Friday, 11 July 2025

No wonder!!

 When you just right now see some guru Purnima post on Instagram and realise yesterday was guru Purnima and this one strong realisation hits you it’s now been officially 10 years now!!!!!

No wonderrrrrr yesterday felt that weirdly weird all day…

10 years now having seen him for real or last seen him back then too it was guru Purnima in 2015 July 31st…

Until and unless it hits you you don’t really realise realise certain things nai…whowww!!!!

10 years since last seen him for real breathed him for real touched him for real kissed him breathed the same air as him for real watched him walk across the room closer to you for real……..

10 long years!!!!!!

Even writing it now over n over again feels waaaaay weirder than the realisation itself!!

No wonderrrrrrrrrrr yesterday felt the waaaaaay it did!!!!!!!

Thursday, 10 July 2025

Him!!!!

 One place of him and you come back home with THAT much him!!!!!!!!

It's that sudden feeling yesterday he was right here he was THAT close...to now!!

One amazing movie but the day yesterday just how it became all him........ this mind then this mind now that him!!!!!!!!

It's that sudden realisation of the then and now that hits you out of nowhere and this state of mind you land in ever since...

He was right there charlie just there close to you!!!!!!!!

Monday, 7 July 2025

Mooooood!!!!!

 One lilst glimpse of him in his room of all places!!!!!

Ayyyaaaaaaaaaa how baaaaaadly you longed to see his room again and after all these years ayyyaaaaaa that room of his…

It’s like you go rolling over decade back right there in his room karelllyyyyyy holding you by your waist screaming in that adoooooooorable tone of his voice showing this corner of the room that cockroach just flew it had wings now can’t see it anywhere…holding you tightly screaming moving you yaha waha trying to trace the cockroach and all you could feeel think live loooooooove adooooore was that version of him…

And you keep telling him it’s ok it’s not there anymore and him being him that beauuuuuutifully telling you all the possibilities of it coming back in the night to him like that adorably tells you it will find him in the night am telling you karely do something and all you could think of was everytime he said do something do something chummi eat his face up but his sister was just in the next room and his room door was open and him still screaming you couldn’t just couldn’t get your mind straight looking for the cockroach……

THAT many beauuuuuuuutifu versions of him lived in that very same room of his…

Ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa this mind today and it’s a mid week drink away tonight……

At work you see that halo over him and ever since then you just couldn’t help but think of the moemnt entering home and living him away……like that urge to live him and you ofc couldn’t cause mom was home today and you needed her phone for that…..the second you come home take her phone in your room and that feeeeeeeeeeeeeel of living him a side glimpse of his in his room editing and ayyyaaaaaaaaaaa your complete heart HEART right there on him!!!!!!

It’s that feeeeeeeeeling every single time charlie one something to do with him and it’s like your heart right out there living him away even the other day at first n only attempt at pickleball and this one guy in corner white shoes and all you could get your mind to relive was him in his white shoes walking across the gym and you living adoooooring him away from distance…

How do you even put the belts on this lil mad heart of yours!!!!!!!

How do you even put sense to it!!!!!!

Right now mind toooooooooo happppppy him highdddddd and this Norah singing is like leaning over him watching him from upclose smiiiiiiuling that shy high smile of his looking through you like into your soul and across……and all you can feel right now is him breathing his nose that slight twitch as you come close his eyes blinking that adooooorably as he gets conscious knowing you are that lost in him staring away……

Some tracks nai ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa this prettiest thing of your life all you ever loved loooooooooooooved!!!!!!!

Fuzzzzzy state of mind I say right now!!!!!!!!

He is that caramel custard vibe of your life I swear!!!!!!

This mind right in his room feeeeeelinf too many things away living toooooo many waaaaayyyyy too many versions of him away and this wish right now as the mind gets this beautifully slow and hiiiiigh super higjhhhhhh on him he better comes tonight too!!!!!!!

Black I say!!!!!!!

Sing miyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa if you only if ONLYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!

Like your face just changes just changes just like that one lil glimpse of him and it just changes!!!!!!!!

Always!!!!!!!!





Visual of loooove!!

 When even just the side profile fills you up with THIS much missing singaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!

HEARTTTTTTT of your life I say!!!!!!

Friday, 4 July 2025

Waking up!!

 Every single time he comes like this in black!!!!!!

This heart of yours ever since the waking up you just donno how to what to how only to I swear!!!!!!!

This mind that THAT him ayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!

The MOSTASTEDLY gorgeous I sayyyy!!!!!!

This close and yet and YETTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!

Ultimate level of loooooooooooove kinda visual to the sound of him breathing...!

How only you are being missed away sing miyaaaaaaaa!!!!!!

If only had the sliiiiiiiightest idea bhi...


Tuesday, 1 July 2025

To be loved!!

 What level of love someone has to have to open an account today’s times just to follow her to live her details away…

Knowing him and his love level to just know to be loved by him like that!!!!!!!!

What bliss what luckiness I say!!

Some realisations nai it gets all different somehow…just when you realise it realise the fact of it!!

Aaj ka morning realisation just feels different, VERY!!

LOVE!!

 This forever looooove for his hands ayyyaaaaaa a zillion n more moments lived with that beauuuuuty of his hand...even on drives holding your hand as you lay on his lap also sometimes being your ultimate safest and the most loooooved seatbelt with sudden brakes holding your tighter!!

Some visuals nai bring along a zillion more memories and howwwwwweeeeeeeeee!!!!!

Today him petting that cat was all that and more...one lucky pussy I say!!!!!!!

It's that affection that fondness the waaaaays he just pets the cat away...this ever love for animals ayyyaaaaaaa that one big beauuuuutifulky gorgeous lil human I say!!!!!!!

This hugeeeee missing u come back home with right now after the longeat day of work...