Chill in the air in the balcony with the book with many writings as him all through it and thus one feeeel from back then reading his scripts away!!
To words like these cause it was making you that happy away and then suddenly this wave-like feels passing by!!
Sometimes you think it always hurts like before but today the way it feels like it hurt the most this time......still wondering how sure you were he would stay THIS time...
Like THAT sure...!
From a wound to a surgery cause it caused infection to still sticking to that one feeeeeel that matters the most of it all living him away.....like there were moments that badly wanting to be written and you just couldn't move your one hand to not being able to sleep straight and you alone know how beautiful it still was with just him being around...
As crazy as this always sounds his presence always had made a huge difference that you can't possibly ever explain or write out...
Now this one book that had almost same handwriting as his and it takes you baxk to the feeeeeel ever since the block the change that you shpudve made long back when he decided bout you.....maybe now you shpuld wjen still not ready to yet!
Its been a weord feel starf to the day already and its been feeling worse this tome somehow like always cause you had that still strong feel that maybe just maybe this time he will stay…
For sure kinda gut feeling you still donno how!!!!
This one feel of realisation today to not write out when too happy somehow that gets away from you!!
That one moment of your mornings you get that easily used to to live him still in that sleep zone mind that one feel of mornings and the start especially recent few days and now that’s gone too!!
Lilst of things…
It’s bout and in the lilst of things !!
Some moments never get easy no matter how many times you've lived that feel!
Block is back!
Jan keeps getting weirder by the day already!
He is the ultimate heart of the life I say !!!!!!!
Him in white ayyyaaaaaaaaaa this heart of mine this very moment like everytgujf else happening doesn't even matter anymore!!!!!
Ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaa that one gorgeousness of him in whites forever!!!!!!!
When you are not just face smiling but heart smiling away right now and had to write scream out this missing right now as you can barely write!!!!!!!
Somo moments nai pure magic years back then you think he was wearing that white n blue striped shirt of his don't clearly remember to years after seeing him in white on a different terrace though!!
Day is just made already I say!!!!!!!!!!
Your face right now happiest it's felt after long!!!!!!!!!
Some days no matter what, feels different!!
Still there in that terrace living that beauuuuty of him away...
To just live him your most loved aspect of life I say...
It's been very difficult few days still is hoping gets better soon to experience pain on this level somehow gets thus beautifully overshadowed by these beautiful himcomings...
A moment different versions of him almost every day the way it keeps that smile on youand the calm on the inside!!
If only doctors were as human as they are meant to be! To go through this has been most difficult but there's that thing bout finding beauty in smallest moments of him...
To the wait today to live a moment of his day something's nai beyond logics I swear!!
The THE heart of your eyes literally!!
With barely 2 hours sleep n yet this feeeeeel to waking upto him is something else...
There's that much in such a lil moment as this one...mind still sleepy n to live him away!!!!!!
Also should've wished for all of him away yesterday when wishing away for the halo cause the glory did appear!!!!!!
Sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!
