Moments!!!!

 Some.momemts you just donnoooooo don't make any sense what so ever!!!!!

It's been quite a few days now moments dreams on location moments for the next upcoming shoot to just find him in corners like to find a gulmohar house rending you of his picture from his on blue canvas shoot him sitting on the steps of the house of gulmohar.....like back then there was this house in the Galli that had gulmohar surrounded all around.....and just the sight of it used to bring him along and then to actually find him sit at some house set in Bombay that was surrounded bygulmohats was like a moment lived together on different timelines...

Many years after now looking for a location and thus one you see had a house covered in pink and white gulmohar immediately call Arpita and confirm it tabhi k tabhi...

To actually seeing the entire location was surrounded with gulmohars and sunflowers again a visual from your many dreams of his...fields of sunflowers all around and turning to your side to finding him right there beside you with you...

The whole experience of being there at the location was a completely different vibe like you were in the most beautiful state of lostness I say...

To this week last few days se apart from his dreams there is this one contsnqt thing you've been doing......like in sleep you keep saying I miss you I miss you i miss you so so much repeatedly even now mins back when you were working on the shoot prep of cover shot planning going through stuff fall asleep with your head on the table itself......and you actyaplywake up to your own sound of voice saying i miss you I miss you so much and yub wake up cause at one time you just got that loud saying it!!

That it wakes you up!!!!!

Not sure what's this how's this cause something like this has never happened before!!

Like you miss him a lot every single day dream him and stuff get up saying things away to him in sleep and in dreams but this one thing repeatedly for over a week now same thing same way has never happened before!!

When the missing gets waaaaaaaaaaay Outta hand maybe why it makes it way Outta mouth!!

Nonsens nai still this confused sleepy state not sure what's happening !!!!!!

Sounds and visuals I say!!!!!!

Kyaaaaaaaaa tho bhi...!

Becoming!!

 A super sleeeepy start to the day super late!!

And this one visual and realising to become Him...!

His that fav striped shirt to his shoes...

Some moments nai this one zorrrrrrrr ka feeeeeeeel it fataaaak se overloads you away with and howwwweeeeee!!!!!

HimRush!!!!!!!

 This one trip of him ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaa this rush of him when it turns a usual sunday to an eventful one and now the post sunday too!!!!!

Like right from his dream to day through to that one moment visuals charlie all and more bout him!!!!!!!

Meeting a friend in the evening for coffee to talk bout the next shoot and deciding things and as she talks this one guy behind does the smoke ring thing and off they go in the air one after the other......

Everything else goes blur her face her sound the people around the place around your eyes Trippin on those smoke rings and his face from Skype doing the same thing and then waiting and watching your reaction over it....you get so excited as you'd seen it for the first time ever and he nods over that adoooooooooorably chuckling over your reaction........ask him to do again and nods again that adorably maloom tera and right before doing it again thswaaaaaaaaaaaaaay he stops looks you in the eye that deeeeep and then starts to do it again...

Like you didn't know something like that existed from hating the smell of cigarettes earlier to the smell of cigarettes now all HIM to you till date like as and when you smell it it's like HIS scent to you now...the waaaaaaaay it brings all those visuals of him smoking that sexiiiiiily away it's like suddenly he is suchaaaaa mood suchaa vibe........like you just want to live him when in that zone.......his eyes his smile hits different his facial expressions to the way his body moved when taking that puff away it was all just that different and moody and howwwwweeeeeee you looooooooved living his details away....

It used to give you that different kinda high like losing yourself in his zone kinda thing!!

Yesterday too those smoke rings that beauuuuutifulky bring him along cause these lights ay the new coffee place were those orangy street lights kinda tone vibe again like the complete place dark brown tone with that light to in between living those rings and feeeeeeeeling that rush of him through you it's that HIMzone it lands you in...till she screams your name out asking if you were listening anything at all that's when you come back to your senses and the guy smiles and asks if you wanted to take a hit and you realise how long you were staring away!! Get off fataak se and usual phoje excuse and gonto your car and play his music and just be there for a second...

This always happens it's only after do you realise how it tooooootally absorbed you away like losing the compete state of reality like there's no sense of reality thatlost you were in that moment of Him...

Tell her you had to rush back home for some work urgently and instead ask the driver to take your fav shoe factory galli and just take a round and that rush of him playing Lucky Ali away.......

Some moments nai bring it all back and howwwwweeeeeee!!!!!!

To coming home watching this robot movie electric something and the mind still in that zone.......when two feet strangely the sound of guitar strings just calms and all creates that storm inside of you almost bringing visual of his two feet along from Goa...

It's like that one music every sound has become his msuic now with the stamp of his two feet literally over them...!

To this waking up today ayyyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa him in black shirt in THAT black shirt to feeeeeeeel him this way again like never before to touch feel taste live him this waaaaaay the waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay he just moved differently in a black shirt every single time!!!! N

It's like it awakens the side of you lights that fire that's almost numb otherwise without him...

It's that spark that sudden fire that feel through you like you LOVE it and also struggle to tame it down to face the actual reality side of the day ahead........

Cause this is different when it hits you like THIS!!!!!!

Even now as y9u write this shhver of the hands as you feel the rush again reliving the visuals of this morning the him from thismoe Ning!!!!!!!

To actually living him away on WhatsApp THAT one face in the world for you I swear!!!!!!!!!!

Singaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa how only why only!!!!!!!!

Versovaa!!

 Some words and this sudden LOUD RUSH of feeeeeels gushes through all of you!!!!!!

Like you are that still on the outside but on the inside what's happening how's it happening is something that you alone know and can feel!!

If you could go anywhere in the world where would you go!!!!!

Ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa this one zooooooor ka feeeeeeeel it comes along with in that very instance...!

Some words I swear!!!!!!!

The very sound of it and all you could think of was Versova!!!!!!!

Another one of his most LOOOOOOOOOVED places of your life!!

Moments!!

 Amidst serious discussion and planning and you looking out notice the gulmohars in full bloom and the waaaaaay that visual takes you immediately off n away to the moment with him plucking them for you outside the Sanghi temple…

Like he had parked the car a lil ahead and he goes behind the car area to pluck it and you turn around looking out of the window living that visual away the waaaaaay he that adooooorably selects the best one out of the lot…like not plucking just any out of them but choosing the best one out of the lot!!

And that visual right right now out of nowhere there are some moments that precious to you even in that moment living him away it’s that feeeeeeeel of living some visual that precious the most important one out of all lived yet……be it then be it now years after still feels that special the way it brings the widest possible smile on your face right now!!!!!!

That beauuuuuuuuty of living him away ayyyaaaaaaa those were the days!!!!!!! 

That time TIME of your life!!!!!!!!!!

THE TIME of your life!!!!!!!!

Some days!!!!

 When you've been feeling this way all day even now just a drink down working on work marketing list thing and the waaaaaay the mind keeps drifting off and away to everything him and HOWWWWWE!!!!!!!

When you live such moments it's this realisation over again how that one face in the world no matter the distance how long it's been whatevrr it maybe the waaaaaay it can make you this happy away is beyond logics and reasons!!

Like all day today that one picture of his had this wide smile on you and you couldn't help it then can't help it now u give up writing and here it's brings you back cause you this baaaaad want to write out this feeeeeeeel this rush of happiness right now!!!!!! Like always it just shows on you not just for you alone to see and feel but others notice it that evidently on your face the smile the face the glow hits different!!!!!!!

Cause you can't share it out say it out any other way!!!!!!

That one face ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa it's like all coming back rushing back his details the sound of his smile sound of his voice his every detail through the picture coming back and howeeeeee!!!!!!

How truly absolutely lucky you gotta be for loving living and being loved by someone that way...

And living him every single time gves you these feeeels like just make you THIS happy!!!!!!

To live him charlie ibswear his details everything to anything bout him hayeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!

Walking talking breathijg moving form of LOVE just LOOOOOOVE that beauty of a human I say!!!!!!!

From a Holi full of day with allllllllll of him from that day to actually living that beauuuuuuuuuty of him the very next day...ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa such gorgeousness I sayyyy!!!!!!!

Singaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa even right now if you onlyyyyyyyy knew how are you being missed away!!!!!!!! Savjngt this THIS happy you away cause the picture the window the chilllllll gorgeous viiiiibe of him and something just bout it has made you happppppy this happppppy and you don't even know how the whats!!!!!

Daaaadi!!!!!

 HIS daaaadi is where your complete heart is ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa how do you even with your day with a straight face on when THIS inside of you is vibe this feeeeeeeeeeeeel this rushhhhmaxest possible ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa suchaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa gorgeous human I swear!!!!!!!!!

Singaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahow only you are being missed if onkyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy u knewhad the slightestttttttttidea I sayyyy!!!!!!!!!!

Menu Ishq tera peewee dooooooooobaaaaaaaaaaaaaa dooobuk dooooobuk I say!!!!!!!!!

Charlie kaisaaaaaaaaaa thooooo bhi kyaaaaaaa thooooo bhiiiiiiii howwwwweeeeeee thooooo bhiiiii whyyyyyyy thooooo bhi!!!!!!!