

Ayyyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa the most MOST gorgeous HUMAN ever on the face of this planet I say!!!!!!!

How only waaaaays beyond measure sing miyaaaa you are being missed away abhiiii ke abhiiiii……..

if only he knew charlie!!!!!!!!

Aaaajaaaaaaa reeeeee!!!!!!!!!!

Himmmmed!!!!!!

 To today from those many moments this dream or something that lands you in the ajeebest mood that stays with you for quiet long…..

It was only much later in the day this influencer that follows you sends you a message of a invite of all places in the world and all of Hyderabad it was bout mount opera like your most beloved BELOIIOOOIOOOOVED THE mount opera…

It was such a HUGE pause right then and there as you were in the middle of discussion with the carpenter them standing you with that gorgeous him pause that one word right at the top and asks you to check her story for further details it was bout some festival at mount opera like you alone and he knows what that place means to you!!!!!!

Right from the very first time there he looks around and chummis yiu and still close to your face he looks you in the eye and tells you this is my most fav kurta on you…

To running out of the car and asking you to come out and the second you do the waaaaaay he lifts you up ayyyaaaaaaa that feeeeeeel to be literaaaaaallllly high on him and hiiiigh on his love…

His face from up there that expression on him his smiiiiile and can never write out enough how much you loooooooooved still looooooove madly love LOVE his smile !!!!!!!

It’s your heart right there on his lips the waaaaaaay he looks when he smiles too!!!!!!

To finally taking you to the actual galli of yours saying let’s see this galli as the previous spot few bikers come over so he decides to keep safe and try some other Gali and this did become your own lil hideout home away from home kinda corner to live him away and howwwweeeeee!!!!

That one place where having lived zillion versions of him from loooving adoring him in his whiten blue striped shirt to actually wearing one as he gets on call with his friend……

That one place ayyyaaaaaaaa on evenings when he would just come out to meet you for lays chips date and you miss holding him chumming him with him standing beside you just touching your fingers away on the car…..eating chips looking you in the eye and smiling that smile of his raising his eyebrows laughing at you and then telling yiu soorat dekh Teri it’s written all over your face opera leke jaa……and then would suddenly stop smiling stop eating and just look you in the eye that one rushhhh that one feeeeeeeel of him and even without holding or touching him you could feeeeeeel literallly feeeeeeeel him rush through you and hiwwweeeee!!!!!

Like he would bas know when your face had that reaction like just look at you before going out anywhere haaaan jayinge opera aaj…..like just nod at your face and laugh away holding you making you sleep on his lap as he drives…

It was like your world of Him right there……..

He would just transform there charlie like unfurl away that beauuuuuuuuutifully not just living moments away but sharing moments away with you like he never did before no place else than there…

Even as you write now sooooooooo many moments lived there sooooooooooooooooo many wishes made there in that very place with a someday surely…!

Absolute filmy!!!!

 Him calling you meri Bollywood girlfriend hai tu!!!!

On your way to sign the agreement at the office and it was through Basheerbagh lanes and this trip you were on that day too wake up Sid songs playing on the way…..and this traffic jam in the small lane and to your side of the window there was this tv store with all screens playing wake up sid movie…

It was that sudden perfect in sync filmy moemnt that instantly makes you THAT happy like suddenly you were blessed with that strong magical dust all over you to live that in sync moment of himtripping!!!!

Some moments nai fataaaak se fill you up with something that makes you akele akele have that lil party on the inside like you are your happiest on the inside smiling the widest in the inside cause that’s how that quiet yet magical moment made you feel like ekdum dhadaaaam se…

And how you looooove finding these moments in details cause it’s like finding him in those corners of such moments like immeeeediately travel back fataaak se and find him right there smiling back at you right then there…

It’s absolute madness it’s ansultely magical it’s ultimate level of happiness in that moment for you cause you just found him there…!

HIM!!!!!

 It’s this something that you can’t possibly write out in words how it’s like every morning there cause it’s very early morning days for now till the setup and the feeeeek to pass from there and you always ask the driver to slow down for a bit there……it’s like meeting him there every morning with flashes of him eating his strawberry strip his style mixing it in a smoothie form and then asking you to eat it his way…..waiting for your reaction if you did like it and that smiiiiiiule of his soon as he sees you loving it!!!!!

It’s that initial phase of becoming him viiibes right there in that very spot like lil did you know it was just the start of it all even much before you knew it was love…

To the next time there he takes one ice cream and starts to drive instead of staying there and wants you to feed him as he drives around……like he wanted to live that feeeeel of him driving and you feeding him the ice cream…

His mind I swear charlie was like finding your most beauuuuutiful home right there in his mind in him!!!!!!

Sooooo yaaaaahhh and this one day on your way back home you were on a work call in the evening and see this girl with the guy on the bike and her kurta was close to the tyre and it was a chiffon kinda kurta and dupata too and in ishaara you ask her to move it away from the tyre and smiles away thanking you…….

Again at his place he had dropped you there to be with his sister on a bad day and he had to go out for some his dads work after a few hours almost by evening he calls you and asks you to come out jaldi but chupke se without telling anybody and you literally run out to see him and he was at the back gate waiting on the bike for you….

You literally run to him and he moves a bike a lil more peeche you go closer slowly and he does it again a lil more peeche and then ishaara asking you to sit at the back with him…you try to sit side way cause again it was your first time on the bike and you didn’t know how to exactly go bout it……he asks you to sit with your one leg this side and one leg the other side as you do holds your hand and makes you hold him asking you if your kurta and dupata was off the tyre and in your hands and telling you to always hold it that way when on the bike…..and takes it slow inside his house like making the most of it and tells you how he always wanted to take you out on the bike with him and you as always excitedly ask him if we could go out now then tells you it wasn’t the right day but still he that badly wanted to live that moment with you…

That day with him to that day instructing that girl forthe same thing and finding him in that lilst of moment was magical…

Like in a second he was right there RIGHT THERE in that moment with you…his facial expressions that clear as he moves the bike a lil peeche watching you walk towards him his that one way of looking you in the eye with that smiiiiiile on him ayyyaaaaaaaaaaa his smile was your HEART!!!!!!!!

Like poooooora ka pooooooora heart!!!!!!!

Singaaaa!!!!!!

 It’s been moments and more moments lately but today’s this moment was the ultimate highlight of it all I swear!!!!

Ever since having moved to this new store which you had to after the recent literal vandalism in your absence that the owner does there…..with outfits missing and stuff and then to have people sit out like men kinda men sit out just so you can’t pass through that corridor to reach her and complain about it you finally decide to change before it got any worse…

Been looking for a good studio commercial space for over 2 years now and finally of all the agents of all the places it HAD to be this one…

Like the very first landmark that the real estate guy mentions was melting moments Annapurna studio Gali and ayyyaaaaaaa that Khushi even before seeing the space…

Like that gut in you does that scream yes THIS IS IT kinda vibe much before seeing it too…

Once you see the place love it anyway and ask for pricing and stuff and it was much higher than the budget you had in mind but that one fewweeel of every day passing through his melting moments place and living him away under the tree you just couldn’t plus it’s bigger with bigger office finally and more organised as it’s a commercial building…

After much chaos finally moved started with the initial tile change as it had termite loved wooden flooring so that had to go and lil did you know choosing a tile was this stressful than choosing a fabric……to the exact shade of paint takes you good 2-3 days after many trials to lil lil setups and you are loving every bit of the process…again his thing anythung that you do with love karely will eventually come out perfect always does…

His tipni when you were making that sheera for him for a good 4-5 hours almost and getting disappointed with yourself and him sitting on the kitchen counter top swinging his legs away looking at you tells you this…cause it was your FIRST ever thing that you ever made cooked on your own…and it was for him ayyaaaaaaaaaaa somethjngs you write and relive now, him on the kitchen counter too BLESSED LUCKIEST for having lived that moment with him…!

Himmmmm!!!!!!!

 Ayyaaaaaaaaa some days nai kyaaaa se kyaaaaaaaaaaaaa hooo jaaataaaaa ki!!!!!!

It’s like dooooor se to be touched by him and howwwweeee like HOWWWWWEEEEEEEE!!!!!

Like he just did not just pat your shoulder but held all of you and howwwweeeee!!!!!!

It started off with what ajeeb vajeeeb wali feel to this right now watching the rains away and feeeeeeelinv all of him away as you do!!!!!!

Ayyyaaaaaaaaaaa singaaaaaaaa how only HOWWWEEEEEEE only you are being missed away I swear if he onlyyyyyyy bad the slightest of idea!!!!!!

Zzzzzz

 This weird state of mind you wake up with!!!!

It’s been one night of troubled sleep wake up with a temperature but that one thing one dream where these blurred visuals or something it was that looked like he is getting married kinda thing!! Like always wishing the best for him ALWAYS and since the very start!!

Not sure what it is too much news too disturbed too much work with all of it that one weird state of mind you go to bed with and this one dream or something it was and this now feeeeel you wake up with…

Mind feels weird today!!

Even with the Pooja tomo the mind it is is feeling weirder away!!!!!!

Mooood!!!!!

 It's when you get in this himzone the way it changes all of you on the inside away the way you talk think walk breathe move everything bout you gets this beauuuuutifulky himzoned like you can feeel it in you this strongly become Him...!

There have been a zillion moments at work on way to work out out for work no matter where you go be at these lilst of moments of him even coming back home...

On that soon but for now this viiiiiiibe of him when he comes like this it's like with that one touch hold kiss of his it's this you that becomes on the whole...no less than magic!!!!!!!

Not sure know of any other form of magic, than this feel of him...

Sound of his voice talking sound of him breathing like this in the mornings and to wake up and be with this viiiiiiibe of him that just transformed you away and having to act normal how do you even!!

So many moments so many wishes soo many dreams...!

Sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Howwwweeeeee only!!!!!!!

Moments!!

 When you wake up with STRONGEST longing just to hold him hold all of him away and be held by him like he used like literally all of you away in his arms kinda hug like all of you suddenly melts away wooosh bolke with just that hug of his...

This very strong longing this morning it's the waaaaaaaay it's making you feel on the inside weird lostness...

It's that feel of too much intense missing kinda vibe of this morning...!

Daaaaze!!!!

 On some days too many him moments of absolute magic and this state of mind by end of the day this THIS bad him highhhhhd and howwwwweeeeeee!!!!!

This beauuuuuuuuuuty of his one smile that one moment of his rain story tooooo many feeeeeels I say!!!!!!!!

To live a moment of his and that too of all things with the rain ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa sooooo many wishes so many dreams living him away with the sound scent and touch of rains with him…

His mind behind the visuals that interest him alwaaaaaaaays a big fan like you looooooooove every lilst bit and bite of him I say but that looooove for his mind to another level only!!!!!!

This mind right now right after one drink down it’s been ONE day with all things him no matter where you were at for work it’s been a hectic week and day today but this beauuuuuuty of finding him like this in moments and visuals ayyaaaaaaaa singaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!

That one gorgeous GIRGEIYS LIL big adooooooorabke thing called LOOOOOVE I say!!!!!

Breathing moving swaying form of LOVE I say!!!!!!!

Every inch and bit of him!!!!!!!

This mind today right now feeeeeelin too mucn away I say!!!!!!!!!

Godzillionth missing!!

 When yove been missing him away godzillionth of ways and he literaaaaallllly posts bout dinosaur ka khaandaan!!!!!!

And ever since then amidst all the cement in the air and the hair you've been smiiiiiiilingaway all rosey and howewww!!!!!

It's that lilst of something out of nowhere that can fataaaaaak se meant the world away despite of being nothing almost...but to you it means the very core of your missing him at godzillionth time and in godzillionth of ways...

Also why your fav animal recently is dinosaur!!

Something's nai absolutely magically madness I say...

This loooooooooove to live his moments away kyaaaaaaa tho bhi!!!!!

That one gorgeous lil big beauuuuuuuuutiful singaaaaaaa if he only knew i swear!!!!!!!!!

Lilst of these chaos and yet beautiful moments last few weeks of planning organising moving to the new "commercial" studio fiiiiiinally  and that too from scratch literally with tiles selection to paint selection and of all the places it had to be at his melting moments place back story soon... The sunsets from your office every single day MAGICAL it has that same vibe of him your ultimate Sunshine of life I say!!!!!!!! In constant aweeeeeeeee for life!!!!!!

Extraordinary Love...!

 This inexplicable extraordinary loooove for his drive stories and everytime you see it you can't explain the level of happiness it gives you and this one being after a very long time...his hands holding the steerwheel it's a vibe to another level only!!

And the view some moments where you are running between the older studio and new one and thus feeel every single time passing by his melting moments ayyyaaaaaaaaaa once upon a decade with mr gorgeous singaaaaa here in the very same spot!!!!!!!

Some moments are just beyond you hayeeeee dilllllll gayeeeeeeee jaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!

Gayeeeeee jayeeeeeeeeee referee!!!!!!

THE sound…!

 Zillion decibels of sound that you come across every second of your day almost including the buzz of the air in the air and then of all the sounds that falls on the curtain of your ears there’s that one sound and the waaaaaaaaaay it zinggggghhhhh bolke rings throug you!!!!!

Of all the sounds in the world that ONE sound of his voice ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!

This one feeeeeeel every time you play the video soon as you come back home too that nurture care adooooooorableness in the sound of his voice for ringo like always being protective of anybody that he truly loves was also one of those zillion other traits bout him that you absolutely LOOOOOOOVED!!!!!!

The way he is super protective about anything and anybody that he truly absolutely loves u lucky lucky lil ringo I say!!!!!!

How truly absooooolutely lucky I say!!!!!!

That one slight conscious smile on him ayyyyaaaaaaaa how you used to adooooooooore that one expression on him too when you that lost in him driving and the waaaaay he used to make that similar face with that slight smile even with the irritation in his tone that one look on him!!!!!!!!!

Ayyyyyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa heart of your life I swear!!!!!

This tired head right now and the waaaaaaay it eases all of you away like suddenly THAT him highd himzoned even without his psy beedi…

Another one of those wishes something’s you write and complete madness still I say to hear this artists commonsaints  tracks living him away for real……it’s a WHOLE viiiiibe right now even without a single sip of your drink down this feeeeeeeeel like you are flying almost just that one look on him that one smile of his atyyaaaaaaaaa the waaaaaays it makes your heart dance away literally !!

Singaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa how only you are being missed away if he only knew I swear charlie!!!!!!

Especially in this phase you are in last few weeks like it’s come full circle finding your new studio space right close to his melting moments ice cream place….

Like one full circle after years lil did you know back then having his strawberry strip ice cream in that very place it will come down to this after years now…!

His smileeeeeee!!!!!!

 Ayyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaiyoooooooooo the waaaaaaaaays him smiling puts a smile away on your face right in the middle of packing organising and planning this khushiiiiii seeing him in white after this long!!!!!!!

Ayyyyyaaaaaaaaaaaa this heart right right right now!!!!!!!!

Suchaaaaa mood!!!!!!

 Him suchaaaaaaaaa mood sucbaaaaaa vibe!!!!!

When you wake up with THAT much him this zone of mind it lands you in and with so much going on it’s like your zone of getting lost and finding your actual self back again kinda vibes…

U try to keep yourself as busy and more as possible with work but there’s no denying the waaaaaaaaaaay his presence in dreams like these or moments in music that you find him or places you find him in like the cloud last night as it rained there was this one cloud above you were him tripping away on and with and howwwwweeeee!!!!!!

Like this one artist that feeeeels all of him with the vibe of the sounds common saints but there’s nothing sainty bout the waaaaaaays it makes you miss and feeel him away with the sound…

There’s so much to write so many feels so many moments and yet that feeeeel the more you write the more missing it grows away with and the you it transforms away into how do you even put a control seat belt your mind away!!!!!!

Missing him in waaaaaaaaaaays more than one even with cement in your hair literally amidst all chaos there’s him the ultimate SUNSHINE of your life I say!!!!!!!!

His that one presence that one smile that one feeeeeeeeeeel that one rush from this morning and this mind this you ever since then……..

How do you face a dusty day ahead when there’s this rosy hazy state of mind this himzoned away!!!!!!!!

Like howwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!

Singaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!

If he only ONLYYYYYYYYYYYY knew!!!!!!!!

Sound of music...!

 Working on edits and checking for interior reference and this artist you are loving the vibe of after discovering at true black days back...this one song starts to play this sudden need to shut your eyes and there you are in his Versova house him by your side looking you in the eye and with your hand on his chest where you could almost feel him breathe...

Some sound playing on his laptop just that visual of him looking at you with that feel of him breathing moving gently under the palm of your hand...

Like you are literally breathing him along with every breath that feeeeeeeel of him!!!!!

This has been happening a lot lately this visuals of him in specific places out of nowhere like you look up it's raining this huge gorgeous tree above and he comes along then and there in that very moment it's like that sudden rush of him against your skin out of nowhere!!

And the waaaaaaaaays it makes you feel like right now too this strong feeeeeeeeeeel of him right now too!!!!!!

You are trying this bad and yet moments like these and the waaaaaaaaaaaays they sway you off n away and howeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!

Singaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa hiwonly you are being kissed right right now nowwwwweeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!

Moments!!

 From editing pictures to now when the photographer mentions bout being too caught up with some family thing and you had to find a way out so you dobthese tutorials for 3 days and every bit of it goes off your head...

Finally today in your room alone and all of two feet and rhye playing you sit down for editing this reel and final cut you yourself were shocked caused the one thing you were that sure of was wanting to add your own his music to it...it's a way a thing bout having some of him with every work you do on your own...

It just fills something just makes it all that much more beautifuller for you...it's like sharing it with him like having him in some way...

And the second after a lot of LOTTTTTTT of self doubt post it the same second the model friend calls you up asking if it's the guys work or whose cause she knew about the photographer thing and the second you tell her it's done by you the things she mentions complimening your work it's that one feeeeeeeeeeeeel charlie....

From not knowing what editing meant back then when he was talking bout it to directing every scene move pose theme for the pictures and reels both with this place specially his house of gulmohar vibe from his movie shoot......even that day on shoot like you had one ear plugged in a r rahman music missing HIM away that baaaaadly and the other focus on the shoot and stuff......

It's that feeeeeel that viiiiibe of him in that place surrounded with all his love-in form of gulmohars all around you!!

Like can't write out what and how it made you feel that day through the shoot looking around above sometime in middle of it that vibe of losing yourself to all things him......like you almost could feel his touch over you that shiver for a second or two that strong vibe of him!!

And youd been waiting to get these reels done as you had got it done in a way with glimpses of gulmohar here n there and that feeeeeel of him how it used to make you feel kinda visuals living him away...

Like th whole vibe of it surrounded laced with all things him and himfeels!!

So you finally do it yourself and seeing the final now it just makes you this happy how you wish you could share it with him tell him it's your first edit ever not Pro enough like his but this feeeeeeeel of something's nai is just beyond the way it made you feel inceit was done...

To working on the other one now with same track that you were missing him away with then on the day of the shoot...

Playing it onloop and this rush of him now the more you are listening to it!!

Ayyyaaaaaaaaaa sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaa how only how only you are being missed away!!!!!!!!!!!!

This beauty!!!!!

 This beauty of some nights like these!!!!

Thisbaaaaaadly sleep deprived working on edits and yet it feels like the almost ideal with all him things rushing through you and howeeeeee right right now!!

Waking ups!!!!!

 It's that line between where you wanna be at and where you have to be instead that makes a huge shift!!!!!!

When you wake up from THAT much him again in your most loved black shirt 4th time in a row since last few days with that same level of peak missing you his rush that you feel smell with all of him away and still in that zone and you are slammed with 25-30 work urgency calls and having to make big decisions in a matter of an hour.......

U still donno how to deal with something's sometimes like your mind all of you on the inside still that comfyyyy rushyyyy loved up zone and on the outside having to be strict strong having to take care of things on your own kinda vibe like you just don't get the timing of things sometimes...

Like how am I supposed to deal with this where all of you still is in that himzone feeling most loved wanting to most love him away...

Like how do you even!!!!!!!!

It's like from all the rush blush flush on your skin to straight face conversations!!!!!!!!!!

Like what to what kinda vibe suddenly the day slams you with...

Sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa how only you are being missed away this very moment if you had the slightestestestestest of idea bhi!!!!!!!!!

I swear charlie if he only knew!!

Nights…!

 This love for edit nights it’s like you are completely in this zone of HIM even whilst working…from jazz to his music playing now editing laying on the floor with this wild breeze in the air……it’s suchaaaaa him vibe with everything this beautifully quiet and his music plugged in this feel right now!!!!!!

And this need to see him and there he is after soooooooo long with the red hood on that one level of khushi fataaaak se run to your moms room to get her phone luckily it was on the side table…..and it was bout some next project of his and auyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa this one Khushi can never get used to seeing his name on a project of his…

It’s that one big smile it brings on your face with that one thought again!!!!!!

Can never get used to some feels I swear!!!!!

It’s this state of mind ever since the shoot it was great but that one feeeel of surrounded by just gulmohars the waaaaaaaaaays it did bring back every single moment with him right from day 1!!

It has been one time travel ever since then like even in between the shoot from directing shots and poses your mind kept zoning in and out to evrythung him…

To that moment as you were saying the byes to the team this one new makeup artist you collaborated with comes to you with her hand behind her and then gives you this sunflower saying you are cutest she has ever worked with…

But that one feeeeeeeel to see that sunflower in your hand sunshine HIM!!!!!!!

The fields of sunflowers to that feeeeeeeel of waking upto him!!!!!

Some moments nai bas rest of it all just goes blur it’s like you were holding his face in your hands kinda vibe!!!!!!

Even recalling it now ayyyaaaaaaaaa sing miyaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!

Moments!!!!

 Some.momemts you just donnoooooo don't make any sense what so ever!!!!!

It's been quite a few days now moments dreams on location moments for the next upcoming shoot to just find him in corners like to find a gulmohar house rending you of his picture from his on blue canvas shoot him sitting on the steps of the house of gulmohar.....like back then there was this house in the Galli that had gulmohar surrounded all around.....and just the sight of it used to bring him along and then to actually find him sit at some house set in Bombay that was surrounded bygulmohats was like a moment lived together on different timelines...

Many years after now looking for a location and thus one you see had a house covered in pink and white gulmohar immediately call Arpita and confirm it tabhi k tabhi...

To actually seeing the entire location was surrounded with gulmohars and sunflowers again a visual from your many dreams of his...fields of sunflowers all around and turning to your side to finding him right there beside you with you...

The whole experience of being there at the location was a completely different vibe like you were in the most beautiful state of lostness I say...

To this week last few days se apart from his dreams there is this one contsnqt thing you've been doing......like in sleep you keep saying I miss you I miss you i miss you so so much repeatedly even now mins back when you were working on the shoot prep of cover shot planning going through stuff fall asleep with your head on the table itself......and you actyaplywake up to your own sound of voice saying i miss you I miss you so much and yub wake up cause at one time you just got that loud saying it!!

That it wakes you up!!!!!

Not sure what's this how's this cause something like this has never happened before!!

Like you miss him a lot every single day dream him and stuff get up saying things away to him in sleep and in dreams but this one thing repeatedly for over a week now same thing same way has never happened before!!

When the missing gets waaaaaaaaaaay Outta hand maybe why it makes it way Outta mouth!!

Nonsens nai still this confused sleepy state not sure what's happening !!!!!!

Sounds and visuals I say!!!!!!

Kyaaaaaaaaa tho bhi...!

Becoming!!

 A super sleeeepy start to the day super late!!

And this one visual and realising to become Him...!

His that fav striped shirt to his shoes...

Some moments nai this one zorrrrrrrr ka feeeeeeeel it fataaaak se overloads you away with and howwwweeeeee!!!!!

HimRush!!!!!!!

 This one trip of him ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaa this rush of him when it turns a usual sunday to an eventful one and now the post sunday too!!!!!

Like right from his dream to day through to that one moment visuals charlie all and more bout him!!!!!!!

Meeting a friend in the evening for coffee to talk bout the next shoot and deciding things and as she talks this one guy behind does the smoke ring thing and off they go in the air one after the other......

Everything else goes blur her face her sound the people around the place around your eyes Trippin on those smoke rings and his face from Skype doing the same thing and then waiting and watching your reaction over it....you get so excited as you'd seen it for the first time ever and he nods over that adoooooooooorably chuckling over your reaction........ask him to do again and nods again that adorably maloom tera and right before doing it again thswaaaaaaaaaaaaaay he stops looks you in the eye that deeeeep and then starts to do it again...

Like you didn't know something like that existed from hating the smell of cigarettes earlier to the smell of cigarettes now all HIM to you till date like as and when you smell it it's like HIS scent to you now...the waaaaaaaay it brings all those visuals of him smoking that sexiiiiiily away it's like suddenly he is suchaaaaa mood suchaa vibe........like you just want to live him when in that zone.......his eyes his smile hits different his facial expressions to the way his body moved when taking that puff away it was all just that different and moody and howwwwweeeeeee you looooooooved living his details away....

It used to give you that different kinda high like losing yourself in his zone kinda thing!!

Yesterday too those smoke rings that beauuuuutifulky bring him along cause these lights ay the new coffee place were those orangy street lights kinda tone vibe again like the complete place dark brown tone with that light to in between living those rings and feeeeeeeeling that rush of him through you it's that HIMzone it lands you in...till she screams your name out asking if you were listening anything at all that's when you come back to your senses and the guy smiles and asks if you wanted to take a hit and you realise how long you were staring away!! Get off fataak se and usual phoje excuse and gonto your car and play his music and just be there for a second...

This always happens it's only after do you realise how it tooooootally absorbed you away like losing the compete state of reality like there's no sense of reality thatlost you were in that moment of Him...

Tell her you had to rush back home for some work urgently and instead ask the driver to take your fav shoe factory galli and just take a round and that rush of him playing Lucky Ali away.......

Some moments nai bring it all back and howwwwweeeeeee!!!!!!

To coming home watching this robot movie electric something and the mind still in that zone.......when two feet strangely the sound of guitar strings just calms and all creates that storm inside of you almost bringing visual of his two feet along from Goa...

It's like that one music every sound has become his msuic now with the stamp of his two feet literally over them...!

To this waking up today ayyyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa him in black shirt in THAT black shirt to feeeeeeeel him this way again like never before to touch feel taste live him this waaaaaay the waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay he just moved differently in a black shirt every single time!!!! N

It's like it awakens the side of you lights that fire that's almost numb otherwise without him...

It's that spark that sudden fire that feel through you like you LOVE it and also struggle to tame it down to face the actual reality side of the day ahead........

Cause this is different when it hits you like THIS!!!!!!

Even now as y9u write this shhver of the hands as you feel the rush again reliving the visuals of this morning the him from thismoe Ning!!!!!!!

To actually living him away on WhatsApp THAT one face in the world for you I swear!!!!!!!!!!

Singaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa how only why only!!!!!!!!