Feels!

 Some feels nai can never grow used to.....

This moment here half asleep his niladri music playing as you turn and still in almost sleep this one visual of his face up-close like you are feeling his face away his skin his nose his forehead and your most beloooooved daaaaadi of his and that strong rush of missing as you realise you were just changing the sides left ti righr.....and that need to live him on WhatsApp get there and realise back to same...

That this very feeeeeeeeel of not being able to live him!!!!!

Moment!!

 This one moment and this sudden realisation your morning most loooooooved and looked forward to moment has just changed... Again!!

When you can't see him on WhatsApp anymore this one feeeeel right now after noticing this!!

This feeeeeeling na can never grow used to!

No matter how many times you've lived this for!

This weird feeeeeel insude right now..!

Every single time!!

 Some habits just grow stronger with you over time...

Every single time there's some news about Bombay even be it weather this one thing constantly this worry this weird feel if he is okay and safe...

Probably don't even exist anymore for him but this thought alone doesn't didn't change the fact of your life...

Weird nai it's been too much music too much feels for him kinda day today aaj......working on reels finding new music and missing him all the more with the weather new update back of your mind!!

Something's nai donno how why or what but is still there!!

Be it that moment too over a call with photographer explaining about how the over exposed edit you wanted to be changed and the way the photographer talks about the kit in Bombay and not carrying and the usual edit process with the sutta music and vibe to work on the best edit possible......and as the photographer is traveling couldn't work the best on these few edits......

And in your head you already knew about His edit process the way he used to back then it's like as the photographer was talking bout it you closing your eyes and living him in his space with the sound of his voice explaining you that very same thing with his music playing in the background!!

It's the waaaaaaaaaay lilst random moments bring Him along and howwwweeeeeeeeee!!!!!!

Now as you are working on some reel thus one new music find again and this state of Him it lands you in...

Again today!!

The sound of magic...!

 The sounds of him magic !!

Moments...!

 Some movies and this mooood they can leave you with...

Like just what your soul needed kinda vibe!!

Another one of those absolute Him movies...

To this very scene from the film and thus something it fills you up with right now!!

Be it this moment or that moemnt from the early morning shoot...

Model the second she sits on the chair to get her makeup ready and you were checking on the final checks with the set and jewellery, you standing out looking at her she gets her Marshall, out of her bag and the first track she plays come away with me... It's this lovefor music and then to know what goes in others head when it comes to music and she plays that track first of all songs....

Instant first conversation the way she asks you I think you love the track the way it put a smile on your face instantly, and chat away with her about music for quite a whiiile..... She immediately saves the number away with something to do with music thing and shows you and you don't even remember now......

Cut 2 another moment of him magic, set ready and just after her first change with the set right next to the makeup that beautifully lit like you were in awe of the mood lighting setup by the Bombay crew!

The him magic right there very very filmy model enters no sound you enter the second inside tum ho starts to play it was maaaagic like you loooooved that very moment..... as the makeup guy does the final touches somebody from the crew plays the track again like till then you were goosebumps shutting your eyes away and living thatahic of the moment...

It's when you felt him the strongest with you as crazy as it may sound you did...

The entire experience with Marathi conversation around Marathi lavni music Taal songs like the whole vibe like you are there in his Bombay that feeeeeel inside that rush inside of you......it was magical!!

Like the first proper campaign you can say and what an experience it was...

Professional to the core just like how it should be and the viiiiiibe of him max core possible!!

And tonight you just wanted to be cause it was that hectic too like you almost fainted yesterday constantly standing for all those 10 hours of the shoot checking back n forth so today had to be chill and this one movie that beautifully in-sync I say!!

Some moemnts nai!!!!!!!! This defffffff the most special shoot of all done till date soo far... The entire day like you are in Bombay in your head!! To after the wrap when the team catches up with byes and stuff the main crew chills for a bit and one of them offers the passing psychedelic beedi of his asking if you wouod want to the smell the smoke in the air thick visually and there he was again back in Versova with that same visual of the looooove of your life I say!!!!!!

Sing miyaaaaa amidst the smoke and you just nod and say a no and back to packing away!! Something's nai!!!!!! Out of nowhere Him magic!!

Mood!!!!!

 There is this beauty in moments like these!!

Every single time when you find him in a moment like this too the waaaaaay it makes your heart feel is beyond logics!!

Working on last bits for the shoot tomo finally named as Pitta which is a small bird in telgu OFC had to be a bird!!!!!

Vanam theme goes all wrong and complete shitshow after the painter issue thing like what to whsaaaaat it turned out and then entire theme had to be changed and reworked on..

That's when baby steps of growing trying to add more depth to the campaign one suggestion to the other recommendation and you finally decided to go with a Bombay fotograoger instead....

Ever since then the planning on calls WhatsApp long meets it hasn't been easy but it's spoppoooooo good to plan a shoot like this too.....

It's been one beautiful learning process chaos but a beautiful one... Making of Pitta!! Another one for the loooooove for the blue bird of your life!!

To for the first time trying set designing too and suggesting the photographer otherwise as didn't sync well with the vibe of yours outfits and gives it a go.....

To this very moment planning on music final model mood poses selection to the videographer thing and this song of his starts to play out of the playlist and that insgat smile on you ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaa cause of the waaaaaays he just rushed through you!!!!!!!

His recent most tagged pic and howwwweee3ee you are in absolute loooooooooooooove with him all over again the waaaaaaay he looks that gorgeous in that tooooo him folding his arms away wearing that khaki jacket of his fullll grown beauuuuuuuuuty of his daaaaadi flexing his arms away cause the jacket uses to fit him too snug.....

It's that smiiiiiiile of his it's that beauuuuuuuuuty of his daaaaaaadi his pose that way him that way allllllll of him ayyyaaaaaaaaaaa this heart I swear !!!!!!!!!!

Him your ultimate gorgous calm and chaos all at once I say!!!!!!

Miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!

Howwwweeeeee onlyyyyy!!!!!!!

Sound...

 Amidst all the planning and confusion one post out of nowhere draws attention and that moment of sound of magic happens!!

The song to that post was His music...Nusratji longing!!

The sound the conversation the timeline he dedicates it twice to you...

It's beautiful how a sound takes you back to that exact very moment you heard it for the first time...

Somewhere around the month of June 24-26th some year post bup the very first conversation on Skype it was and he dedicates that track to you....

Years after him in Bombay when his house was setting up and some curtain rod guys come over to set it up he keeps you on hold on Skype and comes back and it's playing on your side of the window and he smiiiiiles that adooooorably saying you still listen to this and dedicates it you again and asks you kiddingly ittee der mein ittaa miss kari merko for the time he just got uo and checked the work and came back to you...

Something's you write some sentences that form as you write some sounds you listen and the waaaaaaay these camake you feel is beyond words and logics...

When the photographer and his stylist team have come down from Bombay and that weird thought on your mind to sniffher away just to smell the same air as Bombay as Him......

Weirdly crazily poetic thought tho!!

The things a heart madly in looooove comes up with nai!!