Eyes eyes baaaaaby!!!!!

 Theres everything at work that you are struggling to deal and sort with and then there’s Him HIMMMMMM theough n through making your days brighter nights yummier and moments crazier!!!!!!

To live him charlie hayeeeeeeeeeeeee howwwww much youve missed living him away from up closest like this no matter what you gotta through the day theres that one moment firat moment after waking up from him to him ayyyaaaaaaaa that state of mind from THAAAAAT much him from the himcoming to wanting needing to see him first soon as you are up and that mushyyyyy cozyyyyyy feeeeeeeel it gives away every single time is just beyonddddd……like you just stay there on bed for mins more past alarm living him away the mind the heart the all of you on the inside is in that completely different time place and mood zone i say!!!!!!

It’s indescribable to write out what and how exactly it makes you feel like………thaaaaaaaat one beauuuuuuty and feeeeeel of him like bursting magic through that one gaze that one looooooooooooove for even him just looking around…

Today being the almost final day sorting things out hopefully days will be easier and back to normal from tomo……

But its this one sunshine of your LIFE i say to just live someone howwwwweeeeee happy it can make your heart away nevrr i say never underestimate the power and magic of living someones lilst details away what it can do to you is beyooooooond…….

Sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa you lil big adooooooooooooorBle thing how only you are being missed awaaaaay!!!!!!

To words like these falling insync with the mood…!

Him bringing sandwiches made by him for you the morning to his simply delicioooooouuuuusssss energy right from the very start…

That one human i swear pooooooora heart and just HEART!!!!!!!!!!

Whatteeven!!!!

 Is it even normal amidst dealing with some serious staff issues and nonsense politics at work you instead were sitting n wondering today how woulf it now be to watch his story from your own account after all this time of chorofyijg away for all these years…

Like now that he did add you back on whatsapp theres this wait even today post lunch with all that staff stress nonsensically you instead sit there n wonder how it will be to actually legally view his story instead of your illegal ways…

Are thoughts n wanderings like these even normal to seconds back just smilinggggggg away living that beauuuuuuuuuuty of him on WhatsApp!!!!!!

How like this even after all this while…!

Sundazed!!!!

 On some days working under someone in a way seems easier than handling business…

Its too much stress since yesterday to deal with and then theres this random momemt when this friend comments at your earlier dp on instagram as one hand of the two looks like chipkaly lizard types and some words no matter what they mean its the waaaaaaays they bring him along makes it that much more beautiful…

Its when he was trying to figure out a nickname for you and he goes on with chipkaly karkeri kurkuri and then finally zeroes it down to karely…

That one word just made you that happy also on a picture that in your mind has the same green similar green backdrop as his picture……am telling you the missing mind can have the best possible imagination i swear!!!!!

Like its too much mess to deal with work tomo plus finding another driver like all of it together at once and you just donno how to deal with it…….

For now this one beauuuuuuty of a track and this himrush from morning Him definitelyyyyyyyyyy that beauuuuuutiful combination of a gorgeous calm and a wild wild west chaos too……and a goooooooorgeous one!!!!!!

Heres words like these adding that Himsparkle to an ordinary day cause including all of his every detail you loooooooooved his mind too…!

Words!!!!!!

 This hiiiiiiigh this viiiiibe of this time ofthe year like you can smell it in the air and a himcoming like this one thus morning to words like these!!!!!!!

Sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaa how only you are being missed away if onlyyyyyyy sliiiiiightest!!!!!!

Madness!!!!!

 This looooooooooove for him I swear!!!!!

No matter where you are what day it is that’s one beauuuuuutoful constant!!!!!

It’s your moms birthday and last second you decide to take the day off and head out for a staycation for a day at kohenur……

Some places nai this one stronghghhhhhhh feeeeel to be with him especially at the Asian dinner place ye jing something!!!!!

Like the second you are there that one Netflix crime movie kinda interiors with these Chinese warship wood used not the interiors not just the lights reflections all around it’s some Vibe of the place the music and that one strongggff feeel to be there with him!!!!!

And that one fataaaak smile on your smile just picturing him there on the opposite chair that too when mom was giving the lecture away bout taking care of yourself as you were baadly tanned on the arms and feet post shotot and there you were sitting there smiling away few sips down on the pure negroni and picturing him there in the glass reflection backdrop…..

Like being very adventurous bout the drink but boyhhhhhhhh the first sip down and that one feel woaaaaaab that was the purest form of alcohol ever!!!

And you literally tell your mom that you are completely her responsibility to head back to the room cause it was that pure and strong I say that very moment too as you lay your head over her shoulders cause you were that happppppy high living him every now and then on WhatsApp and the waaaay it was making you more himtrip away and howwwweeeee!!!!!

Even now it’s that still lil lil high smiling awayyyyy just with that feeeeeeeel of him from yesterday…..

It’s been crazy with the new driver getting the first and only dent at the back cause of wrong driving and that alone disturbed you baaaaaaaad with that echo of his words again you’ll understand this pain when you have your own car one day…

So today was like MUCH needed where you just wanted to get drunk without having to worry to head home as it was just in the below floor and heading back to the room holding onto your mom…..

To watching mask movie now and this one rush of him again like he actually used to do these things like exaggerated expressions when happy that squeak in his sound of voice his walking style suddenly this one feeeeeel of a glimpse of him in this character like you are this happppppppppy him tripping today with one track of Daljit lover on loop and your mom already has her doubts the waaaaaaaay you just couldn’t keep this smile off you ever!!!!!!

Like you had the general pass but wasn’t sure of the safety of it so give it a skip after reading bout the concert crowd issue at Daljit consort!!!!!!

There are moments there are places there are drinks and food that you miss him with even the lift moment today andbayyyyaaaaaaaa ways you miss him!!!!!!

Even now in this mask character this one strong feeeeeeel of him the way he would say something’s pouting his lips away when happy!!!!!!!

This one picture of him hayeeeeeeee mera pooooora ka pooooooora heart I say Tera Tera Tera ni mei looooooover sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!

Honaaaa ni meiiii recover!!!!!!!

Babyyyy babbyyyyyy Tera ni meiiiii looooooover!!!!!!!

This mind today just feeeeeeeeeels on a different only kindaaaaa high!!!!!!!

Thisssss viiiiiiibe of him around!!!!!!!!

Saving thooooooo bantaaaaaaaaa niiiiii looooover!!!!!!!!

 

Easy!!!!!

 This ease just living someone can put your mind into…..

Aankhonnnnnn ko teri aaadat hai tuuuu dokheee na tooo inhere shikayaaat hai!!!!!

Some moments as easy and beauuutiful as this to love and live him charlie in moments like these when youve been missinf him away waaaaaay tooo much that you find random people looking like him all at once around you…

This looooove to dress up and walk like him stand like him absooooolutely fangirling away to that beauuuuty of him…

That picture there defffff didnt do justice to this upclose one just like him in his himcomings zooooomed up version after SOOOOOOO long!!!!!!

This chillll this ease it fills your mind up with initially and then the slow sommersaults inside you begin and howwweeeee!!!!!

Sound of Him!!!!!

 There’s this beauuuuuty of this time of the year every single year for years now and the nights somehow are your most loooved!!!!!

Cause the waaaaaaaays they bring him along mainly this time of the year and it’s always been THIS magical…

Evenings bring him standing near the car just after dropping you waiting sometimes outside sometimes inside waiting for your palat moment just before entering your apartment gate and the waaaaaaaaaaaay it always used to bring that one special smile on him and then would turn the car around or if late night meets or dropping you till the door that corner of the most loved stairs spot you standing there and him downstairs near his car wait for those few seconds sending you a flying chummi and then get in the car…..to the nights bringing his sound of voice along like this clear his voice still that clear on the phone……from his chuckles to his random talks to him singing some song for you to his sleep sounds……ayyyyaaaaaaaa that was your most favourite the waaaaaay he would still continue talking even in his sleep lips going blub blub words unclear but that feeeeeeeeeel of him in his voice and the waaaaaaaaaaaaaaays it always used to make want to run to him and hold him away kiss him away that very moment it’s that adoooooooooorable kid in him that used to come out almost falling asleep to those sounds of him still sleeping and you hang up with a happy heart every single time looking up thanking up above for Him in your life…

To his call again complaining bout you hanging up while he still wanted to feel closer to you sleeping…..to his sound of voice whilst hugging you the waaaaay he would always pull the neck of your kurta a lil away and then place his face there rub his face a lil there still holding you and make that one sound…..

It’s that very moment that you still live him with in dreams actually from now on it’ll be himcomings not dream cause those moments are too real to be just a dream…

The waaaaaaaaaaaaay he would hold you and do that and making that one sound your COMPLETE heart right there……to his random things he loved doing wrestling with you on his bed or in his car the hand hit play of his who hits the hardest itsbthese lil things that your evenings are filled with this time of the year…like you change shower and stuff and play something on tv play his music on the floor with a iced water glass working on edits or some work and this rush of him like lilst things bout him howwwweeeeeee you love just reliving them away and akele akele smiling away laughing over something away sometimes and then look around cause it was a loud one…

To mornings now even with no himcoming there is now a himcoming every morning eyes still not ready to open and that need to live him away and the very first thing your heart goes hayeeeeeeeeee this one fellow I swear….his same pic on insta doesn’t do justice to howwwwwwwww beautiful he looks on WhatsApp zoomed version…

His eyes his nose his daaaaadi his messy wild hair his lips smaaaaaaaaacking I say that one feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel like looking right into your soul kinda stare……

It’s like everytime you see him be it this picture or other it’s the waaaaay there’s always His sound to the picture something saying and the more you are writing out this state of mind lately the more crazy it sounds…but charlie like that saying goes there are way too many ordinary things around the world LOVE shouldn’t be one of them…

Like you gottaaaa feeeeeeeeeel that deeeep dive feeeeeeeeeling into someone that you come out soaked completely and that’s when the absence doesn’t matter much…..but sure does the presence and HOWWWWEEEEEE!!!!!!!!

Even at the shoot day before when the model getting her hair done and you were tying your hair into a bun and she leans over her hair and touches your hair saying shriyaaa my hair came to I love you to your hair and you that THAT himzoned do back with your hair saying love u too…..cause that was something exactly dittttoooooo he does to your hair…

One day at his place his sister shows you a picture of him and her at some dhaba where he was bending towards her side ways his hair over her hair side ways kinda shot and you take that picture and go to his room excitedly saying how beauuuuuuutoful he looked in that picture it’s been years now and you still remember that picture the waaaaay he just looked in that one you forget in that moment you were in his sisters room and literally take the picture from her and run to his room to just tell him that……he just kissed your forehead away and you back in her room…..

That very evening soon as you are ready to head home him dropping you back he takes the car looks at you outside the gate stops it and leans over you and chummis you right outside his house and brings his head closer to yours saying with his hair I love you and do the same back with your hair I love you too….it made you THAT happpppppppy it’s the lilst things he did and made you LOVE HIM BIG!!!!!!!

Cause it’s lil if you see it but that much love wanting to live that moment with you and you didn’t even take it that way cause to you that picture was just about how beautiful he looked in that and you didn’t have any picture of his then…..to that one him ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaa he always used to say this thing bachi hai tu even being elder one am more mature somehow and he did love you like a Man…

Where to where only it went!!!!!!!!

This rush of him and with no himcoming just living him away soon as you are up in that picture that need to feel him away and had to had to get in the workout!!!!!!

This one beautiful beautiful beauuuuutiful madness to feel him with you it somehow never gets old or used to the waaaaaay it amazes you everytime you feel him on your skin him breathing against your neck as you stretch that yoga move…..it’s magical almost his music him along as you dance move and stretch it’s beyond you beyond logics to feeeeeel him away this strongly and this one sound You by Ry artist is pure madness and completely HIM!!!!!!!

Sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa the waaaaaaaays you are missed aisaaaaa waisaaaaaa kaisaaaaaa kaisaaaaaaaaaa only if you had the slightest idea!!!!!!!

This rush of him this presence the way it’s made that change in you evident even the model says shriya there’s this happy glow on you it’s different mom says the same and this is something thats always been right from the start…

Himglow I say!!!!!!!