THE sound…!

 Zillion decibels of sound that you come across every second of your day almost including the buzz of the air in the air and then of all the sounds that falls on the curtain of your ears there’s that one sound and the waaaaaaaaaay it zinggggghhhhh bolke rings throug you!!!!!

Of all the sounds in the world that ONE sound of his voice ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!

This one feeeeeeel every time you play the video soon as you come back home too that nurture care adooooooorableness in the sound of his voice for ringo like always being protective of anybody that he truly loves was also one of those zillion other traits bout him that you absolutely LOOOOOOOVED!!!!!!

The way he is super protective about anything and anybody that he truly absolutely loves u lucky lucky lil ringo I say!!!!!!

How truly absooooolutely lucky I say!!!!!!

That one slight conscious smile on him ayyyyaaaaaaaa how you used to adooooooooore that one expression on him too when you that lost in him driving and the waaaaay he used to make that similar face with that slight smile even with the irritation in his tone that one look on him!!!!!!!!!

Ayyyyyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa heart of your life I swear!!!!!

This tired head right now and the waaaaaaay it eases all of you away like suddenly THAT him highd himzoned even without his psy beedi…

Another one of those wishes something’s you write and complete madness still I say to hear this artists commonsaints  tracks living him away for real……it’s a WHOLE viiiiibe right now even without a single sip of your drink down this feeeeeeeeel like you are flying almost just that one look on him that one smile of his atyyaaaaaaaaa the waaaaaays it makes your heart dance away literally !!

Singaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa how only you are being missed away if he only knew I swear charlie!!!!!!

Especially in this phase you are in last few weeks like it’s come full circle finding your new studio space right close to his melting moments ice cream place….

Like one full circle after years lil did you know back then having his strawberry strip ice cream in that very place it will come down to this after years now…!

His smileeeeeee!!!!!!

 Ayyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaiyoooooooooo the waaaaaaaaays him smiling puts a smile away on your face right in the middle of packing organising and planning this khushiiiiii seeing him in white after this long!!!!!!!

Ayyyyyaaaaaaaaaaaa this heart right right right now!!!!!!!!

Suchaaaaa mood!!!!!!

 Him suchaaaaaaaaa mood sucbaaaaaa vibe!!!!!

When you wake up with THAT much him this zone of mind it lands you in and with so much going on it’s like your zone of getting lost and finding your actual self back again kinda vibes…

U try to keep yourself as busy and more as possible with work but there’s no denying the waaaaaaaaaaay his presence in dreams like these or moments in music that you find him or places you find him in like the cloud last night as it rained there was this one cloud above you were him tripping away on and with and howwwwweeeee!!!!!!

Like this one artist that feeeeels all of him with the vibe of the sounds common saints but there’s nothing sainty bout the waaaaaaays it makes you miss and feeel him away with the sound…

There’s so much to write so many feels so many moments and yet that feeeeel the more you write the more missing it grows away with and the you it transforms away into how do you even put a control seat belt your mind away!!!!!!

Missing him in waaaaaaaaaaays more than one even with cement in your hair literally amidst all chaos there’s him the ultimate SUNSHINE of your life I say!!!!!!!!

His that one presence that one smile that one feeeeeeeeeeel that one rush from this morning and this mind this you ever since then……..

How do you face a dusty day ahead when there’s this rosy hazy state of mind this himzoned away!!!!!!!!

Like howwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!

Singaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!

If he only ONLYYYYYYYYYYYY knew!!!!!!!!

Sound of music...!

 Working on edits and checking for interior reference and this artist you are loving the vibe of after discovering at true black days back...this one song starts to play this sudden need to shut your eyes and there you are in his Versova house him by your side looking you in the eye and with your hand on his chest where you could almost feel him breathe...

Some sound playing on his laptop just that visual of him looking at you with that feel of him breathing moving gently under the palm of your hand...

Like you are literally breathing him along with every breath that feeeeeeeel of him!!!!!

This has been happening a lot lately this visuals of him in specific places out of nowhere like you look up it's raining this huge gorgeous tree above and he comes along then and there in that very moment it's like that sudden rush of him against your skin out of nowhere!!

And the waaaaaaaaays it makes you feel like right now too this strong feeeeeeeeeeel of him right now too!!!!!!

You are trying this bad and yet moments like these and the waaaaaaaaaaaays they sway you off n away and howeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!

Singaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa hiwonly you are being kissed right right now nowwwwweeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!

Moments!!

 From editing pictures to now when the photographer mentions bout being too caught up with some family thing and you had to find a way out so you dobthese tutorials for 3 days and every bit of it goes off your head...

Finally today in your room alone and all of two feet and rhye playing you sit down for editing this reel and final cut you yourself were shocked caused the one thing you were that sure of was wanting to add your own his music to it...it's a way a thing bout having some of him with every work you do on your own...

It just fills something just makes it all that much more beautifuller for you...it's like sharing it with him like having him in some way...

And the second after a lot of LOTTTTTTT of self doubt post it the same second the model friend calls you up asking if it's the guys work or whose cause she knew about the photographer thing and the second you tell her it's done by you the things she mentions complimening your work it's that one feeeeeeeeeeeeel charlie....

From not knowing what editing meant back then when he was talking bout it to directing every scene move pose theme for the pictures and reels both with this place specially his house of gulmohar vibe from his movie shoot......even that day on shoot like you had one ear plugged in a r rahman music missing HIM away that baaaaadly and the other focus on the shoot and stuff......

It's that feeeeeel that viiiiibe of him in that place surrounded with all his love-in form of gulmohars all around you!!

Like can't write out what and how it made you feel that day through the shoot looking around above sometime in middle of it that vibe of losing yourself to all things him......like you almost could feel his touch over you that shiver for a second or two that strong vibe of him!!

And youd been waiting to get these reels done as you had got it done in a way with glimpses of gulmohar here n there and that feeeeeel of him how it used to make you feel kinda visuals living him away...

Like th whole vibe of it surrounded laced with all things him and himfeels!!

So you finally do it yourself and seeing the final now it just makes you this happy how you wish you could share it with him tell him it's your first edit ever not Pro enough like his but this feeeeeeeel of something's nai is just beyond the way it made you feel inceit was done...

To working on the other one now with same track that you were missing him away with then on the day of the shoot...

Playing it onloop and this rush of him now the more you are listening to it!!

Ayyyaaaaaaaaaa sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaa how only how only you are being missed away!!!!!!!!!!!!

This beauty!!!!!

 This beauty of some nights like these!!!!

Thisbaaaaaadly sleep deprived working on edits and yet it feels like the almost ideal with all him things rushing through you and howeeeeee right right now!!

Waking ups!!!!!

 It's that line between where you wanna be at and where you have to be instead that makes a huge shift!!!!!!

When you wake up from THAT much him again in your most loved black shirt 4th time in a row since last few days with that same level of peak missing you his rush that you feel smell with all of him away and still in that zone and you are slammed with 25-30 work urgency calls and having to make big decisions in a matter of an hour.......

U still donno how to deal with something's sometimes like your mind all of you on the inside still that comfyyyy rushyyyy loved up zone and on the outside having to be strict strong having to take care of things on your own kinda vibe like you just don't get the timing of things sometimes...

Like how am I supposed to deal with this where all of you still is in that himzone feeling most loved wanting to most love him away...

Like how do you even!!!!!!!!

It's like from all the rush blush flush on your skin to straight face conversations!!!!!!!!!!

Like what to what kinda vibe suddenly the day slams you with...

Sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa how only you are being missed away this very moment if you had the slightestestestestest of idea bhi!!!!!!!!!

I swear charlie if he only knew!!